This thread has conjured up a tremendous amount of emotion for me. I have thought about it quite a bit over the last two days, hesitated to contribute because I not sure how to voice my feelings, but will now try. I must warn you now - this may be VERY long...!
I left my job at the World Trade Center 18 months before the attack. When I was offered the job there, and told my mother, she said "the WTC! you have to go! what an opportunity!" And I went - all starry eyed - I lived for several months in the hotel attached to the buildings, and eventually found an apartment in Brooklyn - my bedroom window overlooked the NY skyline and the towers. I used to sit out on my fire escape and draw pictures of where I worked. My first day at work I cried in the bathroom at lunch break, terrified, wondering why I had come to this big bad city. I called my (one) friend in the city, and she took me to Windows on the World - we drank martinis - it rained, and there was a rainbow. She said "see Jo? that is for you." It sounds cheesy, but after several drinks, I believed her. And she was right - I made fabulous friendships, and loved being there. The last time I saw several friends was at my baby shower six months before the attack.
I am not as well versed as many of you on the many issues the affect (effect?) our world. I attribute Mumsnet for making me more aware - of so many things. SUVs? Always something I could never afford - never thought much beyond that - but now I do. The more I learn - the more I realize how much I do not know. Quite a few years ago, my brother (who lived in Africa for many years) educated me on the perils of the diamond trade - I wouldn't wear one now for anything. I suppose it is an ongoing experience of enlightenment.
I sincerely regret the man who is our President. I didn't vote for him, or his father. I cringe when I see him speak - and when he said he wanted Bin Laden "dead or alive." His "how the west was won" mentality is an embarrassment - and not indicative of the feelings of a vast majority of Americans (I hope I hope I hope!).
I worry, and pray, for all of those paying the price for the terrorists. I agree that there is an appalling disconnect with many people over the loss of life in Afghanistan, et al. And the most dangerous thing is the "us" vs. "them" mentality. There are so many areas the funds collected could be distributed to - and I don't propose to know to whom or how to do it. I just know I have to make sure my dd understands and respects the value of every life and culture that exists in our world.
There is a tremendous loss of life in this world, by causes that should not exist. Perhaps I occasionally turned a blind eye to it because to look it square in the face was so overwhelming I just wanted to give up. That ignorance is no longer a possibility.
Oh my, such a rambling I have done here. I will no longer bore you with my rant, and wonder if any of this will make sense when I read this in the morning!