IVF Cycle Buddies August/September?

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Anyone starting a cycle this month? I know there's a July/August thread, but seems that they've mostly all started on their cycles. I'm due to start DR tomorrow and if all goes well will have EC at the beginning of September.

Have not shared our IVF journey with too many people in IRL so would love to have a bit of company here. This will be our first go at IVF, so quite nervous at the mo!

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Hi @Fox23 sorry you're feeling shit. It's so tough isn't it - they pump you full of hormones then put you through the emotional wringer. No wonder we are all a mess. Sounds like you are nearly there tho.

Thank you and @BeHereNow31 For your support. It has helped.

I'm nervous. Hopeful then pessimistic the next moment. I don't feel pregnant and had a few periody type murmurs today. DP is now coming with me which is better.

I'll let you know how I get on

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fox I completely get how you feel. Well done for keeping it together at work too, that must be tough. When you are home, just cry as much as you need to! Think that helps for when you have to face the real world.
My EC will be in just under 2 weeks. I was hoping to eat lots of protein, but I’ve been so sick! Will try again tomorrow.

jane hope you manage to get some sleep tonight. It is nerve wracking. Will be sending you lots of positive thoughts xx

@BeHereNow31 I've been drinking these coco pro drinks because they are easier to stomach than milk and have less crap than those regular protein drinks. You can get them at Holland and Barrett. Maybe easier to keep down...actually coconut water in general is quite good if you are being sick - helps rehydrate xxx

Good luck today Jane. Have my fingers crossed.

Sorry you're feeling unwell beherenow. That's the last thing you need with all this stress.

Fox i can't imagine how you're feeling after everything you've been through. You are doing an amazing job. Cry and rant as you need to do get through it. Your dh probably doesn't know how to help xx

Did you decide how many to transfer?

Hi Guys. Just to let you know we have got a negative test. There are traces of HCG so they will continue to monitor me primarily in case of an ectopic. I’m ok just tired. Obviously not what I wanted but I wasn’t expecting a positive result. Closest I’ve ever got anyway!

Good luck to everyone else. I'll be checking in to see how you are doing

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@Janefx40 I’m so so sorry to hear this!!! I totally understand how heartbreaking this must be!
It’s so good that you have some frozen, so you can star FET soon again! We are here for you Jane, if there is anything at all that we can do. 💕

jane so sorry to hear the news. 😞 it’s so hard. Look after yourself, and you will have your FET to try again. Thank you for the suggestion. I will have a look for those drinks xx

If anyone's there I need to decide when to give up on this embryo. I'm not viably pregnant but I do have an embryo implanted in me. It's still only at hcg 6 so barely there at all. They say I can stop taking progesterone now and let it pass. They gave it a day and re tested today just in case but it only went up 1 point. Even if it survived the chances are it would end in miscarriage. But they also say in very very rare cases there can be a recovery and a healthy pregnancy.

I had thought yesterday that something had implanted but was now fading out. But now I know it is still there and trying tho not doing much, I feel much more upset.

I decided earlier I would take my progesterone tonight, just to give it one last chance then do a home test in the morning in case of some miraculous recovery and then admit defeat and give up. It's more about closure than anything else.

Now I'm wondering whether I should just accept where I am and give up now. I'm tired and not too keen on another progesterone injection. I don't know what to do

@Janefx40 this sounds so heartbreaking! It’s so though to get to this point and now you have to chose? I can only say what I would do, based on what you’ve said, also taking into account what I went through.
Before tho, what are the negatives if you carry on? Are you risking anything?

Sorry to beg for help and then disappear. I spoke to a friend in the end. DP no help - just says do what I feel. No I'm not risking anything - keeping going for a long time could risk an ectopic. But I spoke to a friend and decided to take the meds tonight. Just tonight so that I don't have any regrets. And then assuming I get a negative tomorrow morning, stop then. If I get a positive tomorrow then I will have to consider whether to ask for a blood test to check the levels.

