D'ya ever wonder why we ALWAYS miss the 1,000 message thingeymebob???

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Mama - hugs to you too. I hope you get your own room soon (waterworks maybe?) , shout at the bloody woman on her phone to shut the fuck up as its disturbing you and everyone else or butt in with unwanted opinion? Might annoy her enough to get the message. When I had Emily, the woman in the next bed would take phone calls at 1am. I get that she had been there a long time, but that was still inconsiderate. Texts are one thing. One sided conversations are completely another.

I've already complained to the nurse who had a word with her and she said, "I'll be 5 minutes" half an hour ago... I've asked her politely to either go out the room and talk or turn it off because I'm exhausted, she nodded then completely ignored me.

Now she's opened the window because she's "warm". I don't care that she's 36 weeks... I will drop kick her. DH is dead set on talking to her tomorrow - and he's stubborn so I'm dreading it.

The woman who's room I'm having isn't being discharged until tomorrow. I've already tried waterworks and was just given pity looks.

Gunna try and sleep and ignore her.

Hope Jen gets better, sok, at least you have an idea of what's up with her instead of waiting for those stupid GP appointments.

Oh Mama and Soks so sorry for you both too. What a time we are having. Mama you always come across as being so calm and accepting of situations, it must be so worrying. And for you Soky, I really really hope they sort your darling little girl out very soon. xxxx

Nick her charger when she does eventually go to sleep/toilet. or snap the lead and feign ignorance when she realises it won't work. Bloody ignorant cow.

I'm all for being able to keep in touch with people and those phone cards are so expensive. But a teeny bit of consideration goes a long way. Your dh shouldn't have to have a word, the mw should but clearly they don't like the woman. Is there a senior staff member who would confiscate her phone?

I'm one of those who are happy to put on a front to hide how scared I am but when alone like this with difficult people it's testing and I just can't switch off my mind.

She doesn't know a thing that's wrong and it's not her fault that she's oblivious to the worry and panic I'm feeling but I just... I'm feeling resentful and envious of her perfect pregnancy and I just want to take it out on her and it's not fair. I want DH here and I want to sleep.

What a state we all are, eh? We need rocking chairs and alcohol and some bloody good news!

... I may have had a little fit.

She laughed loudly on the phone, and I screamed at her to shut the fuck up. The nurse came running in - it's amazing how they come running when you're screaming but don't bloody answer your call button.

I called her a rude, ignorant plonker and the next time she picks up that phone it'll be out the window. Nurse wasn't impressed but I don't give a shit.

I got told not to disturb others and she was finally told to get off her phone. Maybe now I can sleep.

DH is sending me pictures of sleeping dc so I can having something to keep me sane for the rest of the night.

Trips - my dear, dear RL friend. Thinking about your precious boy today......and thinking about you and DH. No matter how we try to stick on a plaster - no matter how much we try to control our grief IT DOES NOT SUBSIDE. I wish we lived closer...I wish we could get pi**ed together and exchange memories of our sons. Nobody (unless they sadly witness the death of their child) gets it - thank God that they dont to be honest. My DH bought me a massive bunch of white scented lillies this week....they are just starting to flower. I will dedicate them to your precious Matthew and my Matt & Gareth.

Shabs, Trips - I haven't got a clue what to say. I've never been in that situation and I pray I never do. I don't know much about your situations (I hate that word seems insensitive but I can't find a more appropriate word) only passing comments about the loss of your sons, something no mother should go though. I'm sending you both my thoughts, especially you, Trips, today.

Oh mama. I cannot believe you got told not to disturb others when she was on her phone. But glad it worked. I know she does not know what you are going through right now and vice versa so I can only assume she wrapped herself up in a bubble of ignorance. Hope you are soon in your own room.

Trips - sending you warmest wishes for the gentlest of days today.

Goodmorning......thank you my friends, esp you Shabs yo who has walked this road with me for 19 years. Unbelievable, 19 years and yet I only have to close my eyes to relive the screaming nightmare of that day. I will go to the cemetery this morning, we have the nurse coming at 8am. xx

Morning girls xx

Hope that everybody who is in hospital is soon 'on the mend' and soon home. I hate hospitals.

