4dp5dt - anyone out there in there 2ww? Or had a cycle recently?

[BubbleM3]

Hi everyone,

My first time posting here after spending the last few weeks following some of your IVF/ICSI journeys which I’ve found really helpful during what feels such a lonely time!

I’m 29 and we have male factor infertility.

Currently 4dp5dt (1st cycle) and wanted to reach out to see if anyone else is in their (dreaded) 2WW? Or has had a successful first cycle.

I’d love to connect with you and share journeys.

xxxx

Hey @BubbleM3 I'm also on my tww! Also my first round of ivf (started one round but had to stop as I got Covid). I'm currently 6dp5dt! Unexplained infertility! How are you feeling? I am literally counting the days! It's so long...! Sending positive vibes your way 🤞😊

Hi @flowersinmay - thanks for your message! We are only a couple of days apart in our cycles then 😊
How are you? What are your plans regarding testing? Are you going to wait until your test date? My transfer was on Wednesday and my test date is (11dp5dt) so next Sunday 5th! I tested yesterday morning (3dp5dt) just to see if the trigger injection (Gonasi) was still in my system but the test was negative so I felt I was clear on that front. I tested again this morning (first pee of the day) just to check again and fully expected another negative but got the faintest positive line - literally so so so faint but just about there! I didn’t think it could be right as it seems way too early so I tested again this evening (I have no self control!!!) and I have another very faint positive (but slightly darker than this morning) - I am not getting my hopes up but so hard not to get even just a tiny bit excited. What a rollercoaster this is!!!!
How did you do on the stims?
I suffer with anxiety so this whole process I’m finding extremely tough. Having major side effects from the Utrogestan (progesterone pessaries) too - my boobs are literally killing me and my emotions are all over the place from the hormones. I am seriously exhausted and getting really dizzy every time I stand up too quickly.
I feel like I’m due the worst period ever - just praying it doesn’t come🙏
I am going to try my hardest not to test again until Wednesday (7dp5dt) as the two today could just be the trigger shot and yesterdays test just didn’t show. I’m so scared it will be a chemical pregnancy but just have to try and hold it together I guess!
Thinking of you and sending positivity and baby dust!!
xxxx

@BubbleM3 awww sorry it's been tough, I know it's a total emotional rollercoaster isn't it? I found stimms ok but I didn't inject myself - got my partner to do it for me as I hate needles. What about you? I also found egg collection was ok. This tww seems like the worst part of the whole process. I haven't tested yet, I've been told by my clinic to test on Saturday but think I might start on Wednesday / Thursday. I also have very little self control! I don't feel like it's worked though - I don't know why but just my gut feeling! I've been really tired and have been having naps during the day but I know that's from the medication as I felt like that before transfer. I have no other symptoms at all, so I just don't know what to think really. If this cycle fails I've got a few in the freezer so will transfer again in a few weeks. Will be pretty sad if it hasn't worked but trying to focus on a plan and next steps if it hasn't. It's the only way I can get through. Fingers crossed for your positive on Wednesday too 😊 do you have any embryos left to transfer?

Hi @flowersinmay & @BubbleM3 I’m in the 2ww as well. I had my transfer Friday. This is my 3rd round. I’ll test on Thursday (6dp5dt is typically the day I’ve seen ppl start to get a line and I did too last cycle but ended in as a chemical), then my official test day is Sunday 9dp5dt.

that’s exciting you’re already seeing a line, Hope you’re not sending yourself too crazy testing!

sorry to hear your feeling a bit rubbish from the meds. Have you both had fresh transfers? I’d def recommend drinking 2L of water a day if you’re not all ready, I swear it makes a difference to how I feel. The nurse on my last round said it was crucial in taking all the toxins out of your body from the meds.

Hi @Agapanthus13 best of luck to you 💜🤞
How are you feeling? Keep us updated. With your other rounds have some been frozen transfers? I'm trying to understand what my next steps will be, I have a few frosties I can try but I think I'm out with this round ☹️ I've tested today at 8dp5dt and it's a BFN. Absolutely gutted. But onwards and upwards, might test again at the end of the week but not holding out hope.

