Thanks everyone, feeling a bit better today, took a bracing walk in the rain, nearly got blown into the sea! Told DH this morning that I was sorry I said I hated him, dont, but just felt pushed to the edge, he did give me a very much longed for hug and say he was sorry too. He puts it all down to us being too old, well, thats not going to get us anywhere, we have to get on with it. Thomas looked a right sight going off to school with his black eye, everyone was tired this morning and wouldnt get up for school, Becca went off looking such a mess, and for once I thought, let her get on with it! Estar, you have given me an idea, and also what you said about the boys being sick of each other, had never occured to me, good point. We have a z bed, it might be an idea to try putting one else where, its worth a try, thank you. We so need a bigger house, we are going to put this place back on the market in the Spring, but feel sad that we really dont want to move, but realistically we have to have more space, well see. Right, better move, school, time, bought the necessary bits to "bun" Becca`s hair for the show tonight, never done a bun before! Thanks everyone, nice to know I am not going mad.