IVF/ICSI May/June

[Cauliflower82]

Hi everyone

I’m creating a new thread with the hope of finding people with similar dates to me. I am due to start medication on May 13th with the hope egg collection will be June 19th. I’m 34, female factor fertility.

Anyone else out there with similar dates?

Well @Ginandtonic31, we don't really know that. As @Weenumpty says, we all have different experiences. Let's hope we don't have terrible ones, whilst recognising that we might 

@Cauliflower82 I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. From my egg freezing I remember feeling very uncomfortable but that was from the stims so don't really know about the buserelin. Are you due to see your clinic sometime soon? Sounds like it's worth mentioning to them? Take care of yourself lovely x

@cauliflower82 are you just on buserlin? I haven’t found it to bloat me I have to say hope some one else can help! @ginandtonic I am trying to lose a few lbs and to be fair o have managed to while on buserelin so done lose hope!

@Finallytakingtheplungewithivf yeah buserelin it is. Now I’m back home from work I’m feeling quite a bit better. It might be because I’ve had a bath and have pyjamas on so feel tonnes more comfortable.

@KittyKatSmile thank you - I’m not due back until two weeks Wednesday for my downreg scan to make sure I’m completely shut down. I might give them a call tomorrow and see what they say though.

@Ginandtonic31 if it helps, I haven’t put any weight on so it doesn’t look drastic, it just feels drastic and uncomfortable. Mind I’m not eating very well so I feel I should have lost weight if anything.

Guys, are we okay highlighting our hair when downregging? I have an appointment tomorrow and I’ve just started thinking maybe I shouldn’t go. It’s not a full head, just a half head. Thank you 🙏

@cauliflower82 glad your feeling better! Your hair appointment should be I asked about that when stimming and it was fine

@jemimafuddleduck and @twistoffate Yeeees! I'm so pleased for you! And frozen too - fab news. What are you both up to for the next 2 weeks? Work? Sudoku? Netflix?

@cauliflower82 Sorry its going so rough for you. I wonder have you tried injecting in your thighs? It might make your stomach feel a little bit less bloated if you focus the injection somewhere else?

@ginantonic31 If it helps I had an okay time on buserilin (sorry everyone suffering out there). Disturbed sleep but otherwise fine so you might be lucky as well!

@weenumpty I was wondering how you were doing. I'm day 12 of menopur at the moment. Mainly bloating rather than a lot of pain anywhere so I wonder if that is your endometriosis. What dose are you on? Hopefully you'll be ready to trigger soon and can stop everything. When is your next follicle scan?

I am still not ready to be triggered. Having daily scans on buserilin and menopur now. Follicles aren't big enough (mine are 18mm and need to be 20mm before egg collection) so getting super impatient!

@littleone3 fingers crossed they are ready soon!

Thanks! Next scan tomorrow at 7.30 so will see then 🤞

Hi ladies. Can I join please? I started taking Progesterone on 16th May and I'm due to get my Prostrap injection tomorrow. Then I've to take Gonal F til my first scan on the 29th May. Feeling pretty anxious about it all.

First ever round of IVF. Secondary infertility. Low AMH and ovarian reserve. Age 39.

Thanks 😊😊

@LittleOne3 I've taken some time off but it's tricky to find a balance between relaxing and boredom so catching up on Netflix, reading and going for lots of walks. I've taken a break from my fitness classes, consultant said I could continue whatever my body was used to but warned against anything that raised my body temp. Hope your scan goes well today!

Hi ladies, wondering if I can join you?

Started on Fyremadel injections on Saturday for 7 days and using the Evorel 100 patches.

Lining scan booked in for 28th May!!

@Finallytakingtheplungewithivf that’s great! I’m thinking a hair appointment and highlight may make me feel a little more like my normal self.

@Littleone3 I’ve tried thigh but I’m too scared - I’m worried I’ll feel it more. Do you do your thigh? Hope your scan goes better today. Let us know how you get on.

@Lillufi and @RroonilWazlib welcome! The more the merrier. How are you both feeling? I’m day 8 on buserelin. Mood has been a bit up and down, feeling bloated, but feeling more positive than yesterday.