Sending love to you both xox

@flowersinmayreally sorry to hear it’s a negative today. Do keep taking your meds and test again on otd, there’s a reason they ask us to keep going til d14 - sometimes the positives don’t show up until later. I know it’s hard but keep going.

im ok thanks, just analysing ever twinge or every time I feel nothing! It’s so emotionally draining. My worry today has been whether my puppy is too heavy for me to be picking up!!

In terms of FET - my first collection ended in a freeze all with a frozen transfer. I then had todo another collection and had a fresh transfer, I got a positive but sadly it ended a week later and this round is a frozen again. My first frozen was medicated this one ‘natural’ (still some meds but significantly less). If you have any questions feel free to ask and I’ll do my best to answer if I know. Xx

@Agapanthus13 thanks for your kid words 💜 I've done another test today and it's still negative so I'm mentally planning my next transfer! Clinic have said I can do it on next cycle but told me to keep going with medication until official test day on Saturday. I don't know if it will be natural or medicated yet.

You're right it's just so emotionally draining, I mean I had an idea it was tough but honestly wasn't expecting to be as tough as it is. Just felt very down all day yesterday. Hope you're doing ok! Sorry to hear your first transfer didn't work out, have you tested today?

We can do this - it has to be a numbers game.. we just need to keep going, it's a marathon not a sprint. We've got this💪 xoxoxo

@flowersinmay really sorry to hear your finding it tough. It’s totally fine to be feeling down, make sure you’re being kind to yourself and taking the time to process everything that’s going on. Keep taking those meds and test again on otd, it takes such courage to go through all of this.

At least if you do have to have another round your consultant will have a great idea of how you’ve reacted to the meds etc so next go they’ll be more informed and tailored to you. And It’s great you’ve got a frosty (or two?) ready to go?

I tested this morning and it’s negative. Feeling pretty down too, but focusing on the long weekend and all the positives in my life. I’ll keep going and test again on Sunday (my otd) and if that’s negative I have to carry on and test again Tuesday. I find the taking meds and testing once I’ve got a negative really hard but I know it has to be done.

hang on in there, as you said, it’s a bit of a numbers game, my consultant always says it’s 50% luck! Xxx

@Agapanthus13 how are you feeling today? I'm really sorry you've been feeling down - hope you're keeping distracted for the long weekend. Have you done another test today or are you still holding out for Sunday? I have no will power and keep testing, but today was another negative. Tomorrow, day 12, is my official test day and as soon as I have another negative I will stop my meds. I don't assume I'm going to magically see two red lines between today and tomorrow! Is your test day day 12 too?
What are your next steps? I am going to have a chat with my clinic and hopefully have another transfer in the next weeks. I'm very fortunate to have a couple of ones in the freezer. I just hope one of them will stick. I am just doubting everything at this stage. Will plan another round of ivf in October if things don't work out. Maybe change clinics. Think it's interesting your consultant says it's 50% luck, it's kinda reassuring to hear that in some ways..! Xox

@flowersinmay sorry to hear it was negative again today 😞 even when you know it’s going to be, it’s still so hard to take. I didn’t test today, I’ll wait til Sunday which is d9 for me (different clinics have different days) I’ve done it in the past where I test daily and I just find it heartbreaking, and I couldn’t bare to do it to myself this time round. My clinic get us to test on d9 and if it’s negative you keep taking your meds and test again on d11.
ive been mentally preparing for the next transfer too. Ive emailed my consultant to ask if I can do back-to-back ie get started as soon as my period comes, so that’s keeping me going atm.
That’s great you’ve got a couple frozen, egg collection is so involved and draining, hopefully you’ll find the FET a little kinder to deal with. do you think you’ll have a break before going on? after my other two transfers I found I needed the time to process everything. You should be offered a counselling session too if you haven’t already. It’s not really for me, but I know others have certainly found it helps xx

