feeling sorry for myself

[er1507]

18mo dd has been ill all week so lack has sleep has drove me insane! I shouted at her yesterday morning as I was trying to get ready for work, trying to get her ready for nursery and pack things she needs for the evening with dm. I felt awful all day. now I'm coming down with whatever she had and I woke up with my one eye swollen and practically glued together. Cue another super busy day at work and me feeling worse. I've just read a few posts which have actually made me cry and get a lump in my throat, I doubt I would get into this mess at any other time but tonight I'm feeling sorry for myself.

I hate feeling like this!

I felt like this last night and cried whilst bathing dc. Try not to beat yourself up and remember this too shall pass. Get to bed, early night and hopefully you will feel better in morning. And when you do feel better see if you can organise something to look forward to. Hope you feel better. It's a horrible feeling.

Just imagine your ex trying to do all that - you will smile and feel better.
Now I know that some men are great and would/could but not our exs eh? If you get chance put DD in nursery, skip work and rest. I made myself ill doing everything, my DS is 7 now but when he was 3 I was very poorly for not taking rests when I should told myself I couldn't of done. You sounds like a fantastic mum working hard to support her daughter and herself.

the thought if him trying to do anything by himself actually scares me. That's half of my struggle is that I want to let him have her but I just don't trust him to. He couldn't do it when she was a baby and didn't do anything! I'm off work next week actually so will defiantly do something for me! We've been split for 15months now and he's had 2 spells in jail. I could really kick myself for actually having a 5yr relationship with him. At least I know now what I want from my next relationship and what I will not put up with! Aaaahhhh im actually off next week so will defiantly be doing something for me.

At least you have family support. I would be lost without mine, although I only got it when DS was older (long story). My prick ex who has never seen my DS is trying to get contact at the moment (through the court on legal aid he is another loser) which is scaring me - I have other threads sh*ttting myself about it all but we have to just keep going.
You keep going as you are - you are doing very well and glad the wine went down well.