Sending my love Trips xxx

Trips - I hope today is gentle if not kind to you.

Had more cramping this morning but nothing like those yesterday morning. Had a scan at 9am. T1 fluid hasn't increased enough but their heart beat is healthy and shows no signs on kidney/organ problems. T2 is happily chilling in their sac with not a care in the world haha.

hello girls x x

Busy busy weekend!

thinking of you today trips, will light a candle later in memory of your beautiful boy xx

hope Jen and mama are both on the mend soon, and trip's dh. Maybe we should move the shagpile into the hosp! Do hope eveyrone recovers soon x

Evening ladies.

Trips - thought about you today and gave my boys extra kisses.

Managed to fall asleep around 4am was woken up at 9am to be moved to my new room which is lovely and quiet! Had visits from family & even a phone call from my brother in Russia.

Had 2 more scans both showed no increase of fluid around T1 but they still have a strong heartbeat and was sucking their thumb and T2 had hiccups again.

I've stuck my scan photos on the wall facing the bed so when I'm feeling scared or worried, I just look at them and thank whoever that I'm still carrying them both.

I'm glad you have your own room now mama. Fingers tightly crossed for you.

I was going to post to say Jen seemed so much better this morning, as is so often the way. But her spark didn't last and by the time we'd had lunch in Sainsbury's and were about to start shopping, she was screaming. Absolutely ear piercing. Didn't want her dummy, to be picked up, to be out down... I ended up carrying her round the supermarket as she did eventually settle enough to snuggle on my shoulder. Jen slept all the way home, had tea, milk and went to bed with barely a murmur. When I checked on her earlier she was back to boiling hot and sweaty clammy.

Both the bigs played up something rotten while we were out. Their table manners went to pot, their behaviour was appalling and the result is the trip to the farm I had planned for tomorrow is now not happening. I'm so upset as we don't often get out for the day and this is a rare week day where we are all together. It would have been lovely as the majority of schools go back tomorrow. Although I have told dh we WILL be taking them to the park as being cooped up in the house all day will send all of us batty. It's not as much of a treat as it would have been but it will be better than snapping and snarling at each other.

Evening girls, thank you all for your kindness..............these "days" become unreal. I did cry at the cemetery, its seeing their names. I now have Matthew, Mum and Dad, you feel as though you have a part of you missing, gone with them.........if that makes any sense. Dh went to bed this afternoon so I took myself off to see a friend and her three batty dogs.........did me the world of good. Dh has had a slightly better day, only was major leak and the redness has started to fade. Kids are back to school tomorrow and tomorrow my brother goes up to London for his heart surgery. Brighter days are hopefully ahead. xx

Sending my love to your brother Trips and best wishes for better health for him.

Tom starts his GCSE's properly tomorrow. We have spent the day revising History.....a subject that we both love. Have googled endlessly and 'introduced' him to Aneurin Bevan and Miners unions His last GCSE is June 17th and then he is 'free' till September when hopefully his results will mean a 2 year place at college.

Im too tired to go to sleep if that makes any sense at all xxx

Prayers going out to you, Trips, on this awful anniversary, and for your DH, hope he is helped by the nurse in the morning.
Mama- Also prayers for you, your little ones and all your family. Keep looking at those scans if it helps you cope with the stress. So glad you have your own room now and can rest tonight.
Soks- Also prayers gor you and little Jen, the biggies were probably reacting to the general stressful situation, I hope you have a nice day in the park.
Hi Shabs, Chops and Ruby

J getting a bit stressed about his op on Tuesday, he came down this evening saying he had a bad dream about the operation. it was nice in one way, as he actually wanted to have a proper cuddle, which he would normally avoid Mind you, I think some of it is trying to wrangle tomorrow off, he keeps trying as he said he can't see the point in only going in for one day this week

Oh, and good luck wishes going out to your brother from here too Trips.xxxx

Finally - All the best to both Shabs and Rubys households in the up coming exams, I'm dure your kids will fo you, and themselves, proud. After all, they have wonderful mums encoraging them and cheering them from the sidelines

Morning. X

Morning girls xx

Awake long before the alarm - as usual.