@Agapanthus13 I want to carry on going, I don't want a break, I feel like I've been waiting so long to start ivf - my first appointment was in January and I could only start the first round in May as one time my period came too early and we had to skip the round and another time I got Covid so had to cancel egg collection the day before it was meant to happen! So I just want to crack on now and transfer my embryos as soon as I can. It's interesting we have different test methods - I am the opposite, I need to know the results to prepare myself a bit. I think if I waited until official test day I would feel even more sad, I feel I've mentally prepared myself a bit more by testing more often. Did another final test today and the big negative line couldn't be more negative or prominent on the stick 😅 I'm off on holiday for a week now which I hope will be a good distraction - at least I can have a glass of wine or two on an evening now! Trying to see the positives.
I really hope you get a different result to me, do you need to do another egg collection first or can you transfer again soon? X

@flowersinmay I’m really sorry to hear it’s negative today. I still get my hopes up that it’s suddenly going to change and be positive. I think it’s an ivf thing, even though statistically more likely to fail I have sooo much confidence it’s going to work and then the disappointment kicks in when it doesn’t. How are you feeling? Hope you’ve got something nice planned today to try and help?

Sounds like you’ve had a rough time leading up to egg collection. Having to cancel the day before must have been awful, you poor thing. It’s such a lot to put your body through. If it makes you feel any better, we had our first gp appointment in March 2019 as Covid hit and only had our first transfer in December just gone (nearly 2years). I actually find it really tough to think of now as I’m worried we’ve missed our chance of a second child (assuming we at least can have one). Are you doing this cycle through the nhs?

Do you know what the cause of your infertility is?
we have another 4 frozen so I’m keeping my hopes up. Last cycle we only made 2embryos and 1 didn’t survive the thaw so only had the one transfer. This time we were lucky to have 6. The first embryo worked but I caught Covid and started bleeding a week after my positive otd. The dr said they wouldn’t be able to tell if it was from catching Covid or would have happened anyway, but my period was so messed up after I couldn’t help but feel it had something to do with it.

How many frozen embryos do you have? We’ll both get there eventually I’m sure xx lovely to hear you’ve a holiday booked, the best way to reset yourself ready for the next transfer xx

@Agapanthus13 heeey sorry I never replied, I went away on holiday and had to switch off from it all - including the message boards. It all got a bit too much. How are you? Any updates? I had a few very low days during the holiday (mix of hormones and disappointment that the first transfer didn't work) and now ive picked myself back up again. Planned a new transfer next week, my lining is around 7mm which clinic said was on the thin side and needed a bit more time to grow, hoping it grows a bit more in time for the transfer on 29th June. Hope you're ok, sending love and positive vibes your way. Xox

@Agapanthus13 and in answer to your questions - no not on nhs, paying for a private clinic (lucky enough to have good jobs so we can fund treatment ourselves) And no absolutely no idea what the cause of our problems are! They did all the tests, I had high prolactin levels for a bit but I went for an mri scan on my brain and luckily was all clear and they gave me some medication to bring the levels down again (as high prolactin levels can come from pituitary gland in brain and a non-cancerous tumor can grow and cause infertility). So potentially it could be my hormones effecting it but also who knows! What about you? Xox

Morning @flowersinmay lovely to hear from you. Hope you had a relaxing holiday with some rest and sunshine? Did you stay local? I totally get that need to switch off and enjoy life for a while, the whole ivf process is exhausting both mentally and physically and you need that time to process everything that’s going on. Before embarking on this journey I assumed ivf was pretty much a sure thing! Hopefully the rest will mean you’re ready to tackle this next phase?

all is well with me thanks. I’m booked in for a transfer this Friday so I’ll be 5days head of you. We’re then heading off on holiday (providing easy jet don’t cancel our flights!!!) didn’t think too well about dates so means I’ll be testing whilst away (good or bad I don’t know?) I’m sure your lining will grow a lot in a week. Are you doing medicated or natural cycle? My lining was 8.9mm last Friday which I was surprised by. I then felt exhausted for a few days after doing my trigger shot but started feeling a bit more myself this week.

