Holy mother of CRAP..this was defo NOT part of my plans...what the jeff do i do??

[nosleepwithworry]

I had my 7th mcs about 9 weeks ago (i think, i didnt write any dates down, have little memory of about 2 weeks during the time, due to the drugs i was pumped with)
In short, i dont know when it occurred.

Ive sought councelling because i have never talked about my mcs ever, to any one.(well, only to you lot )
Additionally, i am coming up 42, and thught that that was IT the end, no more, even went and got the pill.

Patiently waiting for my period so that i could start taking the damned thing.
No af as yet.
Feeling much better in myself, councelling really really helping, im on a healthy eating mission (thanks to myfitnesspal) doing really well.

Accepting everything, although the grief has been overwhelming at times .

So af still not here, so bought a cheepy test, thought that all pregnancy hrmones will now be gone...this far after mc....almost immediately a pink line came up.

We dtd only a couple of times..it normally took me up to 22 months to concieve so this has floored me...completely and totally. Do not know what the jeff i should do?????????
All calming words of wisdom very much appreciated....i know i know, theres no fool like an old fool..

:o

This is such a lovely thread - congratulations!

Today i have booked an appointment with a real live midwife.....feel like i will be wasting her time
MUST shake this negative black cloud..must shake it.

Its REALLY happening sqeeeeeeeeel!!

It's perfectly normal to have some negative feelings, it's how we protect ourselves but I hope you can enjoy the experience too.

Really thrilled for you. :)

So happy for you OP. Everything crossed for a happy easy pregnancy!!

I have an image of you OP cone next Feb, in labour, apologising to the midwives...

'really sorry....puff....wasting your time....eeeeppp....not actually really properly pregnant no....aaagggghh....happening to someone else yes but not me no.....aaaaaggggghhhhhh....can I push now????'

:o

*come next Feb

Enjoy your appt :)

How wonderful

Bit of a wobble today. Woke up with no symptoms, in fact when i thought about it, my symptoms have been diminishing over the last week or so.

So feeling very down, thinking its all over.

But we have a wee scanner machine at work, so i shut myself into a private room, and scanned myself.
WELLLLL, this little jumping bean was all over the shop, little arms and legs waving in the air, as if to say.."here i am, hi there"!!!!

So nice to be reassured. So glad i have this kit there to sneak off and use to just stop me from worrying.

phew im a lucky lady

So glad for you; and keeping my fingers crossed. Lovely thread. :) :)

That is amazing news, how lucky for you to have that machine to hand and to actually see your baby jumping around inside you - most surreal I bet

yay at waving arms and legs and how great you have the scanner at work to do that, god it that was me i wouldnt be able to help myself, i am a sucker for a baby scan, i would be in there every other day!

Oooo can I pop over please? Haven't seen my 6 week old bean (well small pea actually) yet. So utterly thrilled for you, and another waving the pom poms along your pregnancy path :o

THE most beautiful little arms & legs i have ever seen

BTW, have i told you how much i bloody love wagon wheels at the moment? Well i do, they are lush. yumyumyumyum!

So glad its still going well, all our thoughts are with you x

Just read this whole thread. I am so so happy for you. HUGE congratulations to go with your HUGE boobs! Fingers crossed, and will remain so.

I have been lurking away on this thread hoping like mad for you..so thrilled to come back and find happy bean news. Many congrats :o

Love the little arms and legs waving in the air.

I have a beautiful image in my head

Try a doubledecker. Mmm. Bigger than a wagon wheel too.

hey nosleep just checking in from the ttc after mc board to see you ok and am so delighted to hear about your sneaky scan :) congrats!

mmm wagon wheels...

ooh doubledeckers....NEED one of those. I declare that double deckers will be my official craving.

Moaning about not feeling sick yesterday blah blah blah, well let me tell you, its back today, by heck is it back.....YAY!!!

Made an appointment with the midwife, so im officially anormal pregnant woman now.
LALALALALAlaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Bet you have never been so happy to puke and feel rotten Good luck with the Midwife x

YAY!! May the sickness continue for a long time to put yourself at ease (I puked the whole pg and never complained cos to me that meant she was healthy)

Mmmm really fancy a double decker now...

I truly hope you spew your guts up for a good long while yet to come :o

Sorry but... Y'know :)

Had a melt down moment, rushed off to epau.

They said "dont worry, we will squeeze you in now"

Lovely same sonographer (she must just work up there all the time) said "cmon, lets see whats happening......ooh there you go, lovely heart beat and look, the little jelly beans jumpng for you"!!

It was like a huge heavy black blanket had been taken off me.

So now, am begining to get on my own nerves, never mnd anyone elses with this anxiety. I cant seem to just relax.

2 weeks till i get to the magic 12 weeks, then i can breath a bit. Can tackle anything from there.