climb aboard this bus called i was on "dec 11, jan 12, feb 12" etc- hear me now!!

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I thought i would just start this thread for all of us who have sadly lost our seats on our previous buses, but still want to talk and share and move on in all different areas!

Please swipe your cards, pay your fare and share!!!!!!!!
all are welcome to the journey ending in "moving on street", "TTC avenue" or "let just wait and see walk "or ", "Its finally happened for me junction"

Hi is this thread still active? If so id really like to join. I had a mc in June and my dd would have been today. Sat in work feeling very sorry for myself and cant concentrate. Had hoped to be pg by now but sadly not. No one else seems to remember it was today and DH is working away. Just looking for somewhere to offload and to share with people who really do understand and not say but at least you know you can get pregnant and everything happens for a reason :-( x

Hi angel sorry for your loss, I think it's still active but quiet

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1360017-Just-MC-and-ready-to-try-again-Pregnant-after-MC-and-seeking-somewhere-safe-to-hide-Jump-in-the-mosh-pit-for-some-serious-metalling-or-settle-yourself-down-in-our-padded-cell-All-welcome-Part-19

This one is active I'm on both, hope today isn't too bad for you, Jacobs due date is comming up (4weeks) I'm dreading it x

Thanks Moomin I found this one too thanks. I am bearing up but its difficult, I just feel very empty today. I hope you get through Jacobs due date in 4 wks and Im sorry for your loss. x

Hi, hope everyone's OK. Angel glad you found somewhere to chat, due date must have been so difficult. Mine is coming up, like you say no-one seems to remember, it's the day before DNiece's birthday, DH has been busy making plans for that and I feel a bit sad because we should have been busy.

Moomin good news re the house.

I am having a private scan tomorrow, should be 8+4, so nervous but we want to know sooner rather than later if there's a problem.

Hi all - sorry for the lack of talk but so many of us have gone onto other threads due to different reasons! this thread was a lifeline for me and as i approached my due date (28/12/11) it was real hard for me to deal! also the added fact of me still not pregnant and trying to not become obsessed with it all!!!!!
im so sorry for your loss Angel and i know how tough the DD(DUEDATE) was for me so i cant imagine how it was for you also! and everyone has just moved on and im still in limbo just wating, praying, wishing that i will fall pregnant again real soon! I finally spoke again to my DH and he is fully on board of us trying as he was just in this if it happens it happens mode before so i was alone in the 2ww and when AF came i was heartbroken like i lost another but i didnt all it was is another month of me waiting!!!!! i have not bought any kits ov-ing stcks or the CBFM as yet as i feel like i will be putting to much though and pressure on myself and DH to perform and get it right all the time! and i dont want that at all
How are you doing Tumble??? i hope the scan goes well or went well!!!!
i miss the old crew You, Catsy but i guess now being pregnant you have moved on to a pregnancy thread and are sharing feelings and all that good stuff!!!!!
i was so close in looking on my old thread jan 2012 but decided not too as i still feel sad that im not on there talking about my labour and how my baby is now sleeping and feeding! but im very happy for them all.

Angel - be kind to yourself and get support from your partner and family! and i also find writing my feelings down really help, in time i will read it back and feel happy that im not in the same place i was month before!!!!!
i will be checking on here more now i see the old faces and new ones popping on here!

Hi Count, it's nice coming back to this thread sometimes, you were all such a support to me at a really difficult time. I'm so sorry you aren't pregnant again yet. It's good you managed to tell your DH how you feel - the 2ww/ AF can be so hard, hopefully you'll feel less alone now. I'm sure it will happen for you again, and I hope you believe that too, but it must be so hard waiting.

My scan went well thanks - saw a heart beat and a wriggly blob, couldn't make out much more than that. Measured 8+0, paranoid that it should have been bigger, but I know they can't measure that accurately at that stage (or my dates might be wrong - but the EWCM was convincing!). So I know the odds are in my favour now, and this was much further on than when the last baby stopped growing, but I'm still half waiting for things to go wrong. I have my nuchal scan next week, if that's OK I hope I'll be able to relax more and start telling people. (Have only told a couple of close friends who were really supportive after my MC, I know I would want to talk to them whatever happens).

Going on holiday next week, can't wait, but a bit nervous 'cos last time I went on holiday I was also 11 weeks pregnant but came home not pregnant.

