I feel so stressed at the moment, as if I've lost control and can't be bothered to regain it.
My house is a complete tip...and by tip I MEAN a tip, there are dirty clothes on the bedroom and bathroom floor, pots all over the kitchen, crumbs and stains all over the living room floor, a HUGE pile of ironing...
I have no groceries in and no money. Tonight we've just had sausages, frozen veg and new potatoes which was horrible, the sausages were tiny, the kids didn't eat the veg and the potatoes were tasteless.
The kids are off for a week and we have nothing to do, my friend doesnt bother with me unless she's bored or has nobody else and my mum is away on holiday, was supposed to be going to my grandads but he's too ill.
On top of this I'm weeks behind with my open uni course and have spent no time with the kids at all this week, promised my son 2 days running that I'd do baking with him and let him down each time because I just can't be bothered.
And aside from all that, their behaviour and disrespect for everything is wearing me down. They wreck everything they play with, make a mess every room in they play in. One of them keeps weeing all over the toilet seat and it stinks.
I know I could sort all this out but I just feel like its too much to take on so I sit back each day and dont bother but its getting worse