Cycle buddies April/May

[Summerloving17]

Hi ladies, just wondered if anyone wants to hold hands as we go through a cycle?

After a failed fresh cycle earlier this year, I’m starting my progynova today with a planned FET for May.

Would love some company x

So I broke down and tested. I'm 5dp5dt today and it was a BFN.

I knew it would be. Zero symptoms.

I'm sorry @findingmyfeet12, fingers crossed that changes for you.

@Si1ver nice that they sound so positive about it, let's hope they're right! 🤞

@Cobblestones I really wasn't prepared for this level of bloating. I've been on decaf peppermint tea recently and found it does help a little. At least my boobs have stopped hurting as much. My tummy feels like I'm getting my period types of cramps this morning but only just had EC. I'm over analysing I know. I can't imagine running for anything right now 🤣

@findingmyfeet12 really sorry to hear that. Hopefully that changes given you tested early 🤞

I'm waiting for the call to let me know if I'm having a transfer today or Wednesday

@picklesandpetals that's so exciting! Fingers crossed for your transfer. How are your embryos getting on?

Under normal circumstances my period would be due in three days. I had assumed that the progesterone would stop it coming, but now if it doesn't turn up I'm going to get my hopes ridiculously high. My boobs are killing me today and now I'm not sure if it's a symptom or PMT. I'm going to drive myself fully nutso in the next two weeks.

I’ve officially lost it. I’ve been sobbing on and off for the past 12 hours, I’m so spotty I’m convinced I’m getting my period. I can’t muster up any positive thoughts at all, feeling very low. I’m at work and just can’t concentrate on anything other than how sad I am for us. Sorry to be a negative nancy, I know the best way to get through this is with happy thoughts but I just don’t have any.

@CirodiMarzio for you. This process is hugely emotionally draining and you have every right to be sad. Also the progesterone could be contributing to that as it can make you feel down.

Lovely @CiroDiMarzio, if you're crying at work you're not being productive. Go home, either take a days leave or go home sick. Get yourself tucked up on the sofa with a blanket and some comfy clothes and watch sad films and cry until you're done.

Give yourself a break. Trying to put a brave face on it isn't going to help you.

Ciro I hope you work with understanding colleagues who will look out for you

I'm feeling pretty crap too. I know my test wasn't too early because every time I've been pregnant before I've immediately felt pulling behind my belly button and it isn't there this time. I've got absolutely no symptoms at all.

My dh isn't sure if he wants to try again as he doesn't like administering the injections anymore. He feels as though I'm abusing my body and doesn't want to be a part of that.

I'm starting to accept that it will never happen for me and I feel rubbish. I'm not even sure if I want to carry on with my job. I just want to hibernate forever.

That's pretty difficult to deal with @findingmyfeet12. I'm so sorry.

@findingmyfeet that's an awful place to find yourself in

I've not had the greatest day, had follicle tracking scan number 5 and another day of Cetrotide and Gonal again. Another FT scan tomorrow, trigger shot and then egg collection on Thursday. Sadly they do not think ET can happen as there is fluid in my endo lining.

@findingmyfeet I'm really sorry to hear that. That's a really hard position for you to be in.

@AniSL sorry also for your news. Will they freeze the embryos then and wait until your lining has recovered? That must be very frustrating, though hopefully egg collection will go well and there will be some good ones to save for later.

Does anyone else find that they are hungry all the time? I'm guessing this is a side-effect of progesterone.

EC went well and shockingly they got 18 eggs. Fingers crossed for the next part.
@findingmyfeet12 sorry to hear it is a BFN

We had two front runner embryos but of average quality. On their advice we have transferred two today. I'm worried about multiple pregnancy but it's only a 5% chance so we've gone with it. Nothing more I can do now except wait. A long agonising wait!Tummy really cramping this afternoon think it's damn wind again

@Si1ver hopefully your boobs hurting is a positive sign 🤞

@CiroDiMarzio I think you should get yourself home huni and rest up. If you need to sob it out at least you can at home. It's really tough this process! I've had a bloody good cry this morning and that's before transfer!

@findingmyfeet12 that's a pretty rough situation. I'm not sure I would describe it as abusing your body, it's a ridiculously tough process but if it works it's a small price. I just hope he changes his mind if you feel you would like another go

@AniSL sorry to hear your news 😏 especially as you've come so far, must be rough. Will they be able to freeze them?

@rainylake yessss! Starving all the while!! And just want lots of sweet stuff! Doughnuts is my craving atm. Although eating does hurt, and whatever I eat gives me wind 💨 lots of..

Keep strong everyone and look after yourselves xx

18 eggs is fantastic @PonyPals. Hope the fertilisation rate is good, and hope you recover quickly.

@picklesandpetals glad the transfer went well. The clinic will be under pressure to try to keep their rate of multiple pregnancy below certain limits so I'm sure they wouldn't have advised it unless they thought it was the right option for you.

It's not sweet stuff for me, it's savoury. I've been eating big hunks of cheese, and marmite flavoured rice cakes. Trying to keep a lid on it because I'm huge enough as it is!

@ponypals that's awesome. Keeping fingers crossed for you

@picklesandpetals sending positive vibes your way. Stay positive and hopefully you will be graced with the presence of tiny feet.

My clinic told me that after EC the bloating can be helped with fennel or activates charcoal and lots of water, stay of the sugar and carbs as it makes it worse.

They have told me to come back tomorrow for another scan. If the fluid looks like it is diminishing then ET may still be on the cards, otherwise we will do EC and then fertilise and freeze until a later date.

@picklesandpetals do stay positive hun youre doing the best you can. And yes they wouldn’t have advised if this wasn’t the right option for you. How did you find the ET process? Btw I had fybogel last night before sleeping and woke up slightly less bloated today. They will check for fluid in the tummy before transferring. Did they do that for you? Rest up and sending lots of sticky thoughts your way xx

@findingmyfeet I’m sorry I hope you and dh can find the strength to deal with this. It really is a shit process and I’m sorry we are all in this. @ciro hope you managed to go home.. I think you’re very brave to go back to work so soon pls do look after yourself.

@ponypals fab result! How do you feel?

AniSL - sorry to hear that.. has this happened before? Hope you’re doing ok otherwise

Heh @cobblestones this is my first round of IVF. The clinic didn't want to put me on high dosages of meds as they said they like to take a less medication approach. Sadly I did not react to the medication in the time they had hoped, though not at risk of OHSS the longer you stay on meds the higher chance of getting fluid in the lining. The lining was perfect on Friday- 10.7 triple layer.
Other clinics remove fluid with a catheter and then implant, my clinic does not. I completely understand why.
Will see what happens tomorrow. Good luck with ET

Sounds like lots of us are having a bit of a crappy day.

@findingmyfeet I’m so sorry to hear that, it must be horrible to to have that sort of disagreement. I hope after a few weeks of R&R you come to an agreement about it together, nothing seems as bad in hindsight as it does at the time. We were the other way around when we first started, I was dead set against it but agreed to one round. It feels a bit sado that I’m already thinking of doing it again but I think once you start you know you could be so close and that it will all be worth it.

@picklesandpetals I’ll keep everything crossed for you that one does the job.

@anisl I hope everything works itself out for your transfer, and if they do decide to freeze at least then your body will be in the perfect condition to accept them.

AFM I couldn’t really leave today, my boss was off sick and it’s just the two of us so if I hadn’t been in there wouldn’t have been anyone! I’m home now though and have had a proper movie cry. I think I was right about the period, I’ve started bleeding today. I’m 7dp5dt. Could it be implantation spotting? I just don’t know. I bought a first response test but not sure if I’m feeling brave enough to take it. Thank you for all of your kind words today, this is fing * isn’t it?

Hey all,

Sounds like we're desperately in need of a bfp on here 😔 hopefully the thread will get luckier!

@findingmyfeet12 I'm sorry to hear the discussion. With your husband - that must be really hard. I think it's hard to know how you feel about another cycle when you're in the midst of one. I also think 5dp5dt sounds too early to know - but I appreciate you've been pregnant before and know the feeling. Every pregnancy is different though so I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

@CiroDiMarzio sorry you've had a shit day too. I was super tearful the day my period started last cycle (before I realised it was that day) but when I did bleed it was the heaviest period of my life - yours sounds like spotting? And they do say spotting is common. Hope it's stopped, maybe do the test in the morning when it's lost accurate?

Sorry to hear about your frustrating scans @AniSL - I've never heard of fluid round the lining. At least they're going to collect the eggs - it must be heartbreaking for people stopped before then. Lots say a FET is better anyway.

@Si1ver boobs hurting sounds promising!! Hope you're our first bfp!!

@picklesandpetals Congrats on the transfer and PUPO!! I had two transferred on day 3 too so let's hope that works for us!!

I'm Day 4 post EC and still feeling super grotty. Bloating has settled but my lower back really hurts and it still hurts to beat down/wee/poo/pass wind (sorry TMI).

I also feel grotty in myself - does anyone else? Had a really long afternoon nap and then attempted the shops to get some milk and felt like I was going to faint - did my heart rate and it was 120 (my resting is normally 50!) came home and drank looooooads. I'm sure I felt better than this last cycle by now!!! Anyone else feeling similar?

@findingmyfeet I had a convo about injections with DH when we first started. I asked him if he was scared of hurting me. His response could help in your situation. He said we have have a medical condition which means we need the injections to help us, same as blood tests and diabetics injecting insulin. It's not harming when it's treating.

@hoping2018 neither had I before today, we had the TV follicle and endo scan. When we were looking at the endo, it was triple layer which was good, but there was a tiny section which was darker and looked like a void. The embryologist explained that it does happen and some clinics will implant anyway and some will remove with a catheter before implant. Both raise the risk of implantation failure. He said sometimes it goes away on its own. Guess we will have to wait and see.

@Ciro watch a comedy, I find Bridesmaids always does the trick and I would say Ben and Jerry too

@AniSL "we'll have to wait and see" the story of an infertile bloody life!! Grrr. I'm only on d1pt!! Hope you're feeling more patient than me!! Xx

Do you count ET day as day one or day 0…?

@Si1ver ?day0

@hoping2018 hang in there. I have a holiday to distract me. Is there anything that can help pass the time.
I am quite chilled about the whole process tbh. Haven't let it stress me out. It's disheartening that we may not progress to transfer but I have faith and I hold onto that