Hello everyone, please bare with me I’m shaking right now worried about sharing and people judging me, I’m a survivor of dv been out of the relationship for a year waiting on cps to decide if they will prosecute, I’m always trying to do my best for my children but I always feel it’s not good enough obviously because of the previous dv relationship I couldn’t give them everything I wanted but now I’m free I want to give them the best Christmas I can this year, does anyone have any good suggestions to buy the cheapest ps5. Laptop, android tablet, electric scooter and tv from? I know these may sound like extravagant gifts but my children have put these on their Santa list for the past 4 years but due to being in the relationship I had no access to the bank cards and stuff so wasn’t able to get them these gifts they’d ask for and they really are good kids so I really want to make sure they don’t feel disappointed again for another christmas, I honestly feel like my daughter hates me because I stayed in the relationship but I’m hoping as she gets older she will understand it wasn’t that easy for me to just leave, I’m sorry for rambling and I don’t even know if this makes any sense to people there’s so much more I want to say and speak to people about as I feel it will help me especially with my PTSD but I’m unsure if I have to create different post, thank you to anyone if I get any replies