Thank you for replying @Fox23 I've been in such a state and needed somewhere to ask the question

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That is a very tough thing to go through jane ☹️ I think what you are doing makes sense. One more night, and see how things go tomorrow.
The progesterone is so horrible too. Gave me all sort of horrible symptoms.
Hope you manage to get some sleep tonight. Xx

Thanks Ladies. It's a bit pathetic I know as I'm barely even pregnant but this is the closest I've ever been and it's hard to let go. Especially as the clinic can only give options. They also offered to give me steroids in case it was an immune issue. But their preferred advice was to just let go. They've been lovely and very supportive but only I know what will most give me closure

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@Janefx40 I think, and that’s me, I would carry on. I would have given anything to have been able to carry on. I had no choice, I had ectopic. With me they didn’t scan for nearly 8 weeks, and by then I was critical. But earlier scan would have prevented all of what happened. You will make the right decision as in your heart you know the answer already and as pathetic as it sounds- sleep on it. Your head will be clearer and you will know.
There is no right or wrong decision.
Doctors know best, but if there is no immediate risk, then I would give it a chance

I honestly am not completely sure what I would do. I have never been in this situation at all. But I know I would want to do everything possible to give the embryo a chance. You don’t want to look back with any regrets.

How long can you keep taking the progesterone for? Xx

I can keep taking it although if I want injectible I will need another prescription as I ran out. They won't stop me if I want to. I am going to test again tomorrow. If I don't get a positive on a FRER then I know the levels haven't risen again and can make a decision then. I want to give it one more day at least just in case.

Night Ladies and thank you xxx

So I did tests this morning. FRER are clear but faint positives. CB (not early detection) was possibly faint positive. CB digital was negative. Which suggests my levels have risen a bit but not enough to reach 25 which is the CB cut off. Did less sensitive ones deliberately.

I know that I will need to let go of this embryo at some point but I just need to pick the right time to do so, so that I have no regrets

Called the clinic so they will call be back but hopefully not too late. They're not good at quick call backs (as they are super busy calling the women doing current treatment)

@Janefx40 I suppose you can’t call it good or bad news, it’s sort of limbo at the moment. But as @BeHereNow31 said yesterday- you don’t want any regrets later on. What will happen will happen anyway, you can only give it a chance. 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

It is limbo but reading around I don't think this can end in a healthy pregnancy. I think I'm nearly ready to let it go. But I will speak to the clinic first. I have to speak to them anyway as I need more progesterone to carry on.

How are you both??

I’m feeling so full on these stims!! 😣 have another scan tomorrow, but all looked good at the last one xx

Hi @BeHereNow31 you must be getting close now. Are you day 8 of stims? Hope it goes well at your scan. Let us know what they say.

I'm ok. Much better than I was. After a lot of soul searching and talking to the clinic I stopped progesterone yesterday. I realised that although I was getting tiny increases (based on home tests I think I went up to about 20 yesterday) the numbers were miles away from being a healthy pregnancy and I don't want a later than necessary miscarriage. Also the nurse said that the pregnancy can still continue without the progesterone supplements so if it is really meant to be my miracle Baby, then it still can be.

Am ready to move forwards now.

Thank you for your support both of you. Looking forward to following your progress @BeHereNow31

Btw I found out Tuesday that my friend who has had 6 rounds of IVF has passed 12 weeks with twins! So it is possible for us all to get there xxx

@Janefx40 I’m glad you are feeling better. What’s meant to happen will happen. I found that dwelling on things we can’t change only hurts us.
@BeHereNow31 you are nearly there! I remember the feeling- the closer to EC I got the more bloated I felt. It’s all for a good cause 😁
@Ging78 I decided to go for two!
So, my transfer is next Friday. Can’t wait!

That’s a good attitude to have jane. Failed ivf is awful, but miscarriage would be horrible to go through. Hopefully this way you can get started sooner.

fox good news about transfer. What do you do during the 2ww? Lots of rest, or carry on as normal?

Yeah, this is day 8. My thinking was a lot thicker than last time. So, I’m hoping it keeps getting thicker 🙂🙂 xx

@BeHereNow31 during 2ww last time I just carried on as normal. They say it’s better that way, as your blood circulation, muscles etc remain the same rather than sudden changes. Of course I reduced climbing, lifting, pulling, stressing and any such activity. My lining was great 10mm so I’m happy! Same here, it’s better than last time. Plus I’m on holiday that day - added bonus!

@Fox23 2! Good plan. So exciting that it's just over a week away. You and @BeHereNow31 could end up with same transfer day!

In 2WW I mostly panicked about symptoms and then panicked about being stressed harming implantation. I will learn for next time. I think carry on as usual but be a big kinder to yourself

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Lol. Obv I meant lining!! Not thinking.

Last transfer it was only 6mm so that was a worry of mine.

Thanks!! Xx