I've been an idiot.......again

[nutcracker]

Have slept with xp twice, and now I don't know what to do, about anything.

This is so not like me.

[Freckle]

Problem is that, when dss investigated last time, nutty accepted a caution, even though she hadn't done anything wrong. So a further complaint is more likely to be investigated than not.

[nutcracker]

Tbh i'd really rather not drag all of the dss stuff up again if thats ok, some of the previous threads on it weren't exactly nice.

Anyway, have spoken to xp as he rang to speak to the kids, and guessed from my tone of voice that something was up, so I explained that as far as I was concerned, what happened shouldn't of and that it wouldn't be happening again, and that even though I had stated that it was no strings, I was sorry if he feels I lead him on.

He said he knows that it was no strings and that I wasn't leading him on but that he couldn't say he wasn't a bit upset about it.

And now I feel shite again.

[compo]

I'm starting to feel sorry for him. He must be so confused , and one hell of a shag for you to keep going back for more...

[fireflyfairy2]

Nutty!!

What you playing at? Remember all the bad things, for there were far more of those than the good things!!!!

Of course it's just because he is familiar that you have done it, nothing wrong with that..but really!

Have you started your course yet? Hopefully once it gets underway you won't have time to be bored

[nutcracker]

Oh yes all feel sorry for him, I am such a bitch, I promised him we'd get back together and then forced him to sleep with me

I really do not know why I bother on here anymore, I really don't, because it doesn't seem to matter what I post, there is always someone waiting to have a go.

I was totally honest and upfront with him.

[fireflyfairy2]

I don't feel sorry for him.

You were both consenting adults. You were both horny....

[LIZS]

Noones said that . You've obviously been consistent in what you've said, not misled him, but you know deep down it isn't the way forward and that scares you. He's a free agent too, his choice as much as yours. If he's disappointed it 's because he didn't listen and that would not be for the foirst time.

[tiredemma]

Are you confused about it all nutty? why do you feel like shit?

[nutcracker]

I think I just need to stop posting about personal stuff on here now tbh because it always goes pear shaped lately, people are obviously fed up of hearing about it.

[fawkeoff]

nutty dont be pissed off , he is an adult and you didnt give him any illusions hun, it is what it is end of, you dont have to justify yourself to anyone hun x x x

[nutcracker]

I am majorly confused emma, cannot for the life of me work out why it is effecting me now, and so much.

I'm sure i will figure it out in time though, and college will take my mind of it thankfully

I had a break from here of a few days and it was good, I think perhaps a longer one is needed.

[fawkeoff]

you know it wasn't doing either of you any good and you have nipped it in the bud, so dont get so stressed about it

[fawkeoff]

can i be nosey and ask what ur doin at college???

[tiredemma]

if you are having a break- keep me posted by email how college is going.

[nutcracker]

I'm doing an access to health and nursing course fawkeoff.

Will do emma

[charliecat]

LOL nutty, im sure recently I put on a post to you, "Your doing well not to be sleeping with your ex..."
Oh well, dont feel bad. Glad it was good and its put your counter back down to 0 instead of all of those months

[LIZS]

Do keep us posted on the course , waiting to hear what student life has to offer you ....