Knock knock, is there anybody there?
If I didnt have this thing to go on in the evenings I think Id go mad, had a really really fed up day. H no better, spent almost the whole day in bed, looks dreadful, and has been back up since 9pm. Put the trio up at the same time and just been up to the boys, believe me I have tried everything, think I am going mad. My friend tonight told me to get some sleeping pills, but I do not want to start on those, I already take the odd diazapm when I get panicky, its not that I cant sleep, its that I dont want to go to bed early, I want to have time to me once the whole house is quiet. Then when I do get to sleep H wakes me anyway taking Gladys to the loo!!! Cant remember who asked what stage H is at, but hes just had his 3rd chemo cycle, 3 more to go over the next 6 weeks, then scan, then depending on the result up to London for liver surgery, then 3 months further chemo then ileostomy reversal, then its fingers x`d!!!!! So no light at the end of the tunnel yet. I am just feeling very sorry for myself, my brother is off to Turkey tomorrow and I am I admit green with .
Now Shabs...................I am sooooooooooo with Derkster, how come everything is your fault? How dare he say what he did to you, I am sooooooooooooo hurt for you. You and I go back a long way, we met through sadness but we have always made each other smile. I am so very very lucky to have met you, I count you as one of my truest and most loyal and lovely friends, I feel for you, and want to shake him. You have brought into this world four beautiful and good boys, you have put up with more than most people will ever have to, yet you are always there for anyone when they need help. You have a huge heart, full of love, an amazing spirit and I love you for being you xxxx