2WW anyone want to join?

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I’m currently on 4dp5dt and trying to keep myself busy and not thinking about symptom spotting but it’s hard.
in the past I’ve tested on day 5 but feeling nervous about it as I feel like I have absolutely no symptoms other than being tired and cranky but don’t think I can blame that on IVF 😅

@LAB90210 my transfer was also on Monday :) Some very very mild cramps yesterday, but I am trying not to think about those too much - sometimes I have cramps after a smear test for example

Feel like such a numpty - got home and the anxiety was too much so caved and tested but didn’t have much urine so could only hold it in the stream for about 2 seconds! (Says you need 5). Came out as a positive but is it possible that the test is inaccurate because it was only in for a couple of seconds?! Sorryyy I know I’m probably overthinking and panicking! Xx

@daisyjones03 don't panic! I think it would be more likely that it wouldn't work at all (like not reach the control line) if there wasn't enough, and you're day 9dp no?? so this could be v good! Do you have another test available?

@Ginny91 Thanks for responding! Yep 9dp. I might take another before bed but this time make sure I definitely need a wee!

@daisyjones03 yes have a big glass of water and a cup of tea 💛good luck!

Hi Ladies
im jumping on board the waiting train! Recognise a few names from the other thread! I woke up this morning having a panic as I woke up on my stomach. Clearly I’m going loopy but does sleeping position matter?
Im only 2dp5dt at work trying to keep my mind off every twinge

@Purpleflowers17 I don't think sleeping position matters😅Human population probably wouldn't survive if pregnancy only occured to those who sleep on their backs :) I do understand how you feel though, you want to do everything to help the process.

Hi Ladies, I'm 3dp5dt and it's officially been the longest 3 days of my life. Woke up feeling really emotional this morning - full of fear that it hadn't worked. Please remind me that my thoughts do not have any bearing on the outcome xx

Morning @Eagerlywaiting1990 I'm so sorry you feel like this, I'm also struggling. Had a very vivid dream that my AF came and woke up feeling really despondent that it hasn't worked.

However, I really want to reassure you - your thoughts absolutely do not influence what is happening physically in your body. It is really scary having something so out of our control; so my advice is to keep doing the little things within your control that remind you that you have put the effort in (and you have a HUGE AMOUNT to get to this point) - take your pills or pessaries, drink water, look after yourself. If you need to have a big cry then cry it out, if you need to be cross, be cross! There are a lot of emotions and the negativity is very real, let it happen and then try and give yourself something that will bring you back up, because there is still hope. Hope is a very strong thing which has been driving you forward all this time, and it's real too. Even though I know it's tempting to not allow ourselves it to protect ourselves, we bloody need it!! Sending love xx

@Ginny91 you are so right and thank you for taking the time to write that lovely message.
It's definitely a protective mechanism. This is my second transfer and I just can't help but think that this would be where it went wrong the last time (based on that fab article @Cosyseason1234 put in - which is very helpful by the way).
We're just so immersed in it at this point aren't we? Like nothing else matters xxxx

It’s a bfn for me this morning at 10dpt 💔
Third transfer that has completely failed without even a hint of a line, I just don’t know what to do with myself. We’re absolutely gutted.

Wishing everyone else here so much luck and love, you’re all amazing xxxx

@Sunnydaysahead1 I'm sorry :( xxxxx

@Sunnydaysahead1 I am so sorry... x

@Sunnydaysahead1 I'm so so sorry. That's absolutely devastating and so much heartache to go through. Take this weekend to just be sad and process all the emotions and then hopefully when you're ready you can discuss what's next with your clinic. Sending you so much love xx

@Eagerlywaiting1990 literally what @Ginny91 said! I started testing early because I was losing my mind with having no control and just waiting. Not long to go for you now, hope you have some nice weekend plans so that time flies by ❤️

@Sunnydaysahead1 i am so sorry to read this 😞 hopefully you can have some self-care this weekend and your clinic can give you some advice when you are ready ❤️

Thanks @Cosyseason1234 , that gives me hope given you got your positive 🥰 xx

@Eagerlywaiting1990 I’m not sure I have too much advice but just wanted to say you’re not alone. I’m completely the same. Having had a couple of losses I am so anxious about it all and reading into every twinge in my body and thinking that might signal the end of it all. Then I worry about the worrying! I just hope we can all relax at some point. I think I’m going to just find something to tell myself in these moments that will help snap me out of it, probably something that our nurse told us which is that this is a process that happens to us, rather than something we are actively responsible for doing. So whilst it’s good to be healthy etc it’s also not hugely within our control. Sending big hugs and wishing you all the best xx

@Sunnydaysahead1 im so so sorry and heartbroken for you. It is such a tough journey and you should applaud yourself for having the strength to go through it. I hope you relax and treat yourself lots the weekend xx

@daisyjones03 nice to be in a position that others understand, and thank you for your lovely message. I feel guilty that this is how I feel this time...I was on a high in my last tww.
You're so right though, we could do everything 'right' and it still not work so looking after ourselves needs to be top priority....this is a hard game xxxx

@Eagerlywaiting1990 the hardest !! I had to do a pessary in a really grimy public toilet today and it was such a low point, just feel massively overwhelmed and tired and could really do with a big glass of wine! At least today is finalllyyy the end of January.

@daisyjones03 did you re-test..? Hope you are ok! xx

@Ginny91 I'm with you! The 6 nations starting tonight too - pass me a drink! 🤣
Aw yes @daisyjones03 you got a positive the other day didn't you? Xxx

@Ginny91 eesh, sounds horrible! Glad you got through it 😅

@Ginny91 @Eagerlywaiting1990 I did test this morning, thanks for asking. Got a positive which I’m obviously thrilled about but given past disappointments I’m trying to not get too ahead of myself! Xx

@daisyjones03 completely understand the hesitancy but doing a very quiet yayyyyyyyy for you !!! Remind me when is your OTD? xxxxx

@daisyjones03 tentative congratulations lovely! Sorry to hear you've had other losses, hopefully this wee one is a fighter xxx

@Ginny91 @Eagerlywaiting1990 thanks both! 🧡 all my fingers crossed for you and please keep me posted! OTD was today xx

Hey guys done another test today as I just wanted to grieve silently with out my partner on Sunday. Done it with First response instead of clear blue ( hate clear blue with a passion) and i really happy but scared at the same time. I am so scared it’s going to disappear by Sunday.