Gosh your mri scan must have been terrifying. You poor thing having to go through that at the beginning. Glad to hear nothing was discovered though xxx for us, we were diagnosed with blocked Fallopian tubes so it means the chances of conceiving naturally is extremely low. We talked about having an op to unblock them but it was the cost of a round of ivf and wasn’t guaranteed to work, so we decided to get straight on with this second round. We’ve got another 4embryos frozen with one of those going in this week. On my last round I only had 2embryos and only one survived the thaw so I’m feeling quite cautious still. Hope you’re getting on ok this week and excited to be going on this second transfer journey together!! Xxx

@Agapanthus13 awww very best of luck with the transfer tomorrow!! Feels like it's come around quickly! Let me know how it goes. That lining sounds perfect too! 🤞

I think you've made a great decision to go away - hopefully it will keep you at least a little bit distracted and you can enjoy some new scenery and time with your partner! Are you off to the sunshine? How are you feeling about it all? Really hope you have a good break! We went to Italy for some pasta and sunshine and a dip in the ocean. It was lovely but the first few days were definitely a bit hard as even though I was on holiday I still felt very hormonal and sad from the first transfer not working! Had to let all the emotions out before being able to move on again! I don't think I've ever cried on holiday before so that was definitely a first! Ha! On the plus side I could drink again and definitely enjoyed a few glasses of wine and a cocktail or two! Do you think after your transfer you'll do any swimming? I was really cautious the first time around as I was worried it might somehow lead to infection, even though the nurse said it was totally fine to swim in the tww. I just didn't want to risk it. I'm not sure what I will do this time round. Maybe I'm overthinking and being ridiculously over cautious. I guess when I've come this far I just don't want to risk it.

Sounds like we may have the same number of embryos to try! That's exciting. Surely one of the four has got to work for us?!! Understandable you're feeling cautious though, i think I am feeling like that too a bit! I'm more skeptical this time round, no more naive optimism like the first time. Ahh what a crazy thing ivf is eh? Sounds like you definitely made the right decision to go straight for ivf rather than put yourself through an op without a guarantee it would work. I was so impatient to get going with ivf, we'd only been ttc 18 months before we had our initial consultation but it felt like a lifetime. I know many people have to wait a lot longer so should feel grateful really, it will be two years of trying in July, can't believe it really, many of my friends fell pregnant on their first attempt which I'm happy for but at the same time is so frustrating to hear. Last summer I honestly thought that by this time this year I would have a baby or at least be a good few months pregnant, oh how wrong was I!

Glad you're feeling more yourself, I'm doing a medicated cycle too! I also did my injection yesterday (ok that's a lie it was actually my partner who did it for me- I still hate needles!) starting the lovely pessaries tomorrow evening. Have been feeling a bit emotional today and yesterday, but I think it's all the hormones!

Keep me updated and let me know how it goes tomorrow! Will be thinking of you, hope you can have a chilled and relaxing day afterwards (and maybe some Macdonald's fries..I've read that it's some kind of ivf trend?! Oh and I've also heard that sex before transfer helps.. I might try it this time around as nothing to lose!) Xoxo

@flowersinmay All done and on my way home 🙌 I’ve never been a mcDs fries girl but I’ve seen lots of others talk about it. Perhaps if this one doesn’t work I’ll try them next time 🤣 I went for a kale & avo smoothy - same one I had after my successful transfer a few month back 🤞🏻 transfer went reasonably well. Embryo was growing and almost fully expanded by the time they popped him back in. They struggled to get the catheter in, so we had a little break and it flew in easily the second time.

Sounds like your holiday was exactly what you needed. Cocktails, swimming and sunshine is the perfect cure for a broken heart. Are you feeling brighter now? I asked about swimming and they said it’s absolutely fine, just no alcohol, drink lots of water and make sure to take it easy (that parts easier said than done- working fulltime whilst doing transfers is hard work I find, I’m beyond shattered from the meds and then have all the appointment time to make up for in the evenings). How are you finding things with work?

