not sure i'm doing the right thing, i don't feel happy in my access course, don't like the people i'm doing it with don't like the college and am over whelmed by the course subjects. i think i should go and get some work experience, think i'll get a part time job instead. don't really need to do access course as i have all my fomal education completed years ago. am at a loss as i was really looking forward to doing some grown up stuff. i'm also feeling guilty about putting dd into nursery three days a week.