I can't bring myself to move to a pregnancy thread yet, been lurking a bit, it's so busy over there. Maybe after my scan. Been hiding a bit in the freak-out room.

Hope everyone else is OK, please pop in and let us know how you're doing if you get a chance!

OOOHHHHHHH Tumblebug - its so great to hear from you and letting us know know what your dealing with! glad your scan brought some comfort too you at this early stage and i hope you go on hold enjoy relax and feel wonderful about just enjoying this pregnancy although its understandable why you maybe fearful! share your feelings and take one day at a time!
yeh another month and another chance to try so onwards and upwards and holding onto HOPE which I'm so thankful for!
pls keep in touch as i can't go onto pregnancy threads yet so will never know how its all going!
still no hear from the others but i do pray all is well xxxx

Hi everyone. Just popping on because today would have been my due date with the baby that died :(. Feeling quite sad about that but also feeling so very lucky and thankful to be pregnant again with his/her little sister or brother.
Really glad to read that all is going well for you tumblebug, pregnancy is just so worrying isn't it, just a protection mechanism though as we all know how awful it is when things go wrong. But fingers crossed all is ok this time, for both of us. Hope you manage to enjoy your holiday.
Count sorry you're still in limbo, I really hope that your BFP is just round the corner, you deserve another chance so much.
Angel I'm so sorry for your experience too, hope you're getting on ok,
and Moomin wishing you lots of strength to get through Jacob's due date.

count I don't know if yove joined a conception thread, or if youd even want to but I'm on this one
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1360017-Just-MC-and-ready-to-try-again-Pregnant-after-MC-and-seeking-somewhere-safe-to-hide-Jump-in-the-mosh-pit-for-some-serious-metalling-or-settle-yourself-down-in-our-padded-cell-All-welcome-Part-19
Everyone is lovely

tumble glad scan went well, hope you can enjoy your holiday

puzzle thinking of you today, and glad everything is going well with your pg

thanks Moomin I'm on a plane at the moment and the ladies are lovely and we are getting good bfp results each month! feeling more positive this month just can't stand the long waiting ohhhh and the changing cycles from 28 to 33!

hope everyone else is good and looking after themselves!

Hey there, I had a spot on the September bus but would love to hop onto this bus, if that's ok? xx

Hi Hols2000 - sorry to see u off your bus to be on another one not quite the same! I found this thread such a huge help still as coming to grips of my loss and now new hope in getting pregnant again!
Thought it would be easier but my gosh it's sooooo not! And is so draining month after month but that's what mn is for airing and sharing more then you want to in RL!!!!!
I pray all those who are pregnant are doing well and those of us still trying with hope! Let's hang on in there are chance will soon come!
Dealing with a recent loss is hard but support from loved ones helps you get through! Looking forwards to seeing 2ines real soon!

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't been around for ages. I haven't been on MN at all since before Christmas, so I wasn't ignoring you lot - honest! I just found I was really getting stressed about something going wrong, and MN was feeding that paranoia somehow. As it got to the EDD for the baby I lost, I just felt I'd stay away for a bit (as well as various distractions going on that needed attending to...).

Anyway, all is well here. I'm 27 weeks and feeling lots of kicking and wriggling, which is reassuring and lovely. I have a growth scan on tuesday, when they will also check if the placenta has moved up (it's was low lying at the last scan). I will also ask them to check the sex again - last scan they said it was another girl, but they weren't 100%. I want to check again before buying wallpaper for the nursery....

puzzletree and tumblebug - how are you doing? I hope everything is going really well.

count sorry you are doing it tough right now. I really hope things turn around for you soon.

hols and angel - I'm glad you found the thread, and I hope it will help you, though I'm so sorry for the losses that led you here.

I hope everyone else is doing well. I've been thinking of you all, even though I've not been on here.

Catsycat - its so wonderful to hear from you, (dont worry about the lack of not being on her i understand!) even i had to take a huge step back as more and more lovely ladies started getting pregnant and im still her hoping it will be me real soon! i had to stop coming on here asit was not helping me as much as i thought and i started getting upset that everyone else's body was playing ball and they got bfp as my hope got dashed month after month when af arrived!
im so glad that all is well with lil bean moving and kicking thats wonderful! and i am really really happy for you!
loss is hard and moving on with a fresh new look at hope and a baby to look forwards to is wonderful!
pop in and updates on how u are will be great! im sure very soon i will be sharing my good news too!

