hello ladies, well I enjoyed my friend's wedding despite the fact that we must have been the only couple there without kids! Loads of girls I was at school with as it was the wedding of a childhood friend, and there they all were with numerous babies and toddlers, on top of which my lovely sis, who was also there as well as my parents, is pg. Watching my mum watching the other grandparents with their grandchildren was almost too much.
Of course there were lots of good parts to the day, mainly the fact that my friend has married an absolutely wonderful man, but predictably the high baby count plus little sis being pg took its toll and I went to sleep on little sis's spare bed crying into DH's shoulder! Poor man. He really does have to pick up the pieces. Have promised him I will try to be less mad about ttc.
Temperature chart, thermometer and ov test kits presently consigned to a box. At first it did make me feel more in control to know when I was going to ovulate, but then I became obsessed, and in fact am not convinced I have even ovulated as my temps have not gone up properly. Bloody body!!! Also the ov test kit led to a completely rediculous day last friday...finally got the smiley face on the test showing an LH surge when I tested at work on friday, but as I was going to a friend's for the weekend I ended up ringing DH in a blind panic, leaving work early and paying out for a hotel room near to london bridge station so we could do the deed before I got the train to my friends house. Would be funny if it had happened to someone else!!
Am currently trying to ignore the fact that in a weeks time I should either be pg or have my period. Have organised a night out with girlfriends next saturday. If I am not pg then am planning to drown sorrows in too many glasses of nice wine.
Sabs, liney, vickyjane and lands, I guess there is little point telling you to relax and your body will do what it is supposed to, seeing as I seem unable to take that advice myself! Said it before, but again, so sorry for all your losses. No one deserves this. I hope this week is a better one for you all
xxx