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Quootie's friends here please - new support thread

419 replies

beegeeWithBellsOn · 22/12/2006 22:27

Hello Quootie - thought we should start a new thread.

Will be thinking about you tonight. Hope you can get some rest. Could you try having a bath or something? Can really help me to un-wind.

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 11:25

Feeling abit rough... im sooooooooo glad I got the earlier appointment, this is really hard. DH is signed off work - he says he's feeling ill, but I don't beleive him - I think he is worried what I might do. Might get him to phone GP today actually now I remember!

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:14

Why does DH have to go from OK to an arse in a matter seconds. He can be so nasty sometimes...

mellowma · 29/12/2006 18:16

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:18

lol. He just suddenly says horrible things quite randomly. Oh well.

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:41

Bollocks, im just going to say it - im feeling really shit again.

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:43

made myself click post there.

Skribble · 29/12/2006 18:43

Glad you posted that just keep talking, we are listening .

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:46

xxx just getting all them panicy/axious/shakey feelings, and general... I dunno... upsetness (if thats a word) Feeling very tearful for some reason

mellowma · 29/12/2006 18:51

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Skribble · 29/12/2006 18:55

Get that way too sometimes, not so much now. Sometimes you have to stop trying to figure out why but just accept you are feeling crappy and see what you can do to feel a bit better. I used to sit for hours trying to work it all out tying myself in knots, but worked best if I just got up and did something or went for a walk, OK its a bit dark and freezing for that ATm .

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 18:55

No....I had a bubble bath (first bath I think since pregnant! Don't worry ~ I shower every day!) and shaved my legs , tried to relax, candles aswell! Didn't relax me one bit... tried TV, scrubbed the bathroom completely... this is the only thing that seems to help... I guess because my brain is thinking about other things eg. typing, instead of my body doing something, but my mind is on other things...

mellowma · 29/12/2006 18:58

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QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 29/12/2006 19:04

yep. Hopefully they are more helpful than last time. Ive been thinking of doing a list, I get mental block when I go to these things

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 30/12/2006 14:04

3 days Not long now. Im getting nervous.

CheeryGarcia · 30/12/2006 14:10

Quootie, what do you want/expect from this first appointment? That idea about making a list could be a good one, particularly so you can be very clear about what it is that you want - the answer to that question may seem blindingly obvious to you but you do need to be able to express it to others, and make sure it's the direction that any treatment takes you.

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 30/12/2006 14:14

What do I want?... To be thrown into the best treatment possible, getting therapy, medication, the whole hog.

What do I expect?... Same as 2 years ago. A few random questions, bit of a chit chat, nothing deep, then being told they will "see what they can do". I was told last time I wasn't really the right criteria for some reason - I guess because I don't have a mental health problem? I dunno if depression/PTSD/panic/anxiety are mental health. I don't know what else they are, but... last time they couldn't help me.

CheeryGarcia · 30/12/2006 14:20

Hi Q, from other thing's you've said, I wondered whether you were expecting more of what you'd experienced before! No wonder you've been feeling nervous!

So, assuming you get the treatment that's right for you, what is it you want to be different/better as a result of that?

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 30/12/2006 14:23

Just stop getting flashbacks, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, just be able to live a normal life, instead of being trapped at where I am now...

CheeryGarcia · 30/12/2006 14:44

This is stuff you can put on your list!

So, what's a 'normal' life for you? What are you like/how do you feel in your 'normal' moments? ('Cos I bet you have the odd one or two, even if it's just now and again!)

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 30/12/2006 14:50

Normal life.... I can barely remember it! Just be... able to watch anything, go anywhere, do anything without seeing something that sets me off, just getting out the depression bit, and having energy and enthusiasm for all the old things I used to do, not be scared to go to sleep, just to get on and have a life really...

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 02:02

Just tried to go to bed and had the most horrific panic/anxiety attack and flashbacks Im soooooooooooooo tired though

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 02:03

ill feel shit in the morning, but ill go dig out the last 3 diazepam

shit fuck bollocks

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 02:12

Taken 2 - fingers crossed that'll do something. It's eerie in here so late... im not used to it anymore... If anyone is lurking, excuse my mumbling to myself, giving me something to do...

HappyHogmanAitch · 31/12/2006 02:14

night night, sweetheart. think fluffy thoughts and dream lovely things.

QuootiepieTheNewYearsAss · 31/12/2006 02:16

lol, thanks