Thanks Count. Hang in there - fx for you to get some good news soon. x

Hello can I please join? I was on the October 2012 bus but miscarried last weekend at 8 weeks. I has an ERPC on Tuesday, and am just starting to get myself together. It came as such a shock, and I had no idea how physically and emotionally devastating a mc would be.

Please be gentle with me as I am struggling with how upset and hurt I feel, but I have lots of questions an would be really grateful for some advice and some positive stories.

Questions:
I know it will be different for everyone, but what happened to people's cycles following mc. Ie did you count mc as first day of cycle (as you would AF) and then did you ovulate two weeks later? Or does it all completely change?

Did you wait a cycle before ttc? And for those who didn't wait, did you conceive?

If it was your first mc, did you seek any expert medical advice to try and find out why it had happened, or did you accept it as bad luck ad just move on?

And following mc, did you start eating or taking anything (vitamins etc) rumoured to enhance fertility?

Sorry for so many questions. I am struggling to know who to ask these things, and what I need right now more than anything in the world is some hope for the future that I will get pregnant again and go in to have a baby. I don't want to feel like this forever.

I am 38, and I have a 3 year old dc

Sorry to post such a long message first time

Hi everyone, I was on the September 2012 bus with holls2000 but recently lost my seat.

Went for my dating scan at 12+4 only to be told i'd had a MMC. The sac was about 2.5cm long but appeared empty. Me and DH were utterly shocked to say the least as I'd had absolutely no bleeding and still had pregnancy symptoms. But now wondering how much of it was in my head?!

Just feel so sad but also utterly cheated and like i've wasted 3 months of my life. All my plans and excitement have gone out the window and there's now no-way i can have a 2012 baby. Had originally wanted one in 2011 but had to wait to ttc as i was made redundant. And its so hard no knowing whether this'll happen again next time.

Sonographer took us up to the EPU where they did various tests and then we sat down to talk to a doctor - basically gave us the option of go home and wait for miscarriage to occur naturally, or have operation. She seemed to think the miscarriage would occur within 2 weeks but i don't understand why if it's not happened so far! Anyone any experience of this? Anyone know anything i can do to try to speed the process up? She made the operation sound quite hazardous. I have a follow up scan in 2 weeks if nothing has happened but if it has they'll cancel that and just get me to do a pregnancy test with the intention of it being negative.

I also have so many questions - very similar to onedayatatime if anyone has any answers/suggestions.

firstly can i just say how very sorry that you have found yourself in this situation - coming off a bus knowing that so manys journey will still continue.
onedayatatime & Littlespade - my thoughts are with you.

i dont know how to answer you questions as im still ttc and i had my loss in june2011- i have not entered the CBFM or temping crew just yet trying to pinpoint my oving days by my body and calculating it! and trying to be active ttc on those days upto know no joy but with me being so relaxed and my DH not wanted to get obessed and having the approach of "it will happen when it happens" not my approach but what else can i do!
i have not done anything different as i am just relaxing and stepping back from most of the conception threads i was on a few! ( didnt help so many getting there BFP) and me feeling left behind!
when i found out i had a MMC i decided not to let it drag out and had the op it was over quickly had no major problems after and my period returned quite quickly after i guess i wished i knew it would maybe would of ttc straight away but i was quite emotional and that was the last thing i was thinking of!
i never found out why i accepted it happens and nothing i did wrong! ( thinking about it too much is self destroying)
being here really helped me as i struggled and just knowing i was not alone helped alot!

i pray that you take what ever works for you and i also talked alot to dh and wrote a feelings diary looking back im so much better about it all and dont cry anymore!
not over just dealing better!
hugs xxxxx

Hi everyone. Just thought I'd pop on to see how you're all doing. So sorry hols2000 onedayatatime and littlespade that you've ended up here too. Take good care of yourselves.

