climb aboard this bus called i was on "dec 11, jan 12, feb 12" etc- hear me now!!

[Mama5isalive]

I thought i would just start this thread for all of us who have sadly lost our seats on our previous buses, but still want to talk and share and move on in all different areas!

Please swipe your cards, pay your fare and share!!!!!!!!
all are welcome to the journey ending in "moving on street", "TTC avenue" or "let just wait and see walk "or ", "Its finally happened for me junction"

its gone quiet on here !!!!!!!!!! ( peeps around to see who is still sitting on the bus)
How are you Tumblebug- im hoping your still coping with everything and its calming down now(fingers crossed) i guess only you know what you can handle so be good to you Im glad you have the support from work colleague, that takes work pressure off!
everywhere i look i see bellies but im really fine with it now and praying all goes well with them and they have beautiful healthy babies!
im holding out hope that i will have my own good news and can totally move on and use this experience of loss to help others!

Hi Mama, still here! Had really bad day yesterday, bleeding and cramping lots, at one stage like contractions without a break, called the EPU a couple of times to be told all sounded normal, funny how noone tells you in advance how bad it will be, and very little 'official' advice on internet. Today bleeding much less and no pain, but then passed large lump of clot and tissue. Hoping that's it now.

Very close friends came round briefly, was nice being able to talk about it in RL, DH gets a bit squeamish.

Am going to take Monday and tuesday off work, have scan on weds then if all ok and I'm feeling strong enough will go to work on Thursday. Feeling weak and exhausted at the moment though.

Mama, glad you're feeling more positive. I hope I'll look back and see things the same way.

I'm still here but nothing has changed for me so I can't offer much support to others yet! Still experiencing period like bleeding (12 days now) but no pain and no big lumps. I guess I should be thankful for the lack of pain but would like something to be happening so I can start trying again start to relax and get back to work!

Mill, have you been offered a repeat scan? I have one booked on Wednesday (1 week after 1st scan). Was told will probably be offered medical management/ ERPC if not complete. At least then I'll know, and like you say if all done can get on with life.

My local EPU have been really helpful. Are you able to call yours directly and ask about a further scan?

Hi people! tumble sorry its been a rough time for you. IME it was so much worse than anything I expected. As you say, I hope that it it for you now, physically.

Mill 12 days is a long time! I hope you are OK (as much as any of us can be under the circs).

mama5, you know already that I hope you get good news soon :)

For myself, I had a positive pg test on Thursday, retested with another make of test and got the same result. Hardle dared let myself believe / hope, and have retested every morning since and had BFNs. AF should have started today but hasn't. Will retest tomorrow (and every flippin' day till I find out what's going on!) but think it might have been a chemical pregnancy :( Just wish I knew for sure, so I could have the day 3 testing done, and hopefully try again next month, or the month after if I need more tests....

Feeling pretty fed up, but trying to look on the bright side - my diet is going well, it was a nice day, and I still have a pulse...

Silly phone hadn't finished. Midwife told me for most people it's like a heavy period and a lot of the tissue is reabsorbed. No idea if that's true or not, certainly hasn't been my experience do far, but hopefully that might be the case for you.

Like tumble, I was going to say Mill that it might be an idea to get a scan to check nothing is stuck... I know you said you wanted to avoid surgery, but if you do need it, IME it was very easy, painless and quick. I have a proper phobia of medical procedures, especially general anaesthetics, but if I ever (please not) mc again, I would opt for the ERPC without a doubt. It was literally over in a morning, and the blood loss was so much less afterwards, and I felt I could move on knowing the mc was complete.

We buried the remains from my mc today, under the new Viburnum.

Hi everyone. I'm so happy today...I got my AF!! I was really getting down and worried that I hadn't got it as last week as I had all the usual symptoms, one day of spotting then nothing. All the symptoms went away and I felt normal again. So I started thinking that maybe I had Asherman's Syndrome and got myself really worked up about it. Luckily, looks like all is well and it looks like a normal flow. All I can say is what a relief!

Tumble and Mill I hope it all ends soon for you both. And if you are worried about how long it's taking please do go to EPU or AE to get scans and treatment. Good luck to you both.

Catsy hope you do get a BFP soon. Early testing is so unreliable! Maybe just wait until you are a few days late to retest (I know easier said than done!!) That way the hormones have chance to build up. Do you have any pregnancy symptoms?

Hi Rosalina. Glad you have AF - it is such a relief when she comes back!

I know you're right about waiting a few days to test - it is so hard though! Still BFN this morning, on the same brand of test I got a + on last week. Symptom-wise I have been weeing constantly (though I just started the Dukan diet and that makes you wee lots too!!!), boobs are quite painful, lots of crampy/bloatedness, especially in the morning. No AF yet, she was due yesterday, and is usually very regular.

I never tested early with DD1 (was about 10 days late) or DD2 (waited till 28 or 29 days after AF), so not sure if I would have had BFPs this early with them. The baby I had my mc with, I didn't get a BFP until 6 days late, having tested early a few times and got BFNs. I am now on day 25 of my 23 day cycle...

Will have to wait and see, and have a big list of distractions jobs to do in the meantime!

Hi all - Ros72 - yeh and shouts of joy for AF coming for a long over due visit!
let her feel welcome then boot her on her way for your cousin ov-ing to visit!
Tumble - how are you today?
Million - how are you hope the bleeding has stopped now or have you been to see your GP?
CatC- how are you, i cant imagine what your going through with the FBP tests and now the BFN your body is playing games but try not to over think it and hopefully you'll get the result you so much deserve - have everything crossed for u xxx
nothing to report here been quiet and just chilling and enjoying my time with DC5 all the rest have gone to grandma's and out for the day!!!!
nice lunch and then slept a bit - lazy i know but it felt so good!
trying not to rush the days away but so over this week already!!!!!!!!!
just been told work mate is 3 months pregnant and it didnt bother me as much as i thought it would but my friend giving me the heads up so not a complete shock when i see her belly!

Hi everyone. Much better day today thanks. Still bleeding, but just like a period now, occasional mild pains but all seems pretty 'normal'. Feeling stronger too, don't have to sit down after every time I climb the stairs.

I went to see my friend and her gorgeous month old baby, and had a lovely cuddle. I wasn't upset at all but I did realise how broody I still am. I have DS at home tomorrow, but DH works form home so will be able to help out if needed. I hope it'll be OK if he isn't difficult and will climb up and down stairs rather than being carried!

Rosalina glad you had a good day too, must be very reassuring,
Catsy thinking of you, must be so stressful, hope you're managing to keep yourself busy.
Mama5 nothing wrong with a lazy day, I've been being as lazy as I can get away with!
Mill how are you getting on? Hope the bleeding's settling down.

Were you all advised to wait for AF before TTC? I was told at EPU we could start any time if we felt ready, no need to wait as can date from a scan.

tumble, glad you had a better day yesterday, and are feeling stronger. I was surprised how physically weak I felt for a while afterwards, so it's good when this starts to improve. Hoping DS is being extra lovely for you today!

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't been around for a few days.

MillontheFloss and tumblebug sorry you are having to go through this.
rosalina yay for getting your AF and great to hear you are feeling better
mama glad you are having the chance to relax with your DCS
catsy thinking of you. Really hope it's a BFP for you.

My head's in a bit of a whirl as had been feeling 'a bit funny' so did a PG test yesterday and got a BFP . I retested again with a clearblue digital and got 'pregnant 1-2 weeks'. Am totally in as hadn't even had my AF back after miscarriage so am keeping everything crossed that this is what I think it is. I had heard that a MC can make you super fertile the month afterwards but my head is full of craziness like it's hormones left over from last time / chemical pregnancy etc. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Hi lemontop. Good news about your BFP! Very happy for you :)

Hooray Lemontop!! Fingers crossed that it's a sticky one! I wish you all the very best!
Catsy, hope you get the BFP too!
Mama, glad you're having some nice relaxing days! You deserve a break.
Tumble, I was told the same as you, that we could try again as soon as we felt emotionally ready. They also said that they usually recommend to try after one normal cycle, mostly for dating purposes. However, I wanted to give my body a chance to heal and I wasn't really ready to try again when I ovulated a couple weeks ago anyway.
I have a question for those who already had their first AF after the erpc...was it normal or heavier than your usual period? Mine is quite a bit heavier than my usual flows. I'm actually feeling a bit weak physically!

Hi rosalina. My AF wasn't that heavy, but it was a bit mucousy!!! (Sorry for TMI there!). At the end it also stopped and started a bit, which doesn't usually happen. Hope you're OK - are you taking any vitamins?

Am thinking my AF might be on the way - got another BFN this morning, and my temperature has dropped too, and is now at the level it was during my last AF.

Thanks Catsy. Mine is not mucousy but I have had loads of small clots! Eeek!!!!!!!!!! I didn't really bleed that much after the erpc so maybe it's all coming out now. I guess I'll give it a few days but if it doesn't slow down then I might call my GP.

Sorry you got another BFN again. Don't stress too much yet. Your time will come

tumblebug glad you're feeling better
lemontop congrats!

I have another scan at the EPU today a week after my last one and two weeks after the bleeding started. I don't feel ill and am happy for things to carry on like they are for another week or so as long as there are no surprises to come, ie. intense pain although from what I've read that wouldn't be a huge surprise! Another week of bleeding at this manageable level would be preferable to an ERPC for me but I just want to know things are clearing out as I have only had blood, no tissue or anything 'sac' like. Maybe it's all been reabsorbed or something. I've read that happens. Anyhoo, I'll know for sure in a few hours!

Hope everyone's doing ok today x

Big fat - congrats to Lemontop - thats wonderful news - positive thinking and feeling = positive results!!!!!!-please stay here with us if you want though Lemontop its wonderful to have some good news aboard and maybe it will spread!!!!
Oh CatsC - im so sorry that things have not improved but still no AF so let just wait and see!
My Af - was not so bad but very painful and surprising but not any clots just stringy bits!!!!! i guess the ERPC really done the whole clean up job! and because of my fears didnt go there in terms of SWI!
Tumble - im so glad your ok and seem to be coping really well, yes its so nice to hold a baby and not get upset but know that you want to try again thats good and healthy! well done ( i luv baby smell)
but im feeling so much better in myself and am looking forwards to all the wonderful things life has in store for me!!!!!!
looking forwards to moving ohhhhhhhhh so cant wait more space and a fresh start is so whats needed! today looks dull but no rain as yet!

Lemontop, great news! Really hope it all goes well for you!
Mama5, when are you moving? We have (hopefully) sold our house, but nowhere to go yet, when I'm feeling better we'll have to start house hunting again. It all sounds like a lot of work at the moment.
Mill, good luck today, hope it's all being reabsorbed (but it's just good to know what's happening and what to expect).
Rosalina, I'm not sure at the moment if I'll feel ready to TTC immediately either, as I'm just looking forward to feeling back to normal and having a few glasses of wine for now (bottle is in the fridge, maybe tonight's the night!). Not sure DH is that keen at the moment either, I think it's all been a bit messy for him! I might feel differently next week though.
Catsy DS is being great so far today thanks (wouldn't quite say cooperative, but generally lovely and quiet and been entertaining himself quite a bit). DH has also been helping out when he can, it's great having him at home.

I'm having another good day, felt a bit ropey this morning, but getting better as the day goes on. Have even done some tidying in the kitchen and got some washing in (still a bit chaotic from holiday). Bleeding very light now. Bump completely gone (was quite pronounced a week ago), and even weigh 3lb less than when I got pregnant. I haven't had much appetite in the last week, although am managing to eat normally now.
Off to EPU tomorrow (MIL coming to look after DS so DH can come too), hoping for an empty uterus and a BFN. Never thought I'd say that!

Tumble, glad you're having a good day today and each day will be easier and easier (for the most part).
I had a bit of a wobble on the weekend. I was tidying up some paperwork and came across all my bloods request forms, antenatal appt and scan results. I just sat there frozen and I couldn't bring myself to throw them away. I feel like if I throw them out there's nothing to acknowledge that this pregnancy even existed. I felt really sad.

I suppose I will throw them away one day but maybe it's too soon.

Thanks for advice about getting another scan tumblebug and catsycat. Went today and the scan showed that the sac is still in there but is smaller. Be away with you damned sac!

Apparently the miscarriage can take up to six weeks to finish itself naturally I'll give it another week and then maybe consider the ERPC.

rosalina I know what you mean about coming across maternity paperwork. Maybe file them somewhere. I don't want to throw mine away just yet either.

ahhhhh good luck for a negative result at the EPU Tumble!!!!!! glad your getting through! yes when your ready TTC - I pray it will work out for u x
We should be moving 2nd week of september!!!! so excited looking forwards to having our on suite!!!!!!!!! no kids zone!!!!
ahhh Mill - i really hope the sac will go real soon so you can heal and move on!

Glad everyone seems to be moving on and making progress! Good luck for tomorrow tumble! Mill, sorry you still have the sac there. I just felt the waiting didn't help me to move on, and I did feel much better after the ERPC. Hopefully it will come away / be reabsorbed very soon, since it's smaller.

rosalina, when I can bear it, I'm going to make a book with all my stuff from the pg. I had some nice e-mails from friends, a photo and report from the private scan (just a void really, but all I have), my hospital bracelet etc. I've been meaning to make memory books for the 2 DDs for ages, so will be a similar thing. Also, when I mc, I wanted to explain what happened and why we were sad to DD1, but DH didn't agree, so in the end we didn't tell her (I regret this, because I think she would have understood and instead she was confused and a bit worried). I would like to be able to explain to her and her sister when they are older, maybe if the subject comes up sometime, and it would be nice to have the things in a book to show her.

If I can possibly manage it, I might not bother testing again tomorrow morning! AF hasn't shown up yet today, so maybe lowered temperature was due to sleeping in a cold draught .

AF has just shown up, damn the stupid witch. So it was just a chemical pg after all. I'm glad I didn't let myself believe this was going to work out, but I'm still gutted. It just confirms all my fears about a LPD. Will phone the doctor in the morning and arrange for the day 3 blood tests.