D'y ever wonder if Shabs will put Lewis down?!!!!

[TiggerLicious]

Yes!!!! Touch down!!!!

Victory dance!!! I've made it!!!!

I must away to my bed, its chilly here in my alcove tonight and my ankles are puffy from being on my feet all day! And despite the rumours that have been going round today I am not pregnant!!

Just been perving at Nikos on instant messanger ROFL. Night night honey . Kale Nits. Sagapo. xxxxxx

I hear toyboys are good for you.........kale nits Shabs, sagapo xxx

Will let you know if I ever get the chance to find out. Kale Nits from Shabbys evil twin sister xxx

Just a quick hello as I have been absent for a few days. DTS weighed today and all good. I remarked to HV that I was convinced we had got the wrong baby back from NCU as Isaac is so completely different to Thomas, (doesn't stop eejits people asking if they are ID)and I think she thought I was being serious. That's marked my card no doubt.

Falirakis kids holiday song

Tom wanted me to put this on MN and tell you the following:-

'When we go to Faliraki it is superb. When there are some children in the bars they put this song on and get everybody up dancing. I love it because my friend Nikos says 'Thomas Thomas come here while I kick your bum' he doesn't say bum he says the word that starts with a and has four letters but my mum will go mad if I say it!'

I just found a note on the computer desk from Tom asking me to tell all the multiple mums!!!

Hiya Merly - I used to get that all the time. Ignore the daft buggers..... xxxx

I lurve that - loads and loads of kids in the middle of bar street doing that dance. Bar street is only wide enough for 1 and a half cars The Greek people love kids and they all end up joining in with the dancing.

OMG Im knackered now!!

Nutter rolling eyes there, I was.

Night girls xx

Morning Momma. They slept right through!!! Yeeeaaaahhhhhh that is just wonderful!

I had to keep a 'diary' with my twins. Gareth was on loads of medication and I had to record everything cause I had cotton wool for brains - still have!

Sometimes I read through it and wonder how come I am still alive. Gareth needed to be fed every 2 hours day and night and often Danny would join in........[matchsticks to keep eyes open emoticon]

Danny said yesterday how tired he was and I just gave him the 'dont tell me you are tired with one baby look.' He started laughing and said 'Cant have been that hard mum'

Girls thank you all for your support it means so much. I am doing o.k. can't keep the Tigger down for long,just a bit battered and bruised.
To be honest it has been brewing for a while,thought the baby thing would help but I knew everytime I went up for the hos[ita appointment it was the wrong thing to do,which is why i guess i kept putting it off.

I just can't be with someone when my hearts not there. I truly believe that life is for living and I don't want to look back or feel this way when I'm older. I am struggling to deal with his pain but not my own. the way hes treated us I should be enjoying every moment but I just feel really bad as the worst feeling in the world is to love someone and not have it returned.
It would be so easy to say come back but I know within two seconds it would return to the same old thing. I have given him plenty of chances and warned him many times, I just think he never thought I had the bottle to do it.
So i am not wallowing,like I said before my tears were cried a long time ago. My kids are my life so its 'up and at 'em' from here on in. I'm going to grab everything life has got and show my kids the right path in life. I have a new job coming up as a youth worker and only positive things ahead.

Thanks for everything you guys said, I love being part of this family.x.x..xx.x.x.x.x

Momma - how old are your DTs? Just seeing what I've got to look forward to.

TK - thanks, that's good to know about your birth experience, I'll try not to presume any more.

Tiggs, thankyou for coming on and sharing, you know we are all worried for you.

You sound like you're doing the right thing girl, if you've tried and tried and tried again. My dsil had a similar experience with her DH who talked the talk but never did what he said he would do. It was him who wanted the divorce and eventually (after they moved from the US to UK and back again three times in an effort to make it work!), she said 'Okay, that's it'. The good news of her story is that after a couple of months, he found himself so genuinely devastated that he wanted to try again, and she said 'Right, this time, it's on my terms.' She set down the rules and kept him at arms length, but amazingly, after nine years of marriage, he gradually did it (not overnight, like he'd tried to do before, with lots of empty promises) and they built it back up. She now has a job that she loves, after previously scrimping and saving to make up for his past mistakes, and they have just had their second child.