Re holiday, i had totally forgotten about it when we decided to go a back-to-back transfer. I assume it’s ok to fly? We leave 7dp5dt so I reckon I’ll have an idea of whether it’s worked or not before we go.

That’s great you’ve got 4embryos left too. As you said, it’s a bit of a numbers game. Surely one will work?? Our clinic are brill with stats and it seems more than 50% women my age with similar medical stats have success after 3transfers so I’m sure our time is coming! Fingers crossed for us both this go!! Have you discussed a double transfer at all? We keep saying ‘next time’ but each time I change my mind and just do 1. I’m terrified of the prospect of twins!

I think your decision to start Ivf after 18months was a wise one, The journey can be so long and age is so critical, plus you can continue trying naturally. I struggle too with seeing friends little ones growing up, friends who started trying the same time as us now have 3yr olds. Do yours know your having treatment? My sister thinks we just enjoy our commitment free life style too much 🤣, they planned their kids birthdays down to the T, and got pregnant on the first try each time. They’re (luckily) obviously that it’s not like that for everyone.

Hope you’re getting on ok with the pessaries, other than the headaches and tiredness I find them ok (so long as I take them rectally). I know others I’ve chatted to in the past have struggle though. If this one works- no more jabs 🙌 only a few more days to go for you xxxI

Hi all
I am new to this forum
i am 43 and on my 4th round of ivf. Took years of trying to persuade my partner to start trying for a baby and by then my chances of a natural conception were low
my egg quality isn’t great and my previous blastocyst 5 day transfers have not been great quality. This time round we have had 2 - 3 day embryos transferred. We only had 2 embryos from this round. They were 8 cell with hardly any fragmentation. I was hopeful but have had 3 bouts of morning diarrhoea and no symptoms. I always get so anxious as I know times running out for me. I’ve been eating well all week but last night had a takeaway pizza another bout of diarrahoea and terrific stomach pain this morning and I’m now regretting the pizza
how is everyone progressing ? Anyone at the same stage as me ?

@Agapanthus13 wooo so happy for you that it went ok and they managed the transfer on the second attempt. Thanks for the update. How are you feeling so far? Last time I found the first week ok, the second week was hard! Smoothie sounds nice and healthy, have you been taking it easy too? Agree the meds make you tired (they also make me constipated sorry tmi but it's super annoying).

Sorry to hear it's tough with work and with balancing things. It's hard enough to go through ivf, let alone having to think about everything else! At least you have a holiday coming up which will be a nice break! I'm finding working ok at the moment, I'm lucky that work let me work flexibly so I can decide whether to go to the office or wfh. That means they don't notice when I'm away for an ivf appointment. I've managed to keep it a secret so far and hoping I can keep it that way! Also work tends to be a bit quieter in the summer so luckily I'm not stressed out at the moment with too many projects to juggle. On the downside because im not that busy it means im not distracted from overthinking everything!

I think flying is fine, it won't harm the embryo (I've heard this from various podcasts), I guess the only thing will be to ensure you have access to healthcare in case anything comes up. Im sure it will be fine though!

Our time better be coming!!! The nurse mentioned double transfer to me too but I am the same as you - don't want twins or any complications! So would rather just keep going with single transfers until there is nothing left to transfer and I have to go through egg collection again! Maybe I'll change my mind if I get further down the line though, let's see!

