Monotony - who else is tired of it?

[Alambil]

another evening alone
another evening in front of the telly / internet / crochet / books
another evening.... zzzz

another weekend....

I see my family every day (they have DS whilst I'm at work) and every weekend, so it's not like I'm "alone" as such, but I'm just so lonely and I'm the ONLY single parent in the entire family (immediate and wider)

ugh.

monotony.

I hate it.

Yes, maybe it was the EA thing. I felt relieved and free too, and I enjoyed being able to have a peaceful environment in which to parent my kids and make them happy. Things that I guess arent enough now.. or maybe I am taking them for granted.... maybe if I made myself remember how bad it was before this would start to seem a lot better again?!

I do feel lonely, more so when I've been around others and then go home to my empty flat.

I am extremely lucky with my amazing friends, most of us are single parents with dc around similar ages and we meet up very regular. In the summer it's lots and lots of picnics in the park after school/work/weekends, lots of bbqs and meals out in the sort of pubs with soft play or outside playing space for the dc.

In the winter we end up around each others houses, the dc take over a living room and we take over the kitchen with nibbles and wine.

We are all quite different but it's a lifeline tbh. I wouldn't have a life without my friends.

Well my ea ex has managed to continue to control me through using the courts. It's hell! So yes MummyAbroad, treasure that peace.

Yes, it was fine when I split with XP. He'd been such an abusive asshole I didn't even cry, just kicked him out and got on with things. But I was on mat leave at the time so I could socialise all the time (well, in the day), once my year was up and I went back to work then I struggled. I know some people think work is good for meeting people, bollocks is it. I get a short lunch, have to crack on with my work so I get a good appraisal (always shit hot ) and can't go on evenings out. I'm much more isolated these days.

Meglet, sorry you are having a tough time, but you at least just made me feel better about one thing. I work from home and I am always feeling sorry for myself for not getting to meet people through work, but you have just reminded me that it doesnt always equal a great social life anyway.

Green thats rough if you still have to deal with a war going on too. Stay strong!