I've just joined mums net after I sent this to a friend and she said other mums might like to read it. Reading the other threads in this topic brought back so clearly the emotions of that first miscarriage, my heart goes out to all and I hope you go on to have the families you want. I've had six MCs in all and one DS, and I still hope for a little sister or brother for him.
This started off sad, but turned positive all by itself, a little prayer to my unborn DD, where ever she is.....
Now when I breathe, I want to breathe for two
For this child six times stolen from me
There's an empty place somewhere below my heart
It makes me shiver to think of it waiting
For you my precious single point of white light
Will you land and find a place to rest
While you clothe yourself in flesh and bone
Or did you find it too worldly a home
I am an imperfect being
And grow more so by the day
Did I eat something bad, drink too much
Have an impure thought, laugh too long and hard
At something I should not have even understood
Be brave pure soul and come soon
This life is full of imperfection
And complexity, hard decisions,
Unhealthy food and too much wine
Walking on the cracks in the pavement
And dancing under ladders
But love, so much love and friends and laughter
Your place in this colourful, lopsided jigsaw
Is too cold and quiet, you should be here
Trust in me, I'll get so much wrong, but the important things right
And one day we'll laugh together long and hard
At something neither of us should understand