In answer to your Qs oneday I miscarried at 9 weeks and had my first period pretty much exactly 4 weeks afterwards. We didn't ttc in that first cycle, I bled for a while and then we were both still in shock really so thought we'd wait. Then it took 3 cycles to get pregnant again, no idea if I was ovulating in cycles prior to that. It was my first mc, and it was a natural mc, we never knew the cause, but I have 2 children already so it was presumed to be 'one of those things' ie a developmental problem with the baby or placenta. I didn't take anything specifically to enhance fertility but continued with pregnancy vitamins and took extra iron (spatone) because of all the bleeding.

Lovely to hear that all is going well for you Catsy, a girl how lovely! I'm 23 weeks now, and we decided to find out the sex at the 20 week scan as our DS2 was convinced it was a boy and I didn't want him to be disappointed. Anyway he was right! So I'll have 3 boys, seriously outnumbered :). Feeling huge but happy.

Really wish you all the best of luck in getting through life after mc, and having successful future pregnancies. Count I will keep on checking back here and will be ecstatic for you when you get that elusive BFP, fingers crossed for you as ever xxx

Hi oneday and littlespade. Sorry you have wound up here, but hoping that the thread will help you like it has me, even just a little bit.

In terms of questions about what heppens next etc, this was my experience:

I'm 38 with 2 DDs. I mc last year at 10 weeks, having found out the pg was not viable at 9 weeks from a scan. I had very bad bleeding and an A&E admission. My cervix did not dilate to let out the mc, so I had to have the EPRC (the operation) to remove the remains of my baby, and stop the bleeding. There are risks to the operation, but these have to be weighed against the benefits of it - for me, the main benefit was that it stopped the bleeding, which outweighed anything else. I found the operation was the most bearable part of the whole experience, to be honest, as at least I knew it was all over, however horrible that was IYSWIM. The EPU should be able to advise you about the risks, also the Miscarriage Association website was one I found very good for factual, sensitively written information.

I counted the ERPC as the first day of my cycle, and my period did start roughly at the correct time (about 22 days later I think, and I have a 23 day cycle). Although I decided to chart my temp following the ERPC (I had not been doing this before) we didn't ttc the first month, because we wanted to be able to date any pg very accurately. The first period I had was not quite normal looking either, sorry if TMI, but very mucousy and odd.

The following month, we did ttc, but I had a chemical pregancy, which was obviously very upsetting too.

The next month (still charting temps, and now doing Ovulation sticks too), I got a BFP, and am now 29 weeks, with everything going well. So, my ERPC was right at the end of June, and I was pg again at the end of August. I was very lucky.

I had wondered if I had a short luteal phase, as my cycle is only 23 days, and I was ovulating round day 14/15. My GP (who is very nice indeed) was going to try doing some basic tests, and maybe refer me to a consultant after I had the CP, but I got pg before this could happen. I did apply a progesterone cream to my abdomen/thigh for the first trimester, because of this worry, but this was a bit of self-medication based on internet research, not on any "real" medical advice. I wouldn't advise anyone to do that just because I did!!!! I can't prove it did or didn't work, but it certainly hasn't done any harm. The use of progesterone, and the idea of a short luteal phase, does seem to divide medical opinion a bit... The only other thing I did was keep on taking Pregnacare, which I had been taking during the pg I lost, and which I am still taking now.

I found that there was not much willingness to perform tests as to why the mc happened, until you have 3 mc. My GP was going to try to get tests done on my progesterone levels, but only because I had charts showing that my cycle was slightly unusual.

Recovering is a long road. I have been so nervous during this pg, which I know is due to the mc. I still feel really sad about the baby we lost.

I hope this helps, and wasn't too detailed for what you wanted to know.

Puzzle, glad everything is going well. 3 boys! Are we balancing each other out or something???

Count still thinking of you, still have fx for a BFP for you.

BFP here!!!!! Whhhhhhhhooooooopppppppp!

Congratulations count x

count, I'm so happy for you! Sending you a massive hug!!! Do you know how far along you are? What great news!

Popped on here to see what was going on and WOW Count amazing news!!!!! So excited for you and have everything crossed, you deserve this so much x

Hope everyone else is getting on ok. I'm 30 weeks now, can't believe it :)
Catsy you must be on the home stretch now, exciting!

Hi Puzzle. Hope you are well. I'm 35 weeks now, and we booked the date for the ELCS yesterday - it will be on 21st May. Feeling very heavy and tired now, but still have loads to get done before the baby arrives!