Struggling

[Kota]

I have been with my fience for 18 years but recently by accident that he was seeing someone behind my back. He claims that she was just a friend. We tell each other everything but he kept this one from. My life shattered million pieces for everything I gave up to make this relationship work. I left before Christmas as I work overseas. Though I still love him and miss him. I can't get pass the betrayal and trust part.

She is a Diana or a Judith originally from Scotland and works for NHS which could mean millions. Worst part she doesn't know anything about me. And my fiancé kept his phone close to himself but keep communing with her all the time with her.

So you've left him?

We are still talking on the phone and face time which I am struggling as I am hurting inside. We agreed to try and make this work. I am stationed overseas so I was supposed to have Christmas and New Year with him but left earlier that I should. While even when I am talking to him, he is responding to her messages.

I have repeatedly told that she had to be told about me. He claims that she is going through rough time with a death of a cousin. But I also mentioned that he is taking advantage of her situation.

If you're stationed abroad can you arrange for your things to be separated from his?

Tell how could I let go of 20 of knowing someone, friendship, love, memories of good and bad time go. When I still love him. My back ground and made up is different. I was brought up differently and both our faith, I thought would endure.