My sons heart stopped beating at 21 weeks earlier this year. He developed unexplained fetal hydrops and a full post mortem never found a cause.
I was induced and he was just perfect.
Fast forward to now and I'm 15 weeks pregnant. 12 week scan was all normal and showed a very active little baby. Whilst doctors are cornered it will reoccur in this pregnancy, I'm high risk and will be scanned monthly from next week.
I can't ask for anything more in terms of my care. But how can I relax. I'm sending myself crazy here counting down to my scans. Looking at my bump thinking "it looks large I bet there's excess fluid again". I don't know how to calm down and stop worrying!!!!