I told three friends I was having treatment. The first friend was very supportive when I first told her, but I don't really see her that much, maybe around four - five times a year so she hasn't really been there for me support wise and she's not really good with WhatsApp or anything. The second friend lives in another country and hasn't really been that great either. We communicate via WhatsApp but don't think she gets it. I also told an old school friend but to be honest I was a bit disappointed by her reaction. She was initially supportive but she ended up turning the conversation back on to her and her problems halfway through me pouring my heart out. We spent about 80% of the conversation talking about her. Some people are just too absorbed by their own issues to really understand, and I think if you haven't been through the process you just don't have the same amount of sympathy. So I've held off telling anyone else. I don't think it will help me, it just adds to my frustration sadly! Have you told anyone? Do your parents know? My mum has been the most supportive but I don't really like talking about it with her either, we FaceTime a lot and I can tell she always want to bring it up but holds back, I'd just rather not discuss it unless there is something positive to say.

Another friend and her husband came over for dinner last night and announced she's four months pregnant, obviously I'm very happy for her but we spent a lot of the evening talking about her pregnancy which was hard for me (they have no idea we are going through ivf, I just couldn't bring myself to talk about it with them), but her husband made a comment about the fact we should also consider starting a family. Totally well meaning comment. But it's hard!

Keep me updated about how it's all going! Sending positive vibes your way 😊💜

@Clalou32 sorry to hear you're struggling, four rounds is really tough ☹️ I hope you're ok, I think you definitely deserved that pizza - be kind to yourself! I'm still on my first round, had one failed transfer and my second transfer is coming up next week. Sending positive vibes your way. When is your otd? Xox

@flowersinmay Hi lovely, how are you doing today? I’m so sorry you had to deal with a pregnancy announcement in that way the other night, it’s not like you could even make your excuses to leave. You poor thing. Unless someone’s gone through fertility treatment they really don’t know how difficult announcement can be for some of us. Well done for coping with it xx how you feeling now?
Sounds like your other friends haven’t been the most supportive either? That’s what we’re all here for, come rain or shine! And at least this community have an idea of the enormity of everything.
We’ve told a couple of friends but from a logistics perspective as we’ve missed a few important events and so they knew something was going on. One of my friends sadly had cancer a couple of years ago and can’t have kids so she’s extremely understanding but I know it probably pains her that we at least have a chance of kids so I try not to mention it to her unless she brings it up, and the other couple really have no idea of what’s involved and have unintentionally said a few insensitive things but totally innocently. They desperately want to help but don’t know how to, so have offered to pay for rounds etc, which of course we’d never accept but is extremely kind of them. I haven’t told my mum etc she’s wonderful but would ask me all the time and would say the ‘wrong thing’ whilst trying to be helpful. She must have an idea as she’s constantly assuming I’m pregnant and making hints but without saying it outright which I struggle with, but happy with our decision not to tell people.

That’s great you’re managing to balance it with work. I take it your clinic is near to home for you then too? I can work reasonably flexibly but my clinic is near my office (we moved during lock down and I now commute) so I usually go from there rather than wfh, it’s just my workload is a bit intense and I feel like I’m struggling. My first round was over lockdown and took 43 appointments (beyond crazy looking back at it) so the whole journey feel like it’s taken it’s toll, not to mention the side effects from the meds! The pessaries have the opposite effect on me 😳 I asked the nurse and she said so long as it’s stayed in for 20mins first then the meds will have dissolved first. Apparently lots of water is meant to help with constipation, plus the information sheet included some safe to take laxatives if you’re really in need?

I’ve been constantly symptom searching, but have nothing other than a full feeling which I usually get before my period! On my positive cycle I had a lot of cramping and serious nausea. So whilst I’m desperately hoping, I have a niggling feeling it’s a failed cycle
Is it tomorrow you’re off for your transfer? How you feeling? Im really excited for you, and have a good feeling 👍👍 are you sticking to any rituals? Sending lots of good vibes and thoughts xxx

@Clalou32 I’m currently 4dp5dt How about you? Really sorry to hear you’re struggling. How you getting on now? Xx

Hello @Agapanthus13 thanks for your message! 😊 I had my transfer yesterday, it all went super smoothly luckily. My lining was around 8mm which they seemed to be happy with. I don't feel anything now, not even swelling or any pain. Feeling nothing always makes me suspicious it hasn't worked but I know that's really ridiculous as it's really early days yet. She gave me some kind of blood thinning injection to do this morning too, did you have this?

