IVF February 2023

[HJen22]

Haven't seen a thread for February cycles so if anyone is waiting to start in the next few weeks and fancies some cycle buddies ❤️

Little about me, 34yo TCC #1. Low AFC/AMH. After two disastrous NHS cycles (NE Scotland) which resulted in no transfer, we went private and are away to start our second mild IVF cycle at Create in Manchester x

@Jcl22 sending you lots of positive energy for overnight and tomorrow. Sounds like the clinic have your best interests at heart here. Xxx

@Purplemichelle that's a great beta result. Cramping is totally normal, your body is just doing it's thing. When is your next scan booked for?

I had a mad day today, I had an appointment with my consultant and she said that I could do an FET on this cycle rather than wait for the next one, even though I'm on cycle day 15?! I had to go to the clinic to have a scan and they confirmed my lining looked good and I haven't ovulated yet, so I'm going back on Saturday for another scan and possibly will have the trigger injection then/or Monday and then a transfer 7 days later. I'm actually really glad I didn't know I was doing a transfer this month because I haven't been stressed or thinking about anything ivf related which has been nice. Im now on prednisolone and will have heparin injections from the day of the transfer, along with cyclogest. I'm feeling a bit excited about it but also trying not to get excited in case it doesn't work, ivf is such a mindfuck

@VioletCookie I'm sorry that you're due date is coming up, it's ok to feel upset about it and honour what would have been

@Jcl22 I hope your update goes well tomorrow. The update anxiety is the worst. Do you have the option to have another egg collection if needed? It helped me to think that if it all went tits up I could go again and have my protocol tweaked if needed

That’s great news @browneyedgirl626 i definitely think you are right and not having time to stress is helpful! Wishing you lots of luck x

@LF82 thank you! I'll have to stop the coffee and weight lifting now 😂

How are you feeling about your next round? X

I'm having a bit of a wobble this evening 🥺

My best friend is 13 weeks pregnant, I've know since she found out so its not a suprise but she's sent me a pregnancy announcement today with scan pictures and I've gone into meltdown! As we had the chemical pregnancy last month I'm feeling rock bottom and this has pushed me back 10 steps. I'm usually quite in control of how I feel, but i'm not really sure how to process my emotions right now!

I know I sound incredibly selfish but I'm doing my best to not let it show and ruin her happiness, I'm supporting her as best I can and keeping a smile on. But between us I feel so sad and I hate to admit it - jealous 🤦🏼‍♀️

Ps sorry for the vent, I think I needed to get it out!! Xx

@browneyedgirl626 haha the stopping coffee is hard isn’t it! Though I have got used to decaf. I am just waiting for my AF to start (next day or so) so we can start again. We got 3 embryos last time on a freeze all cycle. Another freeze all this time round too. It’s funny as last time I was so nervous as I didn’t know what to expect and this time I am nervous as I do and know more where things can go wrong! We have chosen not to tell anyone as I don’t want the extra pressure but then that causes other complications! Am sure one of my friends thinks I am pregnant as am not drinking when nothing is further from the truth! X

@VioletCookie i completely understand how you feel! So don’t apologise for venting. Does she know what you are going through? X

@VioletCookie That is so so hard. I'm feeling weirdly protective of you- I think being sent scan pictures would be so triggering for me. It's absolutely ok to feel sad, angry, jealous. I remember when a friend shared with me over text that she was 6 weeks pregnant (which is when mine stopped growing) and I had such a difficult mix of feelings including anger and jealousy and fear for her- that she might have a miscarriage. it's very hard to understand these raw emotions unless you've been through it. Your feelings are legitimate and you don't need to feel any shame around them.

@LF82 oh the next cycle is imminent then! You got a good number of embryos on the last collection so no reason you wouldn't get the same or possibly even more. I agree it's easier to not tell people, only my mum and dad know. I just can't be arsed updating people on the granular details of ivf, I feel like a scientist 😂. Luckily I'm 10 years sober so people are used to me being a non drinking weirdo

@browneyedgirl626 so I am not the only person keeping it to myself! I realised that unless you are going through it you have absolutely no idea what it’s like, how it feels or how stressful/ soul destroying it all is! Find chatting with people on here who understand a life saver x

@LF82 @browneyedgirl626 thank you for replying so quickly, this group is so supportive you've made me tear up! Your words mean so much 🙏🏼

She knows about the IVF (I'm an oversharer and told all the girls initially, but have only told her recently not the others) but with each miscarriage she's getting more distant and it feels like she's a bit bored of it or maybe I'm becoming more needy of her support? I'm not really sure. I've tried to not talk about it as much so she can enjoy her pregnancy. It's really triggered me though!

@browneyedgirl626 it's very exciting you may have an FET soon!! Everything crossed that April will be an incredible month for you 🙌🏼 xx

@LF82 we'll be doing egg collections at a similar time then! Am really wishing the best for you! Xx

@Jcl22 best of luck for your update tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you. Let us know how it goes xx

@VioletCookie am really sorry she made you feel this way especially if she knows you are going through ivf. I do think being sent the scan photo would really upset me too. So completely understand how you are feeling. Fingers crossed it’s a successful next round for us both!

@browneyedgirl626 how exciting! Hope you continue to stay stress free! Good luck!! My scan is on Wednesday so only a couple of days to wait, feeling anxious about it.

@VioletCookie I hear you. You are entitled to all the feelings. It’s so difficult when a friend has what you so desperately want. Xxx

@Purplemichelle good luck for Wednesday!

@LF82 thank you! Good luck for your next freeze all cycle. It must be relentless doing 3 freeze all cycles in a row! Xxx

Thanks @Purplemichelle I'm sending all the positive vibes for Wednesday. I hope you finally get your miracle and everything moves forward without a hitch! Xx

@LF82 its kind of exciting to know someone else is having it at the same time! I'm terrified they won't get any eggs 😅 we're aiming for a fresh transfer and PGT-A testing on the rest as the lead time is so long. I had OHSS last time so not sure it'll happen but we can hope! Xx

Happy Friday all! I'll be having a glass of non alcoholic prosecco tonight 🤣

@VioletCookie thank you so much. Enjoy your drink tonight 🤣

@Purplemichelle good luck for Wednesday!! Got everything crossed for you.
@VioletCookie thanks!! Just had a call from the embryologist, she said our only little embryo is sitting at 6 cells on day 3 and it’s an ok grade so I’m going in for transfer at 12. I know it’s such a slim chance but I really think I’ll feel better knowing I gave this little embryo a chance back inside me where it should be. So grateful we even have this opportunity

@Jcl22 thank you 😊 sending you lots of positive energy for today and your TWW. Xxx

@Jcl22 good luck for today's transfer :) x

@Purplemichelle thank you! I just want to get through it and then have a transfer to see what happens to be honest!

@VioletCookie it is scary isn’t it! I am trying to just do one day at a time. Currently willing AF to start properly

@Jcl22 thats great news, good look with your transfer and the TWW!

@Jcl22 best of luck little embryo!!! ❤️🙏🏼

@LF82 not long now, you’re on the final stage. Good luck! Xxx

@Purplemichelle @SH998 @LF82 @VioletCookie thank you so much for all your well wishes! All went well, I felt a bit overwhelmed after and had a wee cry but the embryologist was so lovely and was very positive despite the small chance! Had my McDonald’s chips on the way home 🥰 got an ovitrelle injection to take on Sunday but it’s all just up to nature now! 🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Jcl22 wishing you all the luck in the world!! Now relax! Xxx