Hi all - hugs much appreciated . Feeling better as managed some sleep last night. Think combination of hormones etc kicked in as spent good part of day in tears (dd helped though as she is very lovely and cuddly 
).
Had MRI scan on hip/bum which was quite an event (took ages and was painful as had to lie awkwardly). Also needed a dye injection which means I have to express for a day as its no good with bf (no big deal but felt like one more thing yesterday).
The scan showed a growth:lump over a regular area (ie left buttock) but didn't identity what it was . So basically no further forwards than was 
Consultant being good as wants some solution on next steps for me before I go home (he is very good). Apparently there is some specialist in the hospital today that knows about this kind of thing who he is going to get to take a look if he can do fingers crossed. It's worrying and frustrating that no one seems to have any idea (had a lot of isn't it big/that's unusual type comments ).
The thing that worried me is that there is a remote risk it may be malignant (stitching sound familiar this worry 
). As its local regular and I am well , this seems unlikely but of course that is not what you focus on even when tell you its remote.The more likely issue (but equally tedious in. Different way) is that will need a biopsy and possibly an op which isn't ideal.
Feeling bit brighter than I was but have wobbles about it as do think worst at times despite dh pep talks. Stitching I think we will have to have worriers corner.
Dd1 seems mildly pleased with dd2 but still insists on calling her name she chose. Also (understandably) gets pretty bored on visits so not seen that much of her /dh which hasn't helped my mood.
Dh and I debated whether to get my mum to visit or help with dd1. The trouble is my mum well meaning but a bit of a drama queen so not always a source of comfort and help! ESP if knew about tests (have only told her minimum)- she had a lump on her neck removed about 6 years ago and radiotherapy treatment so whilst she would be understanding , she might also not help allay my Worst fears . Also she isn't the best at comforting when I really need it as gets too upset (was well meaning but difficult when I lost my son) .
Sorry monster self centered post- I will yet and put more pics on FB later. What is everyone else up to this weekend? Lag you have buyer coming don't you?