Do I really want to go through this again?

[HairyClaireyFairy]

I have two lovely children and then had 5 miscarriages in our attempts for a third child.
I have a diagnosis of APS and during my last pregnancy two years ago was treated by the recurrent miscarriage unit with heparin. Unfortunately that pregnancy also ended in a mc.
It has took this long for my metal health to become stable (depression) but I haven't ever given up the hope that we will have another baby.
Can anyone offer me any wise words or advice please, or success stories that you may have regarding successful pregnancies after recurrent miscarriages?

hairy I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. I have had 4MC in all, 3 of them trying for my third child. The support I've had from the RMC thread on this board has been fantastic, it makes such a difference to have somewhere to chat where everyone 'gets it'. Do join if you think it would help. I was normal on the NHS tests but got a diagnosis of high NK cells from Prof Quenby in Coventry and was able to successfully carry my DD on a prednisolone, progesterone, heparin protocol.

I have had 4 miscarriages in less than 2 years desperately trying for a sibling for my DD. I have been on all the support Meds (heparin, aspirin) have done iui and ivf and got pregnant with both and pregnant twice naturally but miscarried all. I know I have to move on but I keep thinking maybe although..the hope is pretty diminished. I stopped reading the 'hope stories' of others because I keep thinking for all the good stories there has to be the bad outcome one and I am that. It has absolutely consumed my life and I obsess constantly about it. The problem is that it is so hard to talk to anyone and it is so lonely. I feel utter grief constantly like mourning a death. Miscarriage is a heartless thief.

tassel you are v welcome on the RMC thread even if you've made a decision to stop trying. It helps to have somewhere to talk about it and people understand.