My name is 'whatwasithinking' and I'm an ex FL bot and this is my story.
Due to a disability I was on the cusp of losing my job. As a single mum, I was terrified, and this pressure on top of my constant illness sunk me in to a deep depression. I was on multiple medicines, including 2 different antidepressants on maximum doses. At my lowest I was suicidal.
I got a message from an old school friend about an amazing opportunity which is a perfect way of staying at home with the kids, working to my own targets without any pressures. Intrigued, I watched a video she had made. It did seem all too good to be true, however I was at an all time low and things needed to change. The old school friend was an intelligent lady, with a professional job previously....why wouldn't I trust her? The picture she painted online was glamorous and relaxed. I wanted her life. At this stage, I had never heard of MLM.
After signing up, it transpired that FL wasn't her only job, she had 3 other jobs. That was my first blow. When I spoke to my friends and family about this new venture I was met with a mixture of support and negativity. My upline advised me that I didn't need that sort of negatively so to step away from them. I really was getting brain washed.
I went to trainings where we were told to 'fake it before you make it'. There was such a buzz in the air that it was so easy to get sucked in. All this positivity was helping with my depression which I only saw as a good thing.
I ended up losing thousands and ending up in debt. I stopped after doing a tax return and seeing on paper exactly how much I lost. It was frightening.
The day I stopped I was worried about my downline...I felt ashamed of what I had unknowingly got her in to. Luckily for me she was having feelings similar to mine. I felt resentful of my upline. I felt she knowingly put me in the position I had got in to. She had no kids, no responsibility...I had a lot to lose. To be fair, she was probably sucked in as much as I was. She has moved on to something else now.... something just as bad in my opinion.
This all ended around 2 years ago. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. I hate it when people ask me about FL, I wish people would forget I was involved. My boyfriend of 18 months doesn't know I was involved in this, as lovely as he is, I am afraid he will think less of me.
I personally know of one person who has successfully earnt enough to quit her job.
Sorry for the waffle, I haven't spoken about this before, as I said, too embarrassed.