I asked the nurse why it could have failed on the fresh transfer and she said it could have been because my uterus and body was slightly inflamed and tired from the medication, she said sometimes it works best when your body has had time to recover from the egg collection. So I'm really trying to keep positive this time and hope for the best.

I actually went and got a Macdonald's yesterday! Normally I'm quite healthy but I just really fancied something salty and a bit fatty! Then spent most of the day on the sofa, checking the occasional email from work.

If this round fails I have to take a break as the clinic is shut the whole of august. Part of me is a bit annoyed as I'd like to keep going but part of me knows it's actually good as it forces me to take a break for a while and let my body recover from all the hormones! My clinic is actually almost three hours away by train, but I have all my scans done by a doctor down the road. It's just for egg collection and transfers I need to travel.

How are you doing? I totally understand you not telling your mum, I also didn't for ages, but one day when I was at home she asked me directly how the "baby making" was going and I just burst into tears so obviously then told her - she said she'd had a feeling something was up and has been very supportive since. So lovely some of your friends have offered to pay! What a lovely gesture!

Really sorry to hear it's been tough at work! It can't be easy to deal with all the stress and everything. ☹️ hopefully this round will work for us both - keeping fingers crossed for you!!!! Sending good vibes your way! Xox

@flowersinmay how are you doing lovely, is this 2ww going ok? Sorry for the radio silence, we’ve had a week abroad in the sun and I tried to switch off from everything and leave my phone behind.
Unfortunately this last cycle didn’t work for us. We got a faint positive on 5dp5dt but then negatives. Just had my baseline scan today and a follow up consultation ready to do another FET in a couple of weeks.
hope things are more positive your end xx

Awww so lovely to hear from you @Agapanthus13 I thought you must be enjoying your holiday! Hope you had a nice relaxing time?

I'm so sorry to hear that - but it's really great you've already got a plan in place and you're doing a FET again in a few weeks! Please let me know how you get on 💜 sending you so much love!!!!

I am 9dp5dt and I've been testing since 7dp as I'm incredibly impatient and have no will power. I've had a few tearful days - tww is so up and down and emotional for me. So far it's a BFP!!! Couldn't believe it when I saw a second line, I was in complete shock. Obviously it's really really early days so I don't want to have too high expectations. My official test day is Monday, but will carry on testing every day until then!

Xox

Awww @flowersinmay that’s such wonderful news, I’m totally thrilled for you 💕I hope you’re managing to take the time to enjoy your positive lines? Are you testing daily, it’s sooo addictive 😂 my Clinic get us to test and report on day-9 and 11 so you’re doing so so well x Monday will come round soon enough. Are you feeling ok?

we had a really lovely holiday thank you. I didn’t drink etc as we were desperately hoping for a positive to appear, right up til day 11, but tbh I think I’d have been an emotional wreck if I’d added alcohol into the mix. This ones been a bit tough as we were convinced on day-5 it had worked, but hey, onto the next one, I still feel positive we’ll get there eventually.

sending you lots of love and positive energy xx keep me up dated and take it easy this weekend! X

@Agapanthus13 thank you! 🥰 I keep talking to myself out loud saying "I am pregnant, I am pregnant". I am trying to enjoy it in the moment, I've got all the positive pregnant tests beside my bed and I keep looking at them throughout the day to check the lines are still there (call me crazy!) I also think if anything does go wrong and it doesn't stick around then at least I know that it is possible and I can get pregnant so it gives me a bit more hope for future transfers. I'm feeling fine - no symptoms apart from tiredness but I had that last time so think it's from the medication mainly!

Glad you had a good holiday - I really empathize on how tough it can be, I hope your partner has been extra supportive these past days and you've been extra kind to yourself. I'm sure you will get your bfp eventually - just a matter of time and a numbers game! Sending you mega amounts of baby dust and positive vibes for the next round! 🌈💜🌟 keep me updated please!!! Xox