Pancreatic and liver cancer

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Diagnosed today. I can’t believe it. I thought I had gallstones. The liver tumour is already 7cm, I can’t even remember what the pancreatic one was, it’s on the head of the pancreas. They did more CT scans to see further spread but I don’t have those results yet.
I just am in a blur.
My pain has been getting really bad the last few days and I’m worried this is it. I will have a meeting probably next week to discuss the plan for treatment -if any.

I’m not ready. I’m 45. I have a son and a lovely husband. I have elderly parents.

I’ve gone into hyper organisation mode. It’s madness really, but tonight I bought birthday cards for my son, husband and mum for the next 4 years. I’ve been transferring money to different accounts to make it more accessible. I’ve emailed my son’s school, I’ve started writing to do lists.

My mum is flying in on Friday and will stay with me. I’m just so devastated and so sorry for my poor son and husband. I cannot believe this.

I'm glad you're through the biopsy. Despite the horror you are going through your strength and positivity shines through. Your husband and son sound amazing and your son especially must have the proudest mum. I'm on the edge of the Peak District on the Cheshire/Greater Manchester side and check in regularly to see how your are doing. I hope you are soon home and with a plan of action for kicking cancer's arse.

Pleased you managed to get through biopsy. Hope you can get a decent sleep tonight. Sending positive thoughts from Gloucestershire.

Forgot to say last time, I'm in Rickmansworth, Herts, but going between here and Guildford whilst my sister is in her last hours. I went to see the hospital chaplains today, they were absolutely incredible and there will be one at every hospital. You don't have to have a faith- we do, but my sister doesn't, and they are just there to provide whatever spiritual support you may need so think about it, if you would find that helpful. Lots of love, and continuing to stand with you, Pamela. Chris

Sending love and strength (although realise that isn’t really possible, I wish it were) from Ali in York. We are SO much with you.

Hi Pamela, wishing you all the very best from Dublin. You sound like a very strong and lovely lady with a great husband and son supporting you. Wishing you the very best as you fight this cruel illness. You can do this and you have many people wishing you well xxx 😘

Well done Pamela!
Sending you love from Salzburg province in Austria! So you've got someone thinking of you from abroad too.

Hi Pamela, although I have no advice, I just wanted to add myself to the supportive messages on this thread. You sound absolutely lovely and I’m sorry this has happened to you. Have been reading your posts and will be another one praying for you darling xx

Good to hear your update Pamela, thank you for letting us know how things are going. I’m so pleased the biopsy is now out of the way. It sounds like it was quite a mission, but great that those in charge of your care were able to work out a way to get it done- and your bravery and determination will have made a big difference in that. Hope you get a good rest now, and that your antibiotics begin to help very soon.

Wonderful to hear of your DS and his work experience. He is clearly a very smart young man with ambition. I hope he really enjoys the experience and that having this to focus on will help him weather his worries for his lovely Mum.

You are doing so well. One hour at a time. We walk alongside you. x

You sound so much more settled today.

Really good news that you managed the biopsy. Small steps.

One day nearer to going home 😊

Well done for getting through the biopsy. Holding you in my thoughts. Jane in Australia.

Hello Pamela, i’ve been coming to check on you at least once per day. It’s so unfair what you are dealing with. I’m absolutely rooting for you. Hopefully once you have tge biopsy results they can get the stent fitted. It made a massive difference to my Mum. Sending love to you and yours. X

Hello Pam, I hope you don't mind me shortening your name - you can tell me if I'm being rude 😂

I too have been following your thread and believe it or not have a pug called Pam after Pamelaar in Gavin and Stacey. The best Pamela to me as I'm sure you are the best Pamela to your family.

All the best,
here's a picture for you

Goodnight Pam I hope you have a settled night and get good rest as best you can x

Ps: I was so distracted by the cute dog pic I copied the prev poster and shortened your name too. Eeek. Sorry if you hate people messing with your name 😬 Goodnight 🤗

What a brave lady you are. So glad you managed to get the biopsy done and your DS enjoying his work experience. Thinking of you in South Cornwall.

Sooooooooo much love and good will from Australia . from Fi.
( also as we are on sort of alternate time frames - don't hesitate to shout out when everyone in your part of the world is mostly asleep - there are lots of Australians here and we've got you too)

Hello again lovely. I'm so pleased your biopsy went well, I said earlier to make sure they gave the local plenty of time to work. When I had mine done, they were running behind schedule & just ploughed on with it. It was an horrific experience. Them shouting at me to lay still while shoving a 6ft needle in me (maybe a slight exaggeration) and while a nurse kneeled on the bed, laying over me to 'keep me still' like her weight in the bed was helping. I'm glad your experience was better!!

How far away from home is the hospital where they'll do the stent??

you've brought your son up to be the wonderful young man he is, he's a credit to you & DH. I'm glad he's got his gf & her parents for some extra support. I hope he enjoys his Work experience!

Lots of love to you & your family! A big gentle hug for your Mum. It's very hard for all of you, but watching her baby girl like this, she must be beside herself.

lots of love & strength
Katie in Hampshire near the Berkshire/Surrey boarders.

Hi Pamela I'm glad the biopsy is over and done with and I hope this will lead to the best treatments to keep you as comfortable as possible
Sending love and strength from Wiltshire

Here's a picture of my boy, Caleb,
He brightens up everyday

Hello Pamela, I haven't checked in for a few days and very sorry indeed to read your updates. Hang on in there. Sending you love and strength from Hampshire xxx

Dear Pamela, was thinking about you today. I hope you were comfortable and settled and wishing you a quiet evening and good sleep x

Sending you love and strength all the way from Alt in Oldham ❤️❤️❤️

I live in Kent and now wide awake after napping at 8pm ! . Sending you my thoughts and hugs . Am glad your biopsy was ok and you are feeling more comfortable. 💐

Hate this update. Been a really bad last 12 hours for me. So much pain, sickness and generally feel like death. Just want to go home and be peaceful, do not want to die here. Incapable of writing much. Thank you for the continued love. DH will take over if he has to.

I am sorry to hear how bad you are feeling right now. I so hope some action can be taken today that makes you feel more comfortable.