If things cannot go on the way they have been doing, then you have to put a stop to it for everybody's sake. Maybe it will be what he needs to genuinely get himself sorted out, without you as a crutch, or maybe you'll be rid of a bad thing and you can concentrate on you and your gorgeous children's future.

We all think you are amazing and love you very much, never forget that.

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welcome GBB

LG&T - fantastic about it all happening while dh is home - I'm thrilled for you both and you are 17 days ahead of me so they could share a birthday

I am seeing the m/w tomorrow and then it will be waiting for a scan date

tigger - also great to see you starting to bounce again we are here ((near enough round the clock!!!))

Hiya girls. Tiggs - I wub you wittle wone!! Thats what my Matt would say! I weally weally wub ya. xxx Wish I had your courage at your age.

Life is so short and I try to live every day like my Matt did....he once said (aged about 4) 'Mam, we dont wive vewy wong do we? I think we have to gwab evwey day by the balls and shake it'

....I didnt tell him off for saying balls either!!

Hello.... I said hello where the hell is everybody

Sorry, just noticed you were here and got to go

Am currently recovereing from flinging DD3 in the air and flying her around the room as 'superbaby' came on (Storymakers)!

And being irritated as i think either our neighbour must be frofoundly deaf or just thinks i enjoy hearing her music. Hmph.

Just read your earlier post. Your son must have given you a lot of laughs!
Sorry i can't stay, need to make DD3 her dinner.

Tigs good to see you are holding up ok but it must be very hard. Even though you know it is the right thing.

Oooggs are you terrified of it being TWO? You will have (I think) a slightly smaller gap than I have between DS1 and the DTs.

Merly I get asked constantly if mine are identical. Well one is a boy, and he is about 5lbs bigger than the other one, who is a girl. So what do you think??????? Some dopey lady at the swings actually thought DS1 and DS2 were twins and then I had DD as a singleton (DS1 is 23 months older than DTs...). At the time DS1 was running round the playground and DS2 was asleep in his car seat on the buggy.

Shabs I love your little anecdotes of Matty. And I also am marvelling that are still here after 2-hourly feeds day and night, plus another DT. I am struggling at the mo, and DS2 sleeps through every night from 7pm to at least 5am, just DD who feeds at 10pm and then once in the night, but DH does the 10pm feed so I realise I should count myself a bit lucky...

Hiya egg - all of Gareths feeds took a minimum of 45 mins as well I have been known, on many occasions, to express milk and put it into a bottle - then to use an eye dropper to drop it gently into his mouth. He found bf impossible, when he fed from a bottle he would turn bright blue and struggle after a few minutes. I weaned him much earlier than I should - and that was incredibly successful. He managed to get from 4lb 1ounce born (3lb 15ounces three weeks later) to almost 11lbs at 7 months.

Me and him certainly 'fought the good fight' and we did a good job [pat myself on the back emoticon]

Dont tell anyone: he lurved milky bars and custard

Shabs, I think in the grand scheme of things that giving him milkybars and custard was fabulous. Why not give him a little bit of pleasure!

My DS1 also loved custard from about the age of 8ish months, he was obsessed for a while and called it "yummy yummy" and would grab it from shelves in shops as we wheeled past. Wont touch the stuff now.

How how how did you cope with that feeding regime? I struggle at the mo as DS2 takes about an hour per feed, and DD about 40 mins, but they do have small breaks so I can do other stuff (try to get some time with DS1 etc), and I only have to sit there holding a bottle, don't have to watch all the time to make sure the dropper was going in the right hole (!).

Oh, and my DD only weighs about 12lbs now at 5 months, so little Gareth did brilliantly.

Hi Egg.