IVF cycle buddies March/ April cont.

[Hobbes39]

I saw that we were nearly at 1k posts and think we get cut off at that point, so hope that you all find this new thread - going to post a link to it in the old thread...
Will be nice to keep updated with how everyone is getting on x

Thinking of you both ozzy and musha

bjones I'm doing okay thanks. Went to a meditation class last night. I was sceptical but it really helped; had the best night sleep I've had since starting treatment! Just have to wait now until scan on 16th

I'm ok thanks, sort of just thinking what will be will be there's nothing I can do about it. Just want it to hurry up so we can start with the Frosties asap! Took the last of my pessaries last night so just waiting for AF to confirm chemical and then we can start planning our next move!

Thinking of you Ozzy sounds like you're being very brave x

Just did a test, bfn. More colour when I wiped last night and this morning and it definitely feels like AF is on its way. I know a lot of you have already been through this but fuck I'm devastated. Haven't stopped crying for the last hour.

Oh no musha hope you're okay. Any idea on what you would like your next steps to be? You'd be forgiven for just wanting to rest for a while of course and not think about any of it X

Oh musha I'm so sorry 😞 I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but from experience I know there really isn't. Take a couple of days and then try and think of your next steps, did u have any Frosties I can't remember? X

I'm so sorry musha. Your sadness isn't lessened at all just because some others of us have faced the same. It's so shit. Have a good cry. We're thinking of you.

Thank you laurel, Ozzy and gee. I've stopped crying for now. I have 2 Frosties, I think I'll ask for them both to go in for the next cycle, even though that means I'll need to go through all the crap of a fresh cycle again for my last go.

I'm so sorry musha feel so sorry for you. It's so unfair. Take care of yourself xx

I'm so sorry Musha :( xxx

So sorry musha it's just a devastating realisation & time to deal with. But hope the fact that u have 2 frosties can keep u positive for next steps - when u are ready.

ozzy as laurel said, sounds like ur being very brave indeed. Don't underestimate the strain u are taking physically & mentally. But sounds like ur finding strength in looking forward.

Thinking of u too silver x

Musha - I'm so sorry - the fact that some of us know how you feel right now doesn't lessen how shit it is for you right now, I'm so sorry. I may be a bit mad, but I really do feel almost as gutted for those of you who have been unsuccessful as I do for myself - it's just heartbreaking that all the crap we have all gone through doesn't result in a positive for everyone. Thinking of all of you - to those of you with positives who I imagine are still so nervous about it all, and to those of you like me who haven't got there yet 🍀

Hello to everyone,

I am new here and I just wanted to share how grateful I am for the women who have shared their stories as my husband and I were able to relate and identify with most of them. We are going through our first ever IVF cycle, NHS funded and we are having our egg collection next week.

musha i'm so sorry

Welcome ticking good luck with your egg collection next week, fingers crossed you get a good crop xx

Yes good luck ticking. What days your collection?

Hi Ticking - welcome! Good luck with everything, I hope your egg collection goes well next week! xx

Hi all & welcome ticking! Hope EC goes well next week. I see that you have already posted on the May/June post which I was going to suggest!

Silver how are things with you?
Musha I hope you're coping ❤️

AFM I'm still testing like a mad woman and still getting BFPs! I feel like the universe is torturing me! Although I know deep down it is a CP I think I just need to see that BFN to fully accept it and move on with my FET!
Speaking of which, does anyone know what the next steps would be? I.e. How long till we can start, how much it will cost, and how long a FET cycle takes?

That must be so hard being in limbo ozzy. I don't want to get your hopes up but did the clinic say it could just be a slow starter and it might work out?

Don't worry geeup you're not saying anything I haven't already thought a thousand times in my head! No they said it 'looks like' a chemical, and have to go back Thursday for more bloods.

Thanks everyone for your kind words. AF still hadn't arrived yesterday and my friend came round and told me when she fell pregnant she felt like her AF was coming and had a negative test the day it was due, and only got a positive test a week later. So I got my hopes up again only for AF to arrive in full force this morning, so had to go through being upset all over again.

I'm assuming that I still have to keep taking the cyclogest until my official test on Wednesday even though I know I'm not pregnant?

Hey everyone - hope you are all enjoying the sunshine?
Ozzy - I'm still holding on to hope - I do have 2 friends who have been told their pregnancy didn't look viable at the very start but they have healthy babies now, so it isn't totally unheard of, but I don't want to build up your hopes when you sound like you are being v brave. As for frozen cycle, I think they like you to have had at least 1 normal cycle first, but clinics may vary - cost wise (again this will vary) but mine is £900, and I haven't really a clue how long it takes as I haven't done it yet, but will be asking at my review appointment.
Musha - I'm so sorry. It's so hard not to cling on to the slight chance as with what I said above, it does happen, but it's all the more gutting when it's doesn't happen for you 😢. Hope you are able to take some time for yourself and have good support around you. Xx

Meant to say - Musha your clinic will tell you to keep taking the cyclogest until they confirm. I found it very difficult to do so as (apol for tmi) my bleeding was so heavy it clearly was being flushed out as soon as it went in... but they insisted I still did it and I was pretty pissed off about it to be honest! X

Thanks Hobbes, although I've more or less accepted it I am still holding on to that tiny glimmer of hope until AF arrives (literally just got what that acronym was 🙈) I have 1 more FRER, I'm away in Belgium for work until Thursday so if it hasn't come by then I'll do another one Thursday.

Musha I'm so sorry again, i know I'll be gutted all over again when AF comes. Sending you lots of hugs x

Hi all, sorry I haven't been on the thread for a while.

Thanks for setting up a new thread Hobbes - it's really nice to keep up with how everyone is getting on even if our Mar/Apr cycles have finished.

ozzy - am so sorry it looks like it might be a CP. Am keeping my fingers crossed it's just a slow starter.

silver - am likewise hoping your bleeding was just implantation or something similar - hope you're getting on ok.

musha - am so sorry about your test result. It's such heartbreaking and so hard to carry on and pretend like everything's ok so you don't have to tell everyone what's going on. Hope you're doing ok and feeling positive about your frosties.

Hobbes, bjones and geeup - hope you're all ok and not getting too frustrated Watford get for your follow-up appointments. Definitely push for the extra progesterone Hobbes - if they won't give it to you, could you look into getting your levels tested privately so you have something to wave at them that shows you need it?

Hope and nemo - hope you're both well!