Scary meeting with ex very soon

[BurningBright]

Am due to meet ExP to discuss contact arrangements.

Feel really nervous and nauseous. I'm taking a friend who has a good line in glares so I can focus on smiling benignly and appearing irritatingly calm and unperturbed.

But the reality is probably that I will stutter and stumble and get really hot and go red and be furious and have a stupid shaky voice. Or sound like I'm an adolescent boy and my voice is breaking.

Lots of positive vibes my way between now and about 2.30pm, please!

you'll be fine. just dont drink 3 double espressos before hand or you'll also be shaking and speaking at 100 miles an hr

Definitely won't be doing the three double expressos. Not before the meeting, anyway. Good tip!

Yes, I have written down what I want to say and what I'm prepared to agree to. I've even scripted some answers to what I suspect he may say in objection.

Still nervous. Don't really know why. Worried that I'm going to give in and let him have his own way reagrdless of whether I think it is best for DD. He always got his own way when we were together.

Right. I'm off to the meeting in five mins.

Keep those positive vibes coming!

Meeting was OK. I feel really sick now, though.

Glad it went well. SOmetimes coming face to face with somone you were previously scared of is quite beneficial, you look at the person and wonder why you gave this inadequate creature so much importance in your head.

'Inadequate creature' sums him up perfectly. And he really has been taking up too much space in my head. I've wasted good oxygen talking about him. And to him.

Actually, a lot of what I was thinking was did I really ever find this feckless waste of space attractive.