My son may be dying

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Just that.

He has cancer, they have not been able to control it.

They have given him one last chemotherapy to see if it can turn a corner but his body may not be able to tolerate it and it may not work.

We have been told to prepare ourselves for him to deteriorate suddenly.

My husband can't be with us because my son also has Coronavirus so we are in isolation and he is with our other son.

I've been sitting watching him sleep, just like I used to when he was tiny.

He's bigger than me, but he still looks just the same.

I just want to go back.

Sorry you are in this situation.

What an utterly shitty situation. I'm so sorry. Is your husband with you now? Do you have a bed, or are you stuck in a chair? It must all be so exhausting, but do try and get some sleep if you can. sending hugs ((((Hugs))))

DH and I are attempting to share a single bed. Neither of us are small!

I've been sitting on DS's bed with him. I'm now going to try and have another lie down.

I'm so very sorry this has happened to you and your family ❤ Your son sounds like an amazing young man. This is such a cruel thing to happen.

Keep posting on here of you can. We truly are with you and I wish I could give you the biggest squeeze.

I'll pray for you all right now. Hoping so much that your beautiful boy gets a chance of healing x

Good morning, OP, need a few stretches I'm guessing this morning. Hope you were able to grab some sleep and take comfort from your husband being there. Wishing a better day for all of you.

Thinking of you OP

Thinking of you OP! Sending love to you all

I hope you got some sleep and that today brings you a glimmer of hope. What you said about watching him sleep made all of hearts constrict that bit more. Holding you all in our hearts today.

Sending love to you all, and hoping your DS is feeling more comfortable today.

So very sorry to hear this OP. If it wasn't bad enough, to have this in the middle of Corona is even worse.

Hi OP, again I woke thinking of you. I hope you managed to get some rest, if not sleep. Hoping with all my might for a better day for you today. Are you managing to eat, to keep your strength up? x

Thinking of you and wishing you all the best

Thinking of you & your Lovely DS

Sending love ❤️

Thinking of you.

I hope you all got some rest and that your precious son is comfortable today.
This situation is unbearably cruel, I’m so very sorry.

Been checking back hourly after reading your OP before bed last night. I can't imagine going through what you are going through. I'm thinking of you and your boy lots: he sounds like an amazing, strong, inspiring young man.

xx

Have been thinking of you all today xxx

Thinking of you!

Thinking of you, your lovely DS and your DH & other DS.

I'm so sorry you are going through this.

Just checking in on you. So pleased you now have your husband with you. You say you aren't religious, but I hope you don't mind if I take some time to pray for you today, and your son and that you can find some comfort at this very difficult time.

Sending you love & prayers OP. I’m not generally speaking a religious person either. But at times like this I do “have a word” just incase somebody is there listening 😞.

Sending all good thought your way.

I’m so sorry OP. It’s all so shit isn’t it? Try to keep up a degree of hope as long as you can. It’s not over til it’s over.

I think your DH coming was the right thing. If ever there were extenuating circumstances this is that.

Are you and your DS in hospital right now? At some point could they let you all go home and isolate there? Not getting clean clothes is so demoralising. Can you maybe order a few cheap things online to a friend and have them drop it off at the hospital reception desk? Maybe that’s crazy. I don’t know. Hang in there

Thinking of you and all of your lovely family