Hi everyone,
Not sure if anyone will remember me but I'm hoping I can join you for the last weeks of your BC.
I am so
and ashamed of myself.
I love LCing but this last year I've totally failed and I feel like crying. Why did I do this to myself. It's my 30th birthday in January and I can't believe I'll be turning 30 the fattest and heaviest I've ever been 
It's a bit late now but I want to lose at least a bit before then, when I did my first BC I started at 241 lbs, size 18/20 and ended up at 210 lbs I continued on BC and looked and felt fabulous. Now I've completely lost my enthusiasm and willpower.
Yesterday I weighed myself and found I was 243 lbs, I knew I would be. I feel, and look, awful 
I need to get my arse in gear and do something about this. I kid myself on this I'm ok because I do sport (badminton, pole dance, horse riding) but I know recently I've found certain things at pole and riding harder. I know it's just down to my weight so I need to do something, it's also not fair on my horse so I'll have to stop riding until I lose weight too 