Ha thumblovewitch- you hit the nail on the head, I also saw the tearoom as a Room of Requirement, LOL! Awesome!
Thank you all for your good wishes. I must confess I've had a little toomuch wine tonight in order to quell my pre-op nerves. To be honest, I am simply dreading being in hospital again. Jackbaby's birth was such a nightmare and knowing I'm going back in hospital (albeit a different one) is making me feel quite sick. Someone made some trite comment the other day that I needed to "forgive my midwife and move on". I just wanted to lamp the silly bitch her. As much as I can, I have forgiven my midwife for leaving me to labour for 36 hours when they knew that Jackbaby was stuck from the very first exam... but I cannot forgive her for telling me that forceps were my best option (rather than a section) - I don't know if I will ever get over the trauma of the operating room, the confusion, the shouting, dear God, the blood and the fear... and it all could have been avoided. As could this OP having Monday. Maybe over time (much more time) this will all fade, but I can still be back there in a heartbeat, and feel so angry and helpless and frightened... and it takes me, too, some time to get over it when I've had to be back there. I can be happy for other women who have had easy births while still being sad for myself, but I have days when I cannot handle the insensitive comments, such as, "the next one will be easy".
Aaaargh. Sorry to dither. Thank you all for being here, for being your lovely, lovely selves, and for making me laugh when I'm down. I heart you all.
Oh, by the way, about "outing" that other poster - yes, you were subtle, zazen... too bad! I really try to be non-judgmental about everyone because we all have our stories and our traumas, and so, no doubt, does she... but I've had to restrain myself several times from telling her to stop being such a goddamn bitch (sorry Justa - taking the Lord's name in vain). Grrr. I'd like to lamp her!!!
Ok, back to my vino and hanging out with my lovely mum - good night, sweethearts, see you tomorrow!