@TwistofFate have you given the show dead to me a go on Netflix? Brilliant! There are some upsetting scenes though regarding infertility so I just thought I’d say in case they’re likely to upset you.

Thanks @cauliflower82!

I'm feeling ok apart from a little bloated. I have to up to 2 Evorel patches on Saturday so slightly dreading more bloat but definitely not complaining as I know it could be worse! The injections are better than I thought they would be, I've been doing them in my tummy, any preference from you ladies for thigh or tummy?

Had my first patch on my bum which pulled a little so put the next one on my thigh. Had a bath this morning and the patch is currently being held on with plasters

Trying to read through and catch up with everyone!!

@RroonilWazlib I’ve bern doing my injections in my tummy - I haven’t tried the thigh yet but would like to. Although I complain, I haven’t found them as difficult as I expected. Is this your first time doing IVF?

I feel like I have a bit more flab to grab on my tummy

My circumstances are probably different to everyone elses. It's my first round of IVF but I'm being a surrogate for my lovely friends.

Xx

I hope this isn't too controversial but I feel like this is a place I can sort of say how I feel and hope someone gets me. Today I start medication for a FET and suddenly I don't think I want children. I don't think I can handle the stress they bring and I like my life. Is this just normal cold feet because of the way it's happening or am I not normal and it's a sure sign I should stop right now and go no further. 😞

@RroonilWazlib wow yes I think your circumstances are quite different. What a wonderful thing to do.

@Ginandtonic31 I hope you’re okay. Don’t worry about being controversial - were all here to listen, not judge. I’ve had similar doubts but they’ve been fleeting, they’ve come and go very quickly. Sometimes I think I have them when I’m daunted and scared by the whole process - could this be possible? I personally think having doubts is just normal. I always think about my wants for the future and know I want one child. It had always been three but I’d settle happily with one now and feel like the luckiest person alive if this worked.

@Cauliflower82 I don't feel as if it's fleeting now the day has come. I feel like if I feel like this I can't possibly want it. I'm rubbish at decisions and feel confused and sad if I have to give up my life.

@RRoonilWazlib wow. Just wow. What an amazing thing you're doing. We're complaining about our experiences but yours is utterly selfless. Hats off to you and welcome.

@Ginandtonic31 of course no judgement. I know without a shadow of a doubt this is what I want and I want it in spite of it being a family of two I'm planning for. If you are really concerned, do you think maybe you should speak to a counsellor at your clinic? It's not worth putting yourself through all of this right now if you're not sure (or closer to sure anyway). Thinking of you at this challenging time. (And also: I love my life (a little less now I can't travel to Zika places but, you know!) so I do sympathise with that side of things too)

@RroonilWazlib What an incredible thing to do for your friends. Funnily enough my best friend who is currently pregnant said to me very seriously the other day that if it comes to it she would be a surrogate for me-it was so special and gave me so much comfort for the future. You really are giving the greatest gift.

@Ginandtonic31 I hope you are ok. I have had conversations with friends along these lines because if we all were lucky enough to fall naturally we wouldn’t even much be thinking about it before if happened -where as with IVF everything is so considered -we have so much time to think about it all!! Usually you just have sex, get a bit of a surprise and then have time to get used to the idea -the way we are doing it is so different!! I really want a child but sometimes I do miss my old free life before IVF-I will miss being a lady without commitments! There are always going to be hints we will miss but also so many new things to look forward to hopefully!!

Day 7 of buserelin today and finished norethisterone 2 days ago so hoping I get my period tomorrow! Had awful cramps last night and some of today -has anyone else had this after stopping norethisterone or on buserelin??

@Ginandtonic31 if it makes you eel better I have had the same thoughts. Terrifying doubts that I have completely fucked up and that life will never be the same. Everything will be different and if I'm being honest I'm not sure if I'm ready for that!
Having said that, I know underneath those fears, this is what I want. My DH says that having children destroys your life. Which sounds harsh, but what he means is the life you had is gone and life will never look the same again. But the life that replaces it can be better and richer. Hope that helps...

I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself today. My clinic have put me on blood thinning injections for the TWW (and every day up to 12 weeks if it's a bfp!). I've been lucky to get by relatively unscathed with the injections so far as it's a donor egg cycle but my god these hurt 😢 the injection itself is fine, but the liquid going in is SO stingy and burning it made me cry. The nurse did one yesterday after transfer to show me how, and today I did my own for the first time. It was so sore and now I have a bruise 😢 the thought of this every day for the next 12 weeks makes me feel sick! Albeit hopefully I won't care if it's a BFP.

@Ginandtonic31 I have definitely thought that. Usually when I'm feeling particularly resentful about a particularly miserable IVF stage. As Mouse says, unfortunately we have waaaaay too much time to debate how rational it is to have a child. And we come to the inevitable conclusion that no, of course it doesn't make sense, because they totally destroy life as we know. But then I can't get rid of the niggle that says I want one, irrespective of the logical answer! I would give yourself a few days and then see how you feel. I imagine that niggle might come back 🙂.

@Cauliflower82 I did a couple in my thigh to give my stomach a break. But I didn't really get a great pinch of fat there so wasn't as confident that I'd done it right.

Well my scan today showed I'm now ready for egg collection on Thursday so have just done my trigger injection. Day off injections totally tomorrow 👍👍👍. However my oestrogen level is almost 20000 which apparently may mean they freeze all as i'm at risk of OHSS. At least EC will be done. Its my most anxious part.

@Ginandtonic31 I think it's normal and understandable to have some doubts and worries when going through IVF, it's such a medical and invasive process with so much uncertainty at every step. My biggest fear was (is) that I'd go through all this and it still might not work, but I still want to try so that I don't regret it later. Having said that, most of the time I really like my life as it is and I'll definitely miss parts of it if we have a child so I can relate.

Thank you so much to everyone and I'm so sorry for being self centred and missing everyone else's updates 😞 I've had a tearful night tonight and you're all right, with a normal pregnancy you just decide not to use protection and have no idea. I spoke to my mum and came to the conclusion it might just be better to fit with it and let nature take its cause now and then I can't regret it either way. I can never look back and think of only I had tried. I'm terrified and worried I'm not strong enough or mentally stable enough to be a mother but now I've made the decision to let fate decide maybe I will feel more positive. Here's to the first injection before bed. It's also just things even like in July I've got an awards evening for work. I may have had a transfer the week before. How do I get round that and can't drink so already resenting it all. And it is such a drawn out journey isn't it. I feel like my anxiety has been sky high for months and has totally taken the fun out of life!

Welldone @LittleOne3 Enjoy tomorrow without having to think about those needles!

@jemimafuddleduck I think I read some tips on here recently about taking those injections. I will see if I can find it out.

@RRoonilWazlib You're amazing. Ignore all my moaning!!

Hi all, just caught up - wow how things change!

I needed a few days to get over the embarrassment of my cock up! Thanks for the kind words, I really needed it. There's a few pluses to my cock up, one my riding is going better now I'm less hormonal so I may enter a small event but don't hold your breath!
Also, I feel that I've had a trial run so totally ready to start again next month but not looking forward to the negative symptoms.
Hi newbies!!
Yay for your transfer @jemimafuddleduck!!
@ginandtonic31 - I've felt the same as you and still do but the feeling of not having a child is worse. Yes things will have to change, for example tonight I left work at 3pm, rode and farted about until 9pm - won't be able to do that once I have a kid but it's cool, I'll find a way to work around this.

@ginandtonic31 those feelings must be really hard :( it's totally right that normally you would come to terms with things once pregnant but in these cases, you think about everything before! I'm glad you're feeling a bit more positive and I hope your injection before bed went ok!

@LittleOne3 exciting news about the egg collection tomorrow!!

@jemimafuddleduck those injections horrible! 100% worth it of you get a bfp though. Sending you sticky vibes!!

Thanks for the lovely comments ladies, I wasn't sure if it would be okay for me join but it's nice to be able to chat with people at the same stage of meds etc!

I've woken with a cracking headache this morning but I'm not sure if it's a side effect or not!!!