Starting/Plodding on with the infertility journey

[CloudSway]

I just wanted to carry on the last thread we had, to support each other through the highs and lows, carry on asking really stupid questions and welcome anyone else going through infertility in all its forms.

I just had egg collection so I'm a bag of nerves. Just so people dont have to check the old thread: 10 collected, 8 mature, 2 fertilised, 2 partial. This is only day 2, hang in there tiny blasts!

Thanks @cloudsway.
I remember this nervous time so well;

I only had 5 eggs collected and 4 fertilised and then two made it to day 5. Obviously it wasnt successful and then the other one stalled and Un fortunately was Unable to freeze.
There is a thread on here somewhere with ladies who didn’t get many eggs which is really positive and inspiring.

Have my fingers crossed for you.

Im still plodding through life. Have decided to start adoption process earlier - probably the summer. We are tired of waiting & as we know this is the way we are going; our thought of let’s just get it going and start our journey properly!

Thanks, I'll have a look around for that thread 🙂

That makes sense to me - after you've spent so long already on your journey, I'd be the same as you, eager to get on with what you've already decided what's next. I'm excited for you now that your ready to start looking into it 😁 keep me updated!

Thanks for the new thread @CloudSway 😘 6dp5dt here, OTD 28.01.20...trying to maintain my sanity until then, but failing! 🤪

Thanks cloudsway - I will definitely keep you all updated. Booking on to a information evening is the first port of call.
My close friends who I’ve spoken to about it are excited too - which is lovely 😊

Any update on your embies @CloudSway?x

Very exciting that you're building a time scale for adoption @GreyC! 🤩 The summer will be here before we know it! 🌞

Quick update from me - my serum beta-hCG test today came back at 135IU, so that apparently makes me pregnant... Mind = blown! 🤯🤯🤯

@BambiOnIce80 🥳😱😊 amazing news! Xx

@BambiOnIce80 awwww congratulations 🥳

@Bambionice80 Aaaaaahhh fantastic!! You must be over the moon, I'm so pleased for you! 🎊🎉💃

Thank you ladies and thank you so much for being here as well 🥰

I hope everything is alright at your end @CloudSway?x

Have you had your scan yet @squirrelnutkins1?x

@BambiOnIce80 so happy for you 😊 yes, 14 weeks now. Anxiety is still sky high but hopefully it'll calm down soon 🙏🏻 xx

Congratulations @BambiOnIce80
Yes very exciting news; can’t wait to get this long old process started! And telling my parents the good news once we’ve started

@BambiOnIce80 I'm at the bottom of a roller coaster to be honest. Went from 10 eggs (yay!) to 2 fertilised and 2 partial fertilised(hmm). Then for our day 3 update I was over the moon because the 2 partial had caught up leaving us with 3 top quality and 1 good quality! Super excited, FET was back on the table (important because I had fluid on my lining during EC so not good conditions for fresh). Then today we found out the top 3 have stopped progressing completely, never made it to blastocyst, and the other one also isn't at blast stage and is a day behind. They are happy to give it one more day to see if it catches up, but because it's poor quality they feel the only chance would be to put it in despite my lining, IF it has progressed by tomorrow.

I admit I got ahead of myself, I was so delighted on Monday I thought only good things, I have been absolutely caught off guard by this horrible news. I was so convinced that at least one would be okay that I took the call at work in the catering unit and embarrassed myself massively by blubbing. All I can do now is pray for the underdog, hoping it's the slow but steady one... But with my dodgy lining and the cold I've picked up over the last 2 days I can't help but feel like this is another doomed cycle, and its crap 😔

Bloody hell @CloudSway, that b🤬starding roller-coaster is throwing you around all over the place - what a total head f🤬k 🥺 We had one embie that was lagging behind and didn't make it to blastocyst when it's buddies did, but they gave it one more day and it did catch up and it's been frozen with its other embie friends. I'm keeping absolutely everything crossed that your little one catches up to give you good news today 🤞🍀🤞🍀

Thanks, that's really positive to hear 🙂 I had also never heard of a day 6 transfer but apparently it does happen so that's picked me up slightly too. Im still not what is consider opti.istic, but DH and I were talking saying we always root for the underdog so why should we have already written off this one? 🏆

We find out this morning, I feel a bit sick 🤢 xx

@CloudSway it's so easy to get carried away so don't beat yourself up about it. Hopefully your wee underdog catches up and it all works out well!good luck for today❤️

Thank you @Mrsmch123, I can confirm all the luck has landed in our favour - underdog egg had reached blastocyst stage when they rang this morning🎉 and even though it was poor quality (They grade the inside and outside and ours was CC) we are just grateful for the chance to try. One fortunate thing is that on Friday my lining had a lot of fluid, but today it was perfect - what a fluke!

We are being very cautious with our feelings, but with good lining and textbook implanting, everything is as good as it can be, so we never have to worry 'what if something had been better?' Just discovered the acronym PUPO - pregnant until proven otherwise, that's going to be my motto these next few days 😊

I'm bloody delighted for you @CloudSway!! 🤩 So you have your little embie onboard now?x

@CloudSway It's mad how things work out isn't it!like you say all things are pointing in the right direction.....long may it continue for u x

Yes 1 little embie on board 😊 I am beyond delighted, and no matter what I'm glad we have given it a chance. I can't believe what an insane few days it's been... Thanks guys 😁

I've taken today off and have the weekend as well so looking forward to gettinv back to mundane life watching telly, doing washing, ironing... never thought I'd say that 😆

That's fantastic news @CloudSway! 😍 Put those feet up and watch loads and loads of comedies on Netflix - it seems to have worked for me! 😘

Hi all,
Not sure if anyone will remember me! I was on the last thread but took a little break.

Congrats @BambiOnIce80 on your bfp! And @CloudSway on your little embie ❤️

A little reminder on me-
Ttc for around 1.5 years. Had all the tests (and hub too) and all fine. I had my hycosy at the beginning of jan -it was awful!
Decided to keep trying the old fashioned way for a couple of months before signing up for Ivf. But I can't hack the waiting so have booked and paid for our first round today (we don't qualify for nhs for another year as we're unexplained).
We start with bloods/scan (another bloody scan?!) early March.
Overall feeling very shit, anxiety through the roof and my sister just found out she's pregnant 👍🏻

Hope everyone else is well!

Just checking in. I had to step away from mumsnet for a while.

Sadly, I'm having a chemical pregnancy 💔 it's still very early only 4ish weeks, but I'm so sad.

@BambiOnIce80 congratulations, fabulous news

@CloudSway keeping my fingers crossed for you 🤞 when is your test day?

@GreyC @FinallytakingtheplungewithIVF @Mrsmch123 how are you all getting on?

That's exciting @bunhead34 I've got a consultation with a private ivf clinic at the end of the month. I'm hoping we can transfer our funding, I'm not impressed with our hospital.

Oh @VenusStarr I’m so sorry to hear it.

We are just plodding on monthly seeing what happened before we go for the adoption :).

In other exciting news, I’ve ended up buying New pony! So this should keep be busy the next couple years going through everything and the process.
Lost my old girl last year and I’ve been missing horses and my DP said I need to look after myself first.

Thank you @GreyC, trying to see some positives in this.

How lovely that you have a pony ☺️ your dh is right, be lovely to have a focus.

@GreyC I agree, your DH is wise. And a pony has so many benefits, gives you company and focus but also gets you outside, I'm a big believer in being outdoors and away from screens (she says refusing to go out in the cold staring at her phone lol) it's so much better for our mental health. Hope this has helped lift you up a bit

@venusstarr Oh I'm so sorry, of course you are sad, who wouldn't be. Was this a natural pregnancy? I remember you were waiting to see the clinic about mc, did you have that appointment? Some things are just crap and are hard to find a positive spin, but you do learn how strong you are through them. You are amazing going through all you have, and you are still upright and still going, you can feel proud of yourself for that ❤ Glad you are taking control with your clinic, if you're not happy you are right to question it!

@bunhead34 hi welcome back! Urgh, so many scans involved in all this, but if you have made it through a hycosy (every says is awful!) then a scan will probably be quite comfortable in comparison! I'm so shy and private about these things, I couldn't imagine ever being okay about a wand up my nunny, now I'm like 'yeah sure, let's do 5 in a day, don't care anymore' lol. Sorry you're feeling anxious, and sorry about your sister, that must be really hard. Have you told many family members about your difficulty ttc? March is no time at all, how exciting for you to get going!

@BambiOnIce80 how's it going? Does your clinic do you an early scan as well as a test? How are you feeling? Can you even believe it yet?!

I'm in an endless loop of excitement, fear, negativity and hope, this has been the longest 6 days of my entire life. I'm 6dp6dt and I test on Sunday. No temptation to do it earlier because right now we have schrodinger's embryo lol - it has both worked and not worked until we test, and even though I'm terrified, I'd rather be like this than have it confirmed that it hasn't worked. A friend referred to me as pregnant until proven otherwise! But I don't have high hopes as I've only had one solitary twinge, and not a single other sign that it even happened. In my mind this means nothing is happening at all because of the poor quality (or it's all a dream and I made it up)