Holy mother of CRAP..this was defo NOT part of my plans...what the jeff do i do??

[nosleepwithworry]

I had my 7th mcs about 9 weeks ago (i think, i didnt write any dates down, have little memory of about 2 weeks during the time, due to the drugs i was pumped with)
In short, i dont know when it occurred.

Ive sought councelling because i have never talked about my mcs ever, to any one.(well, only to you lot )
Additionally, i am coming up 42, and thught that that was IT the end, no more, even went and got the pill.

Patiently waiting for my period so that i could start taking the damned thing.
No af as yet.
Feeling much better in myself, councelling really really helping, im on a healthy eating mission (thanks to myfitnesspal) doing really well.

Accepting everything, although the grief has been overwhelming at times .

So af still not here, so bought a cheepy test, thought that all pregnancy hrmones will now be gone...this far after mc....almost immediately a pink line came up.

We dtd only a couple of times..it normally took me up to 22 months to concieve so this has floored me...completely and totally. Do not know what the jeff i should do?????????
All calming words of wisdom very much appreciated....i know i know, theres no fool like an old fool..

We will all hold our breath with you.

x

Big hugs from me: I know the anxiety, worry & stress of being pregnant after m/c & a high risk pregnancy. I was a wreck.

Hang in there; I know how hard it is to remain positive & not whip yourself up into a frenzy.

One day at a time, if you can.

And feel free to offload how you are feeling here - we understand & can support you xxx

Was the bean still waving?

Lovely to hear that you're feeling so unwell

xxx

Glad the sonographer could put your mind at ease. It is very hard to be constantly on edge Xxxxxxx Still thinking of you and little bean :o

So happy for you long may the sickness continue-sorry have you a date for your 12 week scan? Have everything crossed for you. I bled everyday from about 8 weeks with my ds and I totally understand the relentless worry and fear, distraction was the only thing that helped me for awhile reading, Tv box sets etc etc.

Im not seeing the midwife for another couple of weeks, will be almost 12 weeks then.
So till i see her, i wont be booked in for 12 week scan, but its fine, i can nip to epau weekly if i want.

todays craving...potato cakes also craving a nana nap...

It's all sounding so positive, I hope the time feels like it is passing quick enough.

Hi nosleep just wanted to share my own experience of morning sickness.

Had none with first, lots with my second baby but it was following a pattern: I would have it really bad for one or two days, then it would subside for another two until I would get a day off...and then it would return full steam. So it felt like a 4-5 day cycle, like I was getting a surge of hormones first thing and they would ease off right before the new bout of sickness would start.

It helped me to have something to look forward to when the sickness was really bad ( I think I was around 20 weeks that I stopped feeling awful) and on the other hand, it stopped me from panicking about lack of symptoms!

So happy for you, take it easy and enjoy yourself!

I am so happy that you are getting so much support from the epau, it is improtant, and good that you have had such reassuring scans too. it is really exciting.

Your epau sound fantastic. Very glad your bean was jumping beautifully for you!

I love this tread! So very happy for you nosleep wishing you all the luck in the world :o

Glad every thing is still going well, your posts always make me smile, one thing I would say though is maybe itd be better to see midwife earlier, I know when I booked in there is a really long wait for scan but I think they need to do it by wk13 for measurement purposes, I realise you can have reassurance scans but they don't do the measurement checks do they? Just something to double check on anyway

Thanks every one.
Kittykats the earliest i could get was the following day, there was just no way i could leave work at such short notice and let people down. The next available appointment was next Tuesday, that will make me almost 12 weeks (EEEK)

Im not sure of the waiting times for dating scans, but i will push quite hard as the time frame for abnormaility investigations is quite tight, i do not want to mis-time these.

My own fault because i am still having trouble believing that this will be ok, for that reason, i am not rushing things, because it will be less people to trouble and cancel if it all goes tits up.

This metal taste is really awful, dont remember having this before, cant get rid of it, any one else had that?

oh yes i had the metal taste and i couldnt even cope with the smell of tea/coffe, it made me heave!

glad all is well, you are almost at 12wks! i have a dentist app the day you have a scan/midwife! i know which i would rather be doing!

what is your due date or are you not thinking that far ahead yet?

so pleased all is going well and you ahve a supportive epau :)

Off the subject slightly, but I think that this thread should be moved over to pregnancy or antenatal.

50shades, i absolutely will not go any where near the pregnancy threads because of my freaked out superstitious mind!

I got a booklet from my GP's today which i need to fill in before i see the midwife, its all about my history etc but also has a section on birth planning.....OH NO NO NO NOOoooo there will be none of that carry on until i have passed 12 weeks and still have a live jumper in there.

I remember filling that book in before, then bleeding and miscarriage started the very next day...i will fill it in on Monday everning prior to seeing the MW.

Due date i think is around 2-4th Feb.

i can totally understand your superstition, i was always very wary, have had 2 early miscarriages but even without that i was just very wary of planning, buying anything for fear of tempting fate etc, its daft as it really doesnt make any difference, but still it niggled at me (rolls eyes)

good luck for next week, this is such a lovely thread, it fills me with hope, which is such a lovely thing :)

if you have your bean early it can share my bday, 19th jan! :)

Carry a pack of mints around with you nosleep - there is no erasing of the metal taste, just disguise. Glad all is going swimmingly :)

Bless you, I can totally see your point! I didn't think when I wrote my last post!
I've got a really good feeling for you though, hang on in there. {{hug}}

How are you feeling today? Love the due date - long walks with a pram in the spring... Bet you're not allowed to think that far ahead though

The ONLY thing that takes this horrid metal taste away is galaxy chocolate, i have to suck on a piece continuously

Because i am a fat bird to start with, im not sure if my tummy is getting firmer and bigger......or i need a big galaxy poo?

Plus, my legs need shaving and my toe nails need cutting and as i gaze down at both items on the end of my body, i have to consider that i may not get there until next March some time.

Oh dear, that aint pretty.

11 weeks tomorrow..yay!!!!! Feeling gooooooooooooooood.

glad all going well.

I used to freeze grapes, and suck those, to take away the metallic taste. I moved to ice cubes - at one point I was eating 40 a day.

@ 40 a day!!!

I carried a glass of them everywhere. Total addiction! The ones from my work freezer were the best, Burger King the worst...