Aaah , I'm not derailed from carbinating by being lured across here! Love how much I've been missed my darling darlings! Also, I did do some kick arse-ing on the other thread before I saw what you'd written BIWI I'm getting increasingly irritated at the twatty posting on that thread. Obvs there's much other stuff going on which I'm loving, but it's bootcamp ffs! do confessionals elsewhere! I am open mouthed at posts directly underneath tellings off which are along the lines of 'I have cheated, but I only cheated this much, as opposed to my previous cheats, which were much more' Cheating is cheatiiiiiiiiiing. Which is fine but NOT ON THAT THREAD preaches to converted with full on sandwich board and bible in hand and angry droning voice 
Yes I am realising I am fanatically strict (due to my all or nothing behaviour) I even slightly panic if there's even a whiff of a suggestion of me being prevented from my eating plans (I mean in RL not on here) so woe betide any fucker who tries to get in my way. Disclaimer - this thread/hearing about it does not count 
In other news - am having a friendship turmoil. Not sure what's gonna happen. To keep you all abreast of where I am in my head, this is it...
I have a very close friend who I have had a very intense relationship with over the past eight years. She helped me to see that my family was abusive/dysfunctional etc. She was really quite brutal in that helping, but I kinda needed it at that point and it helped me to escape and to 'grow my own mind'. I went nc with my family, and she has been very supportive, as has her mother.
Fast forward to now, and both our lives have changed drastically. Mine is hugely improved, and fuller etc. She has had some awful health probs and some major friend falling outs. The fall outs were a combo of things, but a huge contributing factor was this friends controlling behaviour.
It's now apparent to me that I can't sustain the friendship in the same intense way, and I have gone way beyond the need for that kind of input. In fact I am becoming resentful. One cannot seem to have a simple conversation with her, without it being 'dissected' by her, and her 'imporvements' rather forcefully suggested. She also comes out to walk her dogs whilst I do my work ones, and there are several issues there too, which I can go into another time if people need to know. The whole thing feels kind of intractable. I mention her health probs as they have 'shrunk her world' as it were, and she is more focussed and controlling of the few things left in it.
I deeply love this friend, and am aware she's going through an extended shit time, but also she is one of the friends who were attacking of my woe at the start, and often has a dig if I'm not feeling great... "that might be due to not eating any carbs"
except I AM
Eeh anyway. That's where I'm at right now.
Phew.....