ok, basically just needed to rant. life has been ticking along quite slowly and me feeling quite down since i lost my twins in june. found coping really quite hard some times so made a brave move to go to the docs to ask for some tablets.
apparently crying yourself to sleep every night and having major moodswings and generally feeling shit about yourself isnt bad enough depression for tablets. i need to talk to my hv!
My dp had to go to kings college hospital in london last week, so we all head down there as my sis works there. we live 2 hours away in cambridge. i have my dd and my mindee 17 months. get them changed into pj's milk them etc and go back to the car 20 mins after ticket ran out to find...... no car. the buggers had towed it! had a mile walk, lugging 2 toddlers and bags etc to find it is £200. we dont have it so parents say will pay on card over phone. No wont take payment over phone. i am a blubbering wreck, ring my sis who drives for an hour and puts it on her credit card.
Next day my dd who had an ear infection 2 weeks ago and medicine had run out woke up screaming etc. thrown up 18 times in the last 4 days including on my mums new carpet and in car. she now has an inner ear infection, chest infection and kidney infection!
OK, going to scotland next week to take dd up to see my nan. check bank balance at tesco to realise my money has disapeared. haul arese to bank some bloody bastard has stolen my money out of my account. spend forty mins filling in forms etc. drop dd home head off to police station etc. decide to get chinky on way home to cheer up. while waiting get another bloody parking ticket as do the 4 cars parked with me. ( not on yellow lines) everyone parks there for chinky and guess where our towns new traffic warden stsrted work!!!
now come down with a stomach bug so throwing up, dd still ill though getting better. still working and looking after 2 toddlers and basically trying not to break down.
and guess what. spoke to the hv and she thinks i need tablets!!!! NO SHIT SHERLOCK!
god so sorry its long. dont expect replies just want to rant. feeling very sorry for myself. please excuse me.