Hi Monte
I was on Citalopram 20mg for 18 months and have recently come off them after asking the doc if I could. I have to say I feel 100% better than I have done since my dd was born. I can't believe I wasted 18 months of my life moping about and feeling sorry for myself and hoping the anti-ds were going to create a fantasy life filled with fun and laughter. The only thing that can turn your life around is you, and you alone.
I can imagine what you're going through, I'm a single mum, 1 dd, xp is an arsehole and I don't have a job, so I feel your pain and anguish about life. Would be nice to get a break, something good to happen etc?!
Before you take your anti-d's have you thought about herbel? I used to take 5HTP which you get from Holland and Barrat. They're good as you take them when you need a pick me up and not on a reg basis, plus they're an appetite suppressant which kerbed my comfort eating too (although not why they should be taken!)
I will also add, coming off Citalopram was dog rough too. I've been on prozac before and tried seroxat, but citalopram, jesus, awful, awful side effects and took me about a month to get them out of my system. Were you also referred to counselling? I'm pretty sure the NHS when prescribing anti-d's should offer some form of talking therapy in conjunction with meds.
Hope you chose whatever is right for you!