I almost hurt my baby :-(

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name changed as so :( about this.

I've had a particularly trying day with DD (1 yo) not napping and being very shrieky. She is a bad sleeper at the moment too so no doubt that is making everything worse...She just woke up again (about every hour tonight so far) and I tried settling her back to sleep but she wouldn't have it. Something just shifted in my head and I suddenly had an overwhelming horrible urge to hurt her, bite her or something :( :(

I just feel I'm about to lose it sometimes and dont know how to stop these feelings. I don't know how on earth I can feel like this tbh and am so incredibly ashamed and wracked with guilt. I'm scared I will actually hurt her one day if I'm feeling particularly tired or fed up.

Please help :(

do go see gp.there is no one "medical route" it all depends on you, your circumstances, your current presentation, it may be a referral to health visitor, or additional support, or groups to support mums.please dont be avoidant of seeing gp, or worry about it. gp can access and refer you to other services. it needn't all be prescribed medications. but next week seems wee while off? if its hard to get appt can you ask for home visit? i am glad things seem better today,and that your mum was supportive

but do take support/help available to you

you mentioned a counsellor?certainly do raise with them