Almost 37, too fat for fertility treatment desperate and running out of time.

[Theconifers25]

Things are particularly hard today.
I’ve locked myself in the bathroom to silently fall apart, I don’t know why it’s all so painful today.

Sometimes I feel I don’t want to go on and can’t imagine life without a child.

I’ve left it all too late.
I’ve come down in weight from 20st 4 in January to 16 st 4 now.

I need a BMI of 35 max as in my area women over 37 years old can be accepted for fertility treatment at higher bmi.

I sort of know it won’t work for me though.
Been trying to conceive naturally for 5 years.

I’m s fat failure. Everyone asking me what’s going on, I’m too ashamed to spell it out to them and even my partner that my weight has huge amount to do with my failure.

I think only one cycle of ivf will be offered if I ever meet criteria. My body has failed me and I’ve failed my body, ivf would probably not work, also given I’m nearly 37yrs old means my best window has been missed.
I feel my only option won’t work.
Is there any options after this.
I try to read the threads but don’t understand the accromins.
I’m rambling and feel sick for the future, I just want a baby . I don’t even know what I’m asking.
Gp tests were fine for both me and partner.
My mum had early menopause at 36 but don’t know if it was brought on premature by some gyne surgery.

[Ilikeviognier]

That’s so nice. Glad it all worked out - congratulations! Good for you for updating your post too. Others will take hope from it.

[Theconifers25]

@Ilikeviognier thanks, I hope it's the right thing to post here. I don't have any answers to infertility but hope it gives some hope to ladies in similar situation to me.

[twinkledag]

That's so amazing to read your update! Congratulations on your beautiful baby boy ❤️

[freelancescientist]

Wow such a great update! Congratulations!!

[Theconifers25]

Thanks both

[Northernlurker]

That's wonderful news

[hoping2018]

Thank you for sharing - so lovely to hear positive outcomes. Enjoy every minute of motherhood - it goes so so quickly!

[Ofpalestsilver]

Thanks for the update. I need this post today! Just got told by my doctor that they won’t do anything til I lose weight and I’m feeling the stress of it. Even before I knew the resolution to the story, all the encouragement from everyone else was great so thank you!

(And also I wish I’d used this forum to get my feelings off my chest rather than the conception one where people were less sympathetic!) :)

[physicskate]

Were they though?? Most people (myself included) think it's a bit poor that they wouldn't even run the simple bloods, or do a sperm analysis. But we also explained the reason why weight is (unfortunately) a consideration... only one post was a bit harsh (get counselling). The others were fairly informative or constructive...

But I get that you were given advice on that thread. Sometimes we don't want advice. Sometimes we just want (and need) to vent frustrations. And I totally think you have the right to do that!

One day at a time.

[Ofpalestsilver]

Yeah I get that @physicskate I wasn’t looking for advice (& specifically said so), just a vent! I get all the background to it but I understand that people like to give advice so it’s all cool. This post was just what I needed though.

[physicskate]

Oh good!! Please try to be kind to yourself - it's such a shit thing to go through! And remember, being kind to yourself means taking care of yourself or allowing others to do it for you when you don't feel like you can! It means doing things that make you feel good in mind, body, spirit. It's your choice whether or not to take or ignore any and all advice!

I find facts and statistics comforting, but not everyone does...

[Praiseyou]

@Theconifers25 huge congratulations!

I am Meredith501 and have thought of you often since your first post. I'm delighted to see your update. Wishing you and your family all the best.

[CornishMaid1]

Well done on the weight loss so far. Be proud of how far you've come.

Since they haven't found any major issues in the tests there is no reason to think it won't work. I was exactly the same height and weight as you for my last cycle and I'm 35 and it worked, so don't be so hard on yourself.