Continued chat of all things IVF, FET & to feel sane...cycle buddies August/September -

[Bluemeadowbaby]

Hey ladies ☺️

A new thread to continue the one we've maxed out from the FET cycle buddies May/June. Anyone wishing to join no matter what stage you're at we're here to support you along the way.

A little background around me - I have a little boy who's 16mo from my second IVF round in 2019. I'm just embarking (restarting after covid setback) on my first FET cycle with the embryos I have in storage in the hope for baby #2 🤞🏼
I have severe endometriosis, hydrosalpinx tubes which have been removed so my only hope is for IVF to work again. It's been a long old journey but if I can give any hope, faith and a tonne of support to anyone who needs it I'm happy to share my story, updates on my cycle and be there to have a general chin wag ☺️

We've got this! ✨ x

Hey ladies, sadly I think I started having a miscarriage yesterday (big gush of fresh blood). Going into the clinic today for an emergency scan to confirm, but doesn't look good. Comes a point when you need to accept you're not going to have children, and I think I've just hit that point. I'm done trying.

Oh no I’m so sorry to hear that but as a GP I know that bleeding can happen in early pregnancy and the scan may still be ok. Am praying for your scan results today. Sending you lots of love and really hope everything is ok. You deserve it to work so much xxx

@2mumlife this makes my heart feel so sad for you 😔 I'm hoping everything was okay, I know I'm hoping just as much as you are ♥️ sending you lots of love and hugs, we're here when/if you're needing to talk. Know you and your DP are in my thoughts x

@Bluemeadowbaby Thank you so much lovely.

Seemingly little bean is super sticky and was still there! Measuring 6+1 (a day ahead) and even more special, gave us some heart flickers for that complete reassurance ♥️. I've not ever felt such a rollercoaster - I passed some fluid in the clinic bathroom before going in for scan I thought was the sac, so I've been right through the wringer today. Clinic think I've had a hematoma rupture which is why the blood gushed out all at once, and they could see a small area of bleeding but they were happy it was very small now. They are still warning that what I experienced "isn't normal but is common" whatever that is meant to mean!? but they've said everything with bean is looking just fine. I'm still going in for my originally planned scan on the 24th just to make sure everything is ok and the hematoma has resolved, but breathing easier for now. I'm so exhausted from this experience - I thought the conceiving was going to be the worst emotional rollercoaster, but apparently not!

Aww so happy for you! Told you it can still be fine but it must have been very frightening going through that. such a tough rollercoaster! I hope things are smoother from now on x

Just seen an Instagram influencers stories about how she had her transfer today of a 3 day embryo, apparently it’s her third cycle but her 1st transfer that’s gone ahead. She was sharing pictures of the embryo and saying this one is the one. First she was really upset that only 1 of her 4 embryos fertilised and now she’s back at it posting constantly about how this one is going to make it? Don’t know how they can be so confident

@2mumlife this news is just THE ACTUAL BEST!!!!! 😍 I am SO happy for you! Honestly my heart was racing reading your post! I am just so pleased everything is okay I really am. It truly is a rollercoaster, I think until you get to each mark of a milestone you can breathe a little easier but not fully until they're safe in your arms. However! Always trust your gut, of course with any kind of show definitely get yourself to the clinic! But later in your pregnancy, honestly, any niggle, anything you're unsure of, I remember a midwife saying to me they'd rather check me over and reassure me a million times than me choose not to go incase I was "being silly". You know you and you'll know your little one, I think you already do 🥰
Breathe easy lovely, one step at a time but you truly are an absolute trooper and should be so proud! Go womb! Go embie! Go you!!! X

@2mumlife .... so sorry to read of your scares ... but YAY to little sticky bean! Really happy that all is ok x

@2mumlife yaii! I so glad that everything was good and the baby is still there! It was the best news of the day! 😊

Thank you so much ladies for the well wishes. Took some time to recover emotionally from the rollercoaster. Feeling better now, and everything has settled down to nearly nothing (still slightly brown pessary gunk, but nothing like I was experiencing few days ago). Just focussing on staying relaxed and positive until next scan now!

@Bluehawaii29 Exciting times! I always felt better when I had the meds waiting and the plan of action. Keeping everything crossed for you!

@2mumlife glad you're feeling better now and yay to brown gunk and nothing more! 🥳 here's to a happy healthy 9 months! My meds arrived today, I don't know why but having them delivered and laying them out on my table gave me such a sense of calm. I'm feeling really excited for this cycle, I don't want to feel excited but I just feel ready. My body feels nice and ready, no spotting, no pain, just nice and ready x

@Bluemeadowbaby Thats a great place to be with your mind and body :) This little embryo is ready for you too :)

@2mumlife I truly hope so ❤️ how are you doing? How's DP? X

So pleased to hear you guys are doing well @Bluemeadowbaby@2mumlife I can’t believe how fast this month is going, it’ll be feb before I know it, managed to chat to the lead embryologist on Friday as I wanted her to know in the first cycle wasn’t too happy talking to this other embryologist as she was very abrupt and impatient, never wanting to answer any qs we had. Felt much better after talking to the lead on Friday as she apologised for our experience and said we can talk to her from now on/ will be giving anonymised feedback to the other one. She also called our remaining embryos ‘beautiful’ 🥰 which was really nice to hear. Am also feeling excited about this now x

@Bluemeadowbaby DP is the same composed, rational self as always lol even through my meltdown last week. I don't know how she can be so composed! She's really picking up my slack at the moment - I'm just exhausted at the moment. When is your AF due so you can get going?

@Bluehawaii29 I'm so pleased you got to speak to the lead and that you're feeling more confident going into this cycle. Bring on Feb!

Hi all 👋
I haven't been able to access and read anything on this thread for aggges as it kept crashing and not loading! How is everyone doing?? Hope everyone's ivf journeys have been going ok ♥️
You ladies have been in my thoughts xx

@2mumlife sometimes even tho we feel bad for it, it's nice to have that little bit of umph in our partners. They go through it too of course but trying to explain the feelings from own experience is a hard one to ever explain. Glad you're okay tho, she sounds like a star 🥰 so I had my zoladex this afternoon at the clinic, stop norethisterone on 20th with an expected bleed by the weekend given my previous experience and then patches to start 26th Jan with a transfer date given w/c 21st feb!!! I was quite shocked at how quickly this cycle is! The nurse on our zoom call this morning called our embryo "the lucky one" and I almost fell into a puddle of mess 😂 please be the lucky one! 🤞🏼 x

Hi all,

Hope everyone is doing good?!
@Bluemeadowbaby ... routing for you and your little lucky one!! I should be about a week behind you!!
@2mumlife ... hope you are relaxing

xx

@firefly37 hey there I’m good thanks x just in the lull between cycles, not too long now till start taking the meds again, hoping to commence 12th feb x

Thanks @firefly37 routing for you too! 🤞🏼💕 last norethisterone taken tonight, roll on AF! X

@Bluemeadowbaby Keeping everything crossed your bleed comes this weekend on schedule. Hopefully this is the one!

@firefly37 Excting you're not far behind Bluemeadowbaby! Unfortunately feeling a bit spooked at the moment - last 3/4 days all my pregnancy symptoms have got progressively better, to the extent I feel pretty much normal today. I'm a bit concerned its a bad sign, so of course I've been obsessively googling to find stories of others whose symptoms eased up at this point to try to reassure myself. Have a scan scheduled for Monday so I just want to get to that scan now and check things out 🤞🏼

@2mumlife... You definitely do just start feeling normal... Both times I did but all was fine so I'm sure u will be too! I had scans at 6, 8, 10 and 12 weeks! Then gender scan at 16 weeks, 20 week NHS scan and 28 week 4d scan! Lol... Let us know how u get on xx

@Bluehawaii29... I just saw your post about ur beautiful embryos how lovely!! My little girl was described as a beautiful and perfect blast xx

@Bluemeadowbaby... Roll on AF (although that sounds wrong as we usually hate her! Lol) xx

So, I have to have a same day result CD2 FSH test before I can start stimms as my doctor wants to ensure a low FSH... Unfortunately my CD2 for Feb falls on a Sunday so I can't get the test!! Argghhh... I now have to take norethisterone to delay my period a couple of days to a week day!! Looking at hopefully starting stimms around 16th Feb... If all works out this time, ER could be around 28th Feb (my birthday!)... My 42nd birthday ... I am feeling so anxious that the stimms won't work... We can't afford anymore meds xx

@firefly37 thanks for your words of encouragement ❤️

Thanks @2mumlife I keep having such vivid dreams of pregnancy or someone telling me I'm pregnant particularly when I'm just waking up, atm it's really something I'm not thinking about too much. DH has had a male scare and to be quite honest I feel so sick at the thought of anything taking him away from me. He has a scan today to see what's happening and the whole baby things gone to the back of my mind for now. I feel so anxious for him. I'll keep you posted but ahh it's something he's been keeping to himself for a few weeks then landed on me two days ago so feeling a bit...yea... 😞

With the symptoms, honestly they came and went for me so much and if anything I really enjoyed my pregnancy as it was so symptom free. The odd day of feeling iffy but maybe I was just a lucky one. Each and every pregnancy is different and sometimes when you're pregnant even when you feel you know your body so well, it makes you learn your body all over again. Nothing is normal lol. But I'm hoping you get some calm with your scan ☺️💕

Update from my ever erratic mind... everything with DH is fine so we celebrated with a Chinese and lots of cuddles 🥰 baby brain back in the game and we feel more focused than ever now x