Ectopic loss, struggling to cope!

[lj123]

I recently had emergency surgery to remove my ruptured tube and my poor little baby, I was almost 7 weeks then.
I keep having flash backs which scare me!
I can't get the picture of the baby I was shown out of my mind, the little eye and shadow in body( guessing heart) . Almost arms and legs!
I'm 22 and this is my 4th pregnancy loss.
People around me are expecting all the time, almost every other person I know :(
How have you guys dealt with your loss?

Hi ok I've had 2 ectopics one with emergency surgery and 1 treated with chemo and 2 mc so I do understand the awful pain in your heart. Physical healing took about 6 weeks. Emotionally 18 months later I can still have bad days. I learn to tell someone when it gets to me and I seem to let of the pain easier. Counselling helped.

Ask for a referral to see a specialist for tests . Big hugs x

I'm so sorry for your loss. Have you considered counseling? I had some after my mc and it helped with the waves of panic and grief I sometimes felt.

Take care!

I'm sorry to hear you have also suffered.
I have been offered counselling but I can't sit and talk at all it would be a waste of time, I'd just be a blubbering mess.
I can't help but feel anger when others tell me they are expecting or when I see someone who is pregnant and already has children, someone who recently told me they where expecting already has three children and I can't help but feel they are being greedy, I know it's not the case but its how it's attaching me at the moment.xx

Lj123 My experience of therapy is exactly that, and I think it may have saved my life. I needed a safe place to go and rage and blubber and get it all out. Took about six months of bi-weekly visits. It was difficult and terribly scary to discover how angry I was about pregnancy loss.

Op, I hope you find a way through, however you do it.