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[mommato3]

Just picked my stepdaughter up from school and she announced her teacher has just announced her pregnancy. Scan photo and everything on the newsletter she’s brought home. I was having a reasonable day until this point. Even had my tattoo amended this morning to include this loss. Now I feel like I’ve had my heart re-ripped out and stamped all over. She’s 11 and knew but doesn’t understand nor would I even expect her to but by hell does it hurt. Just want to curl up in a ball and hide now. But I have to fight in for the rest of the day. DS has footy training soon and I just really don’t wanna carry on with today. Not at all....
Life is just too cruel 😭😭 xxx

Hi Momma - I'm so sorry, life is so tough sometimes isn't it, and its so hard when you are recovering from a loss. There isn't much we can do to about these situations unfortunately, we just have to find our happy place when they do happen. Do you have any friends you can spend time with when this happens - to take your mind off things or to rant.

When I had my MC, my BFF was pregnant too - it was hard to be happy for her, but I weirdly found strength finding the happiness in her happiness (no pressure on you, but I found it healing in time).

Putting the scan photo on a school newsletter is OTT in my opinion though.

It'll get easier Momma, just take each day as it comes. You are dong a stellar job with your DC, just go easy on yourself. Sending hugs xx

Thank you hun. Each and every single one of my friends are expecting, all due within the next 2-4 months. It’s horrible. Definitely the worst time of my life right now. One of my friends is feeling real guilty at the moment as her pregnancy was unplanned and is going well. I am happy for them all but the green eyed monster takes over now and then xxx

Oh wow, that is a super hard hand to deal with, I can't imagine what that must feel like. Do what feels right for you - your friends will understand - if you want to see them, see them but if you aren't feeling up to it then thats ok too. The green eyed monster is a nasty beast and a hard one to keep in check. But you are doing great, we are all here for you. xx

Some days I’m ok and feel I can face anything but those days always seem to come crashing down with a huge bang. I really wasn’t expecting that announcement at all and it totally shook me. Worst thing was I was cooped up in the car having to drive back from the school run with the kids and had to hold it together. Lost it twice so far since. Had to hide in the loo.

I just feel lost and empty. I just want my baby back. It feels so wrong 😢 xxx