Just that really
Sorry this is just to whinge 
I have 2 month old twins, plus a three yr old. DH is at work all day and no family near by , so I spend all day trying to survive. T1 has colic and seems to scream morning till night. Threenager is demand demand demand all the time. T2 is a lovely, gentle soul who is always waiting for attention whilst I deal with the rowdy ones, so I constantly feel guilty about that.
Somebody tell me it all gets easier soon 