Need to scream why

[EllieJayJay]

I want to kick and scream and yell why..

Thank you for coming on here and giving us hope xx

Iv been onto miscarriage association helpline. V nice but not really helpful. Been onto royal mail employee helpline and honestly found them better. Honest Ellie I truly think u need to let to let it out. I haven't taken the diazepam doc prescribed, yet. I had 3 glasses of wine, and I feel ok(ish). Maybe cos I'm scared to completely let go tonight, cos of the wine. Ds is here roo, so know that's holding me back.

Would like to add that I now have a happy healthy little girl. She's my 4th pregnancy but my only living child, she makes the pain easier xxx

roundandaround Thank you xx and I'm so sorry gosh your story is so sad X but how wonderful you have your little girl x

That's lovely round. Iv a son of 15. He's juat about keeping me sane

I had a good old cry about my son earlier on tonight, he'll be 3 in March but it's never gotten any easier, I've just learned to accept the pain. Some days you'll "forget" in a sense and other days it'll be all you think about. And it's ok to do that and feel like that. I had just turned 21 when my son died, I was only very young.

He was the first death id ever known and it was so awful having to go to my own babies funeral. It's just not natural is it?

You'll end up with a lot of insensitive comments "you can always try again" "when are you having another" "at least your young". It will be hard but try not to take it personal, people don't understand when they havnt been through it themselves. And it's an awful subject to discuss, people don't really know what to say

What support have you got at home? And how is your dp dealing with it all? My dp got forgot about when that happened with our son, people presume because men are "strong" they don't feel like we do. But they do.

Be kind to yourself and do not beat yourself up. There was nothing you could of done to change what happened, please be kind to yourself, take nice warm baths, relax as much as you can, it all takes time xxx

Yes RoTo72, my little girl keeps me sane. It took me nearly 3 years to get her after everything that happened and I'm so grateful I got the chance to be her mum xxx

Oh bless your heart X thank you so much for coming here and sharing xx

It's so hard - my best friend said "it wasn't meant to be" I wanted to throw her through a wall

I didn't

We have spoken to a funeral director today

I think this will help DP process

How far along were you?

The funeral director we used was lovely, I wasn't ready to leave my son and went to visit him everyday till the funeral.

Try not to take It to heart about your friend. She will have the best intentions, people struggle what to say, because really what can they say? Nothing anyone else does or says will fix it or make it better but they will try even if they come out with accidental insensitive comments

My sister knitted a blanket for our son, half we kept and half went with him,

Months after it happened I came across a small angel figurine, it was beautiful and I knew I had to have it. I also have a memory box and his handprints and footprints ( that's why I asked how far along you were ) because I was in hospital I also have a vast of his footprints, it's lovely but heartbreaking.

I kept his flower arrangements ( tey spelt out his name ) an I've never done it but I always mean to put more flowers in it and have it near his tree )

There's a lot of things you can do to remember your little one, it really helped me and it kept me busy for a short while. In so very sorry for your loss I wish no one had to go through anything like this. It breaks people xxx

I was only 8 weeks

Baby died at 6 weeks

I had strong HCG am two weeks later still seeing positive pregnancy tests

I can't imagine your pain, I held my baby in my hand or my baby's little house

I saw my baby not moving on a screen

I had four internal exams before my baby left me

And I'm so sorry for your loss

I can't imagine the pain you must have felt

Oh Ellie I'm so sorry xxx

I asked how far along you were to see if you could so handprints footprints ext to remember your baby, there's still means and ways,

With my 8 week loss like I said I got a flower for the baby, there's a lovely site where you can send your babies ashes to them and they'll turn them I to a ring or necklace.

I'm so so sorry, how heartbreaking, what support have you and your dp got at home? Xxx

I'd had At least five chemical miscarriages before this one

I had those faint lines

But we live and learn don't we

This baby we were trying for - it was wonderful we were in a hotel and it was out attempt at trying properly

We thought it was meant to be X

We are so lucky our hospital works with a funeral director

So baby is going to be picked up

Looked after and put in a little white coffin x

We called our baby our baby penguin X I have a penguin necklace with a little ruby which would have been our baby birth stonr

Ellie darling I'm so sorry, I hope the funeral goes well x

I'm sending love and hugs to all of you who have experienced the loss of your sweet babies

I can't thank the ladies enough who came on here enough xx

Our threads are sad

There really sad

We sometimes need to scream because we lost our babies and were not loved by other mums

We want to be supported

Thank you ladies X

OH, Ellie, I am so sorry, so very, you don't feel supported by other mums. I wish I had more words of comfort to say to you. I can feel your loss and heartbreak through the screen. I'm sending thoughts of healing and hope to you..xx

You absolutely are loved by other mums x

Thank you x

We need hope and guidance and you lovely ladies are a minority

Our posts are those of dispair

We belong to happy hopefull threads we talk about pregnacy symptoms and then we have no where to go

We don't want to ruin the threads we belong too

We are alone