Week 6 - Low Carb Bootcamp - We're Past the Halfway Point!

[BIWI]

Morning! In a rush, so not much time to post - off to Leeds today so have to go for my train.

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Have just flipped back, and see You Don't Want To Talk About It, Ruprekt . However, I must just say I have rarely felt such unholy glee as I shovelled down the inappropriate foods, and that shocked me. I'm normally a bit 'meh' about food whether I was on the carby conveyor belt or on this WOE, not really

Ath - I haven't flagged it up with her yet, but I know she will have already made that conclusion. There is one almighty lie he has told which forms the basis of the main allegation and which is easily confirmed in her checks. I was actually really pleased to see that he had made that 'mistake', as I am now hoping it is going to be very clear that his testimony can't be trusted. It's all a bloody joke, and of course our gorgeous DC (twin girls aged 4) at the centre of it. Yes, he is their father...

See, that's why I doubted you'd said he was the father, because if so... . Have a , Helium. And thank God he's made such an obvious muck of it all so you don't have to torture yourself about who's being more 'convincing'.

Precious, another flick back leads me to ask which room you're able to post from now? Are you feeling better?

Helium - that sounds dreadful. My brother went through something similar with his ex making horrible and false accusations about him, and it nearly destroyed him, partly because it dragged on for so long - I'm so impressed you are managing to focus on low-carbing as well as everything else with all the stress you are under. Fingers crossed you have a sensible and speedy SS person.

Ath - also sounds dreadful! Not surprised you devoured a chicken.

Hope you both have much better weeks this week! x

Goodness, sorry to hear about all of this

But it's why I also post about this WOE having to be a way of eating/living, rather than a diet. Because life does throw some horrible shit at us, and we have to be able to deal with things. If that means that you go AWOL from time to time, well that's fine. As long as, in the great scheme of things, you can get back on the wagon, it will sort itself out.

Sometimes the only thing that's important is to indulge yourself - in whatever way that seems right at the time.

Athelstane and Helium I truly hope this week brings happier news. I know how hard it is to carry on on any 'regime' which feels like it is restrictive, but I also know if I've treated my body well I always feel happier than when i haven't. You both sound like you have so much on your plates, so wishing you some good luck this week.

I've just had my first swimming lesson to prepare for a triathlon, where the swim is in the sea. And it was brilliant! I haven't swum like that since I was at school and I felt very nervous and mumsy beforehand, especially since some of my fellow coursemates were teenage boys! But I was secretly delighted to win two of the races and it was a huge confidence boost.

Weight loss is slow but does seem to be on a general downward trend if not as speedy as I'd like. I have made a pact with myself that I'm not going to buy any more trousers until i need the next size down, and then I'll go shopping with glee.

Fingers crossed for everyone for a bit of good news on the scales tomorrow, and a big thank you for all your support.

at BIWI being all understanding...

Thing is, I want to be back on the wagon, because I feel good, stable, poised, effective, when I eat this way. So why did I want to feel ungood, unstable, rocky and ineffective? .

There must be something in (Crabby's?) musings above about neural pathways, because I swear I so often feel like that wretched rat in the experiment pressing the same old reward button over and over and over for diminishing returns. Can I please be more self aware than the rat? Please?

You won! Well done . And bloody well done for wanting to do a triathlon in the first place.

I'm actually sometimes quite nice, you know, Athelstane

Wow Athelstane you are under some serious stress. Good luck indeed with it. Hope car gets sorted and contract appears swiftly on its heels.

Sounding hopeful for a positive conclusion eventually Helium. I find it really hard to eat carbs moderately too, I absolutely agree with you. Tricksy little addictive so and sos!

Ambassador winning races against teenagers! Cool.

Yes but you're here posting and you want to get back on the wagon. That's progress for me, anyway I know that stopping doing something about my weight will just become ANOTHER thing I'll be feeling shit about. It's so true that nothing makes you feel as good as just taking control of what you eat, and there's been something quite shameful for me for a long time now because at one point I was probably amongst the most well-read low-carb devotees, I knew everything about everything and could reel off all the research. It just demonstrates - to me anyway - that knowledge is NOT more powerful than my drive to want to take care of myself or otherwise. It's only the drive for me to take care of myself that will win this battle, and that's what I've got to focus on for the rest of my life now. I'm 43, and my battle with self-esteem is what got me into my highly-dysfunctional marriage, and that's why divorcing him is proving to me a monumental fuck up, because he is determined to win, and if that means discrediting me as a mother, and destroying all we have in order to prove a point, he will do it. I have to win the battle against my inner saboteur, once and for all.

Cream, so much cream; cream, cream, cream... creamety cream...
That is all.

I can about it Athel, as long as Crabby and Biwi and Willy don't hear us......

I feel I have let everyone down.

OK. Lots of confessions tonight!

So - tomorrow is another day, as someone once said.

Here is the

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and from here on, we start again. OK? OK? OK?!

Yes, there's a special sort of hyperactive misery in deliberately doing the thing you know is bad for you. As for the ex/self esteem business, I sympathise, it can be so easy to fling your hands up and go 'I'm shit, yes, you're right, take everything', just to make it stop...

... only that's the equivalent of eating tesco value white bread, and we Do Not do that to ourselves anymore

Cream, Steely?

Busted, Rup!!!

You're SO busted!

Dammit!! She must have heard us Athel!!

WINK!

I have had a sneaky 'pre-weigh in' weigh in and I'm cautiously optimistic for tomorrow's 'real' weigh in. There may well be another pound off. Of course I didn't eat anything at all on Friday which may have something to do with that but on the whole I wouldn't recommend gastric 'flu as a weight loss technique.

Poor StuntNun , and Hooray Stuntnun . Every cloud an' all that.

Sleep well, all.

Oh my god I leave the thread for a couple of hours and all sorts goes on. Massive love to those under mega stress. Pissing myself at wunk