Do you ever feel sad that your not a "propper" family?

[spookycharlotte121]

It upsets me that me, exp and the dc's will never be a complete family. I see other people as a whole family unit and know we will never have that. Although I still love exp I would never return to him becuase he will never change and he behaviour is not something I can live with but it doesnt stop me feeling sad.
Were never going to be normal.... the weekends are focused around the kids being handed over to their dad and thats the way its going to be forever. It feels so unfair. When I was a child I always thought I would be so happy with lots of children a nice house and a dog, there was this golden glow about my day dreams.... our life is far from that. Mostly I feel sorry for the dcs that they have to be seperated from one parent in order to see the other. it sucks.... Im going to bed. I just needed a little moan before bed. hopefully i will wake up in a better mood.

I felt like that around about the time I was facing up to the fact that I had to leave x. AT that point we still looked like a proper family to the outside World. It passes though.

NOW, I feel we really are a proper family, the 3 of us.

My children and I are a family unit. The children will grow up with this as normal, and what children like is for things to stay the same.

yesterday, my son told me he wants to live with daddy. Apparently, Daddy has more money .

I told him it's my job to make sure his life is nice for a long time, not just for the ten minutes he enjoys a new present or big bag of sweets for. He understands, I think, or maybe he doesn't, but he will one day.

Coldtits "it's my job to make sure your lives are good for a long time, not just the ten minutes you enjoy a new present or a bag of sweets". Thank you. I'm going to keep that up my sleeve for the day when i'll need it, as I surely will.

As x's house, car etc are all the possessions of a very wealthy man. We live on a shoestring (he contributes nothing).