20+4 no heartbeat at scan

[Undertheoldoaktree]

Just feeling so lost.
Such a longed for and planned child, conceived literally on the first try.
No problems at first scan, every test came back fine and a completely risk free pregnancy.
I avoided everything I should - not even had any caffeine.

No inkling that anything was wrong, and me and DD(7) went to my scan today excited and she was eager to find out the gender!

No heartbeat.

I go for surgery on Monday.

I have a daughter from a previous relationship but my husband has no children and was so excited, as were we all. I feel so bad for them both.

What the fuck do I do now?

A final update! After what felt like the worlds longest pregnancy, our daughter was borb 6 weeks ago today - weighing just over 10lbs! I really do hope the sharing of this good news isn't too painful for anybody, I just felt like I needed to share a bit of hope as I spent months waiting for everything to go wrong - and by some miracle it has all come out good in the end. Ended up with numerous complications and was convinced it was all over on several occasions, culminating in her being delivered via c section under general anaesthetic as I lost about a third of my blood and took several hours to be bought back around - poor DH thought he'd lost us and is still fairly shaken I think.
However, nothing good ever comes easy and my god are we happy. Not even bothered that I'm averaging 2 hours sleep a night - it really has put everything into perspective and I'm determined to treasure and enjoy every single day. I've promised myself that I won't complain about a single thing, she is such a blessing and it breaks my heart to think what we and so many others have lost. Thank you all so much for all your support xx

Congratulations OP, thanks for sharing your story.

Congratulations OP! I have just been reading your thread feeling sadder and sadder (and of course it is sad, and your second baby will always be in your heart) and it was wonderful to read this happy update. Fantastic news.