Im new here but thought it the best place to try and 1. vent my frustration out perhaps. and 2. get some advice.
Ok where to start. My husband daughter is just having her first baby, shes the same age as me and i think of her more as a sister than anything like a stepdaughter. I have 2 wonderful d's age 6 & 2 yrs. But having been really close to her prior to her becoming pregnant i feel ive been pushed aside also we lost her bother in terrible circumstances b4 she found out back in feb. Well since that i dont know i just feel like myself and my hubbie her dad have been pushed out. Or am i just seeing things differently for some reason. we would also be in touch everyday see each other a lot but not since feb and well i feel like ive lost a very good friend.
also her mum and dad dont get on at all so i feel kind of in the middle of their situation over the death of their son and now birth of the grandson. i know i have to keep him away from her. but on top of all that im really jealous of her having a baby. even though i know i wouldnt like to go through all that again not after last time with and ES and the horible postal natal depression sleepless nights need i go on there, i just feel there something wrong with me. is it normal to feel like this? just feel like im over steping the mark for no reason, and prob havent knowing me im being daft but i just cant shake this horrible feeling. Or am im being exiled (bit strong that ) or am i feeling like this cos of this crap between hubby and the EX misses. who to be honest deserves what she gets right now. oh i really dont know where im going with this